1. Crush

Now you see me now you don't
Go before I am the goat

You get away with murder, kill me when you're through
Do I have to give up me, to be loved by you

From the smallest taste I use
From the smallest taste I lose

Won't you crush on me, crush on

Pile your dead on top of me
Tape my eyes so I can't see

I've been waiting for today
I can't touch you when you're far away
Nothing makes me feel this way
Except hate but that fades away

2. Catharsis

All these years I've been the hard man
All these years it's been so hard man
To live my life for someone else
In fear of being honest with myself
I perpetrated a lie
Juggling my life with one hand tied behind my back
Trying to find, and it had always been mine

I'm in, I'm out
I'm breaking though the darkness

And it knocked me over
Into the light of an older soul, and I'll never die
Cause everything I am is in your eyes

Angels in my heart, devils in my eyes
I'll live forever in your eyes

Crucify my inhibitions

The first born son he died for my sins
Nothing to worry about
And all these years I was the hard man
I always knew I'd find myself and prove
Because you told me the truth, it's all I wanted from you

My catharic dream, a primal scream
shedding my skin
somewhere between light and dark
I balance what I am
And I remember everything we said we'd ding a way
Laugh and cry, love and hate
Ain't no weak link this bond won't break
I put it out there it comes back

3. Inside Out

I thought I knew what provacation was
I've eaten from the insane root that imprisons reason

It's in my stomach like fire
It's in my stomach like cancer
It's in my stomach like a knife,
I've been gunshot I gotta let it go, yeah

Goddamn no where place to be
Dying deep inside of me
Always standing on the inside looking out
Can't break a hear so strong with pride
It's more than just being alive
I broke the rule with you I'm out

My only antidote to mental suffering is physical pain

4. Piss N Vinegar

It was a day to remember, twice as hard as long
That was the day that I convinced myself
That I found my God

I tip my cap and I step up
I fix myself to the right
I move right into the firing zone
And scream drink, fuck or fight
It's just a matter of respect
or is that something I missed
This ain't no peace train that you're jumping on
So shake my hand and shake it strong
And everybody come along

Long, strong (am I)

Sometimes I can't stop the shaking
At least I know I'm not dead
I don't remember whose blood this is
I've got a hammer inside my head

I get put up, I get put down
And I don't even try
I've burned a bridge, I've burned a whole town
'Cause I'm motherfucking fortified
I tell the truth or just a gilded lie
And then I charge like a bull with his balls tied

A heavy dose of reality
With a side of piss and vinegar
A free drink at the bar and you'll take it

A swift kick in the ass and you'll take it

5. 604

Can't stop eating, she's so fat
604 Katrina

6. Toast To The Extras

Swimming on the surface
It's a hell of a lot safer up here
Ain't prepared to dive
And uncover all my darkest fears

This ain't no covert operation
I don't have that much concentration

Staring at the clock
And my patience is wearing thin
One more down the gullet
Keeps me from jumping out of my skin

I'm lost in the fog of contradiction

I toast to the extras
I drink to them 'cause they don't talk to much
They fill up space and entertain
And when I cut 'em loose they don't make a fuss
They all add up to zero in my life
They're just here to cure boredom for the night

Now sometimes all this leaves me feeling hallow
That's when I take refuge with my pillow

I'm not even ready for confession

That's right

7. Born Again Idiot

Why do I explain myself when everyone's
An idiot but me
I think some people need
Killing for stupidity and I'll be born again

Kicking and screaming
And dragged back into a life
Like Ten pounds in a nine pound bag
Still I come back to give you something
That you never had.

Idiot rules
I never fight I only win
And I don't make em
I never bend I only break them

Finish my smoke, down my drink, wipe my mouth
And I just walk away

What's the chance of finding something
Real and make it last
For that I'd carry all my bags and leave
Them in the past
Because I spend my life fixing mistakes
That left me scarred
And when I stand and meet my maker
I'll be born again hard

Don't judge me by my sins

8. Killing Box

I have always been an experiment in terror
At least I can only kill you once
Standing aloof when I made up my mind
Reaching, why it's better to be blunt

Your walking point through my minefield
You gotta get out
Your on point in my minefield
Forever waiting for a road map

Speak, say something, answer me

I left you in a killing box

Sketchy's not a name you can pin on my
I'll start a revolt with my honesty
A piece of you burns every time you like
So lets start a war, just to see how many die

9. Harm's Way

Here comes the biggest asshole
That the whole world has ever seen
Watch as things turn to something
I never meant to be
Call it a side effect of my arrested development
Here with you I'm trapped, out of my element

I tear through all this wreckage
You left when you dropped the bomb
Is there something worth saving
Or do I act like nothing's wrong
The lesser of two equals gives me nothing at all

Lust and madness murder and mayhem
My whole life's been about playing
It's so surreal
Maybe that's why I touch but can't feel

Sittin' pretty as I sit up straight
Trying to find means to an end
I move into harms way

I see my face in the mirror
I feel my feet but I can't seem to walk in my shoes
When it hurts I feel closer to you
Closer than you ever knew
And the bottom line is knowing
I will die and the worms will eat me
The bottom line is knowing
Ain't no one else I can be

Running steady, smile on my face

10. Hog Tied

I have something I can reveal
I get off on laughing
It's like the biggest orgasm
If you like I'll share it with you

When you give up yourself, you do it peacefully
Then you feel no plight and you think you're free
Give up yourself
There goes your chivalry
From on top of the world, I'll throw you down a rope

Hog tied to this life, I'm strapped up tight
And I won't be no slave

I can't wait to get you back
I need you back in my clutches
If it takes a thousand punches
By the end you'll be in stitches

Climb up if the noose ain't tied

It won't disturb you, it's here to serve you
Unlock the doubt, you'll find it's out, your rosetta stone
Or you'll cut the line, and stifle time
Slash your wrist and kiss and kiss your crippled bones

11. Big Fat

Looming large like a favorite son
One more time comes my obsession
Like a mountain stream that ends in mud
I'm wading in waiting for the flood, sinking

You did Left me hating, contemplating
Left me waning, slowly draining
Feet of clay that are stuck to the floor
And with vanity you want more

I'm drinking strength for comic relief
While I'm growing super weak in the knees
You asked me can I deliver
Like a monster crossing the Hudson river, stomping

Big fat kill
Carrying the weight of the world
In my arms

I'm biting my tongue so much it hurts
But at the same time I'm at a loss for words
The things I've seen should've left me blind
So it makes me happy that I'm losing my mind, laughing

You asked me can I deliver
Like a monster crossing the Hudson river
The things I've seen should've left me blind
So it makes me happy that I'm losing my mind

12. Cupajoe

I really need a cup of coffee
Go get me a cupajoe
Cupajoe
Black and strong

13. Alpha Male

You should be happy
You should be really happy
I saved your life today
I didn't kill you, although I meant to

Now go and put your toys away

It's the pecking order, back of the line
Climb up tot he top jump off and take a nose dive

Another societal break down

What did you just say,
You said some thing, some thing that I already said
I smell like both of us, you smell like both of us
Revel in our sated lust
Open your eyes and watch me bust

Ride up to the top, jump off and do a face plant

And I don't need it around, I'm the king of the town

What did you do to me
I gotta get another hit off your energy
I'm cruising in neutral, you came into my life
And bam, kicked it up a big notch

I dropped in from the top
Took off and carved a big slice

14. Stealing From A Thief

Don't want a life like my parents had
Don't want a life like my rich friends have
Don't want to live by association
Don't want to live the great maybe
I want a life not a name online
I want to live it in real time
I want a life just so I can be
I never asked what was in it for me

Stealing from a thief
My humanity
I know my name, I know my pain
I know my frequency
Dancing with the beast

As a kid I'd play make believe
As a man I play make believe
As a kid I'd do anything
As a man I do everything

I live my life centered and humane
I live my life like a man insane

I get up, I get up and go
I grab a hold and reach way down
To find something that I really believe
I don't need to console myself If I don't like what I see

15. Giving The Horns

Give it up, Got to give it up I said
Man you're already dead
You got no reason for hanging around
Except for a beatdown
Say what you wanna say
Take it down, Break it down
I'm the sum of it's parts
Kicked around like a hound
Never give it much thought
Good lord, I always meant i to be so Fucking heavy

I give the horns to you who saved me
I give the horns to you who told me to

Change my way of life out of one into another
Yeah you heard me everyday I thank my mother
(on the day i fought your mother)
(I said)
Give it up, Got to give it up it's my space
then you spit it my face
Good luck, it don't mean nothing to me
Look where it's coming from

A time to kill, A time to die
I sign the horns and make it mine
Is everything I say a lie
Do I exist in my perfect crime
Another shot, I take it well
My so called perfect life in hell and
Sometimes I just need to Fucking yell