1. Anti-Pattern

I am a shadow slipping into the abyss
A part of me that will never leave
Just to remind me of who I have grown to be
Pulling me side to side
It won't forget me

I'm watching where I step
So I don't fall between the cracks
An anti-pattern in disbelief

I can't convince myself to be better than I am
I am the watcher
This is a severance
We are waiting for the signs

It'll take more than fortune and shooting stars
To keep me from falling
I unwrap myself
I dissolve

Into one-thousand pieces

I am a shadow
Slipping into the abyss
A part of me. Never leave.

2. Of Fearful Men

Underwater
There is no chance of breathing inside this vessel
Blue lipped and anemic
We are constantly questioning our safety

So much pressure. We struggle
I just want to give in
Please help me
To keep the waters from crashing over me
This ship is sinking. My heart is palpitating
Your God won't save you

We bend and twist. From distant ends
Waves crash together blind without warning
A great deluge. Envelop everything
And all that's lost was taken

Oh, I cannot believe this is happening
Please just give me one more chance

Pressed within your trembling hopeful hands
Intangible. You're wasting time
Steel rivets snap and moan
Intangible
Your God won't save you

Now. The welds are breaking down
My hands are shaking now. The welds are breaking
Oh, what a shame...

You can't hide
Crush the mast– envelop all
Your palms together won't keep us from sinking

3. Pennyweight

Where have I been? Blearing pacific winds
Crossing foothills, constructing stories
Ruptured earth guiding me home
Romantic fault lines
A bridge's quake in my bones
A place we called home
A distance we have learned

Pull me in, and help me out (of this hemisphere)
I want to swim amidst the satellites
Sinking to the bottom. I exhale
Close my eyes– Disengage
Here. There is no there.

Give me (indication). Give me (separation)
With everything seeming pulse-less
Give me (indication). Give me (separation)
I'm drifting into oblivion
And there's no place I'd rather be
I'm drifting into oblivion

Isolated in black– My thoughts spin
My worlds divide

I am lost in space
Burning up in the atmosphere
When I finally come crashing down
Wrap my bones inside miracles
A safe place– I am finally home

Pull me in, and help me out (of this hemisphere)
I want to swim amidst the satellites
Sinking to the bottom. I exhale
Close my eyes– Disengage
Here. There is no there.

Give me (indication). Give me (separation)
With everything seeming pulse-less
Give me (indication). Give me (separation)
I'm drifting into oblivion
Now I'm slipping away.

4. Disconnect

The sway of distance
A suffering march
Lives tremble on and on
We usher burdens that see us through
Blinding light emanates guiding me from within

For I am just part of who I was back then
Where we were. When this all began
Inside this vision I am no longer in control of my own life
Sickened by surroundings. Occupied and weak
Tangled and desperate I expand

I am paper thin. Lines etched and carved from misery
Somebody help me please. Because I can never leave this place

I am afraid of becoming you
I'll deconstruct my self
For I am just a part of who I was
Where we were. When this all began

Something inside me. I cannot fix
So we begin again

So send me to my grave

Lives tremble on and on

But we are just a perception of a common theme
We are something more
I pretend I am better
I disconnect
Searching and believing
That we are something more
I pretend I am better
I disconnect

5. Nine Summers

Misery– I wanted to forget you
But five years later I have grown
I have regret
You were better deserved. But we all learn

Hands to broken mirrors. We shattered our design
You were always so easy for me. To leave in ruins

Those nine summers we burned together
Were disparate and beautiful
Strange our thoughts can take us
And I can still feel the warmth
Coursing through lungs. Escaping in my thoughts

Our hands. To broken mirrors. We shattered

I hope that this letter finds you in drift
Provokes shared memories and you accept my apology
I was young and constantly desolate
A spinning picture of grey skies
I'm holding nothing back
My thoughts provoked this heart attack

And tonight I go on display to the world
But we silently know, this is between you and I
I hope this letter finds you in drift
I hope this finds you in drift

6. Virga

We disappear from our thoughts and sounds
Our features– abrasive

So many things we overlook
Is there something that we don't know?
That over time. We're over time
Wrought with dysfunction, and callous minds
So take the knife within my heart
Sharpen it with water and virtue

Oh, the mystery. Of what we wished we knew
Oh the misery. There's so much more that I could have
That I could give

Falling faster, gaining speed
Everything around me wraps me in light, precious life
Something we seem to forget, I can feel something real burning inside
Something we seem to forget, I can feel it burning inside of me

Wind exerts my lungs. The influence of my being

Weightlessness. A beautiful affection
Force its hold
Against my deep breath

Oh, the mystery. Of what we wished we knew
Oh the misery. There's so much more that I could have
That I could give

7. Neo Seoul

In the twisting, I see myself
Pixelated. Construed. I am reaching out
For something, for me to hold on to
But I never do. Failing– I never will

Some things just do not exist
And some days I'll be the evoked of
The hope for a landing, for safety
But the synapse fires, exploding
And this is letting go

Life– this is a lesson that we don't sign up for
But we fatefully learn
And as I grow old
Time will break me apart
From stem to bough, and my heart to reason
I will become the dirt of which I began

Distracted by imperfection we are covered in rust
Hopeless and distant, we sway side to side
From season to season, we fall apart
So hold this in your hand, and don't let go
These are the things that we live for

Some things just do not exist
And some days I'll be the evoked of dissonant.
But we still try
Prudent through our brothers' eyes
Back at the start
We lost our direction

We are covered in rust
Hopeless and distant, we sway side to side
Distracted by imperfection
We fall apart

8. Parise

Consign myself away
I've built myself with molten steel
My skeletal hands are wired and worn
I'm becoming a compound so I push and pull

Electric currents replace blood cells
Eccentric circuits my soul connects
Spheric and strong
I no longer break down
I cannot rest

My eyes illuminate against the glass
Abstaining focal shifts to palindrome lines
Mimic expression. Translucent model of progression
I look out, escape is granted. Free myself
Unresponsive– a mechanic I work inline
Scanning faces I learn the nothingness inside
A binary heart beat. A digital visionary

Escape is granted, and in this moment, I free myself
As each memory fades, in this emptiness. I free myself

Your hand reaches out. I am reaching back

9. A Wolf Amongst Ravens

Where do we begin
We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, we are polluted

Where do we begin
When everything is wrong we just forget
Move along and we play pretend
Surround your life with silver and gold
Your tinsel dreams and the make believe

Deconstructed and paralyzed
So slowly somehow I am evaporating
We dream to be the lesser
A malign separate existence
We be little ourselves to a lesser
Being our dreams are not our dreams

Cogitation a distant fragment
Separate me from the whole
My thoughts are now unchained

And it seems that in everything
We want isn't anything we need

And all the signals
We seem to have taken for granted
We are lost, we are polluted
Into the grey a wolf amongst ravens

Lines flicker and twist descending
A distorted creation from nothing
So monstrous, so murderous

Lay your body down
And separate were shedding skin
Scale by scale the filth replaces it
You crystalize the world around you
Your aim for the weak
A twisting sleep breaks inside of me

A sickness you live in
I begin to break away
Please set me free

I will remain amongst the filth
Conceal myself in this residuum
I will remain amongst the filth
Asking where do we begin

We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, where do we begin

We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, we are polluted
Into the grey a wolf amongst ravens