1. Something Awful

Right now
It is hard to judge
If I walked away from this
Or I was forced out
By a group of
Superior human beings
That feed off the insecurities
They created
To keep me in check
I think I once knew you
If allowed to despise me
I am sure you would
With the taste of disgust
It is certain you would fail
I am sure you will
I have been the attacker
I have been attacked
Words sometimes can cut deeper
Than the actions that grew
From resentment within your own imagination
I wait for the confrontation
Patiently

2. Gnawing Lisp

I have this flaw
A massive misrepresentation of what some think
I am or have done
To a group of individuals it's a one sided story
Fabricated for the better of none
It's hard to forget
Like so many things in life that is burned deep within
It's hard to let go
Like so many times before
I want this wiped out
I have felt the bitter laugh's warm breath on the tip of my ear
Whispers of disapproval
It was degrading
Corrupted one liners to make it seem like
I was at fault

3. Madness Is God

I have created you so I have the right to do with you what I will
You have degraded my name
That I do not deny
You will suffer

I exist as I am
That is enough
Let me grow
Only to be reborn again
For my second chance is death

For seeing your hatred is only passive when you continue to ignore me
Harm me with humiliation
That I cannot deny
You will now suffer

I exist as I am
That is enough
Let me grow
Only to be reborn again
For my second chance is death

I will show you that nothing matters more than death itself

Memory is more better than the event

I exist as I am
That is enough
Let me grow
Only to be reborn again
For my second chance is death

4. Miracle Worker

Actions that will just take you along numbly
I defend myself against their growling pursuit
I never asked to be placed here on their mountain
Just put me down
My continuing howls terrify nature
A belief that this life will come to an end
I ward off any signs of kindness given by the weak
I wanted to be buried while I fought off this feeble mass
Beware
You are stronger
I deem
Myself weaker
Look out
Cries are scaring
Everyone
Left here to suffer

5. Empty Form

It is grotesque to think we were
Labeled as friends
Looking out for my best interest by denying me a safe place to rest
From being pushed off the wall I stood with you on
I forgot how to tell the difference
Between all of this
Naive and gullible
I keep telling myself that you will get yours
All I see is smiles
All I hear is laughter
Reasons are smothered by frustration
Humanly unrecognizable
Saturated in the sweat and piss
Of the pigs that did not care
The ones that used me for a good time
Fail and lie again
Lie and run again
Run and die again

6. I Am

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7. The Blues

There are a few concerns that I have
Unexpected weaknesses that emerge from within
I tally the times I relapse now
Looking from above down
I feel the need to watch
Suddenly I come to
Only to fall back harder
Fate will have its way
Today is its day
In former eyes
My spirit was free
My soul was immortal
Lost in the cosmos that is life
Off with my head
Traitor I have to realize that they will live forever
With no future in the distance
With no goals to focus on
With no aspirations
Towards wealth and greed
I cannot prevent doom
I cannot prevent anguish
The rhythm is enough to drive you mad
My voice will echo inside an empty room
I have gone down a path with no intention of coming home
So don't leave the light on

8. People Stare

Suppose it was all nothing
Years and energy were wasted
Thinking we had a happy ending
Waiting for us off in the
Future of failure
I wait for the day
When it all slips away
How does he get away
With making us fear life
If I remain silent
Will anyone help me
Without breaking anything
I doubt you will return
For I have worshipped doom
It ignorantly shoved my head down
To its feet
Small broken toes
It exuded the scent of many
Miles walked
Across the broken down
Helpless souls I launch myself into a raging fit of laughter
Irrational feelings
I hate where it forces me to go to find balance
Substances never existed prior to you
I reach back to find nothing
So I call it off
Waves of dizziness flood my emotions
His titanic nature smothers my good will
As any help walked away
I called it off

9. I See, I Hear

For great accidents in my life
Were necessary
I lived to see the end
Every time
My blood pumps with misery now
Organs replaced by a
Series of damaged beliefs
I live to destroy
I live to destroy
Everything within reach
Everything he created
Believe me
I never cared
I never cared
I never cared
This will unfold again in a
Wave of wretchedness
So why bother changing
Your social behavior
When rationality
Turns into absolute violence
I live to destroy
I live destroy
I see I hear
I live to destroy

10. I Sit Ill

When I give
I give myself
This is the truth
I travel unchanged
At times disengaged
My limits have yet to be obtained
It was the moment
You questioned me
I stepped back
Laughed
And devoured you
Unbelievable and ugly
A basis on reality
Excessive consumption
Addictive personality
To rare to die
Or am I going mad
Twist it around
And place this burden on me