1. Awaken The Sleeping

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2. Destined Solitaire

Brewing my potions, it all boils down to this:
What's wrong with me and why do I feel this way?

I would really like to be the source of someone's misery
I would really like to be everything for someone...just like you

I Thought I was the classic definition of a lone wolf
It is kind of irritating being this self-deprevated fool
Oh... "Twist of fate" we call it when everything turns inside out
She renders me in tears, then leaves
Saying: "I've lost faith in you"

Free speech isn't real although the thought was good
Bet that they will shoot you down midst silence and serenity
Stuff our fucking faces full of grease and watch us burst
Fat and bloated silhouettes of humans cursed

I Thought I was the classic definition of a lone wolf
It is kind of irritating being this self-deprevated fool
Oh... I just miss her, I miss her so much when she's gone
And she's gone a lot

Brewing my potions...

So would you follow me into the night
And let me kiss your open palms
I know of a shelter from the hurricane / falling skies
It's coming now, expanding, devouring everything

Being alone has paralyzed my body, I'm lost and everything fails
The last kiss was bittersweet, bitter, sour... will I remain here 'til they kick me out...
Must be nine hundred fuckin' cigarettes since she left me,
and I was the source of her misery... poor blind me

I Thought I was the classic definition of a lone wolf
It is kind of irritating being this self-deprevated fool
Oh... I just miss her, I miss her so much when she's gone
And she's gone a lot

3. Until You Comply

There is a storm that's been following me throughout my life
It holds my tears – keeps me from crying
And there's a light piercing through the dark clouds as I walk on by
Keeping my distance – stay in the shadows
My inner voices calls me a fiend of sex and drink
I just don't care, don't want to go anywhere, I'm content

Right here at home I travel places
Where no man has gone before
I love the world within myself
Let me go on a journey inside

Sometimes I feel a strange longing within that breaks me down
Something is calling me out
But there is the light piercing through the dark clouds as I try to hide
Sun is the devil...

My inner voices calls me a coward, what a laugh
They feel no pain, they want to go everywhere, take control

Outside my door everything's different
People are walking by with hollow faces, nobody's saying a word

I want to see life, now that I'm here,
I ask for directions but nobody cares
I hear the city – footsteps, a car
A girl is singing "Tambourine man" while strumming a guitar
She has the answers, she holds the key
Just talk to me in music and I guarantee you I will listen...

I can't help wondering things like
What's Bob Dylan doing now?
Is he at home, eating a big bowl of corn flakes
Just like I will, later on
When I return back home
Oh no, I shouldn't think that way,
What will my inner voices say?
Standing on a row, facing me

"We're here to tell you how to think and feel
And most of all to keep you in the line and show you what to do
We'll just say: NO! without a reason why
We'll fuck you over and over again 'til you comply"

In the city park they all spring to life
And although it's getting dark,
We feel the sun caressing our skin in a yellow tone,
A last goodbye for now, tonight,
For tomorrow comes once more that harsh morning light
The dying orchestra, frantically playing now to the bizarre scenery
Of a thousand naked bodies in a pit of flesh,
Fucking to the bombastic warfare of the "Valkyrie"
And it goes a little bit something like this...

Could I be blind
To the fact that we are all one
All a part of this big vibrant whole
Citizens of the ant farm
My thoughts are me
But they spin out of control
And I feel estranged
Are we all wannabes?
Oh so hot and cool, ah feared and at the same time loved
Making blatant attempts to fit in
There is nothing living left
Life is a long queue to the urinal

"We're here to tell you how to think and feel
And most of all to keep you in the line and show you what to do
We'll just say "NO!" without a reason why
We'll fuck you over and over, again 'til you comply"

4. In Real Life There Is No Algebra

I'm waging war against me
I'm trying to free my mind, you see
I think I am quite insane
Trying to find my reptile brain
But then I'm gonna NUKE it
Then I'm gonna send the motherfucker flying... byebye brain...

I looked into the eyes of an idiot and in him I saw myself
People walking by, disgusted faces at a distance
They seem to think they're better, man you know that is a lie
but it's hard to see a peer in one with whom you can't identify

I gazed into the eyes of the madman
and I saw, and I saw, and I saw myself
All these little things we do, our way of life,
We're babies, repeating everything we see, stem-celled from TV

Looking back I wonder if it was just a huge lack of discipline
That stopped me from ever learning algebra
Maybe I'm just too dumb (monkey see, monkey do)

I've found my sole purpose
I need to evolve, and fast
When we talk, if I nod off
Smack my face, I won't be cross
Teach me as you would a
Teach me as you would a DOG

Strapped to my lazy-chair
Sitting in the living room where
I watch DISCOVERY all day long
Evolving as I sing this song:

I'm a modern Einstein, I'm a modern Einstein
I'm a modern Einstein, I'm a modern Einstein
I'm a modern Einstein, I'm a modern Einstein

5. Where The Rain Comes In

There's no sound from where the rain gets in
I'd mend it but I don't know where to begin
drip-drop on the floor from the windowsill
all is still

A small dirty nest on the third floor
of an apartment building on lonestreet, opressionville
There's always music in the air
but time stands still

In this old building nothing is safe
I always go for a smoke once or twice on the balcony each day
but today the antique reinforcement bar caved
so I fell... 6 metres to the ground... I lost my breath
all is still

The sky is big and blue, almost surreal
But deep space is always black on my TV
It's supposed to be out there
Behind all that blue shimmer somewhere...
(Twinkle, twinkle – you twinkle light)

In my hospital bed I'm riding out the inner turmoil
of a drug cocktail the white-coats gave me.
I realize I'm in severe need of a new sheriff up north
gotta get those priorities straight, man...
can't be fooling around any longer, man!

You're not 20 years old no more... Should I quit smoking perhaps?
And maybe I could get my hands on one of those things that keep people occupied, whaddaya call 'em...
-You mean jobs?

-Yeah, jobs, that's it, a daytime job! I'm done with this bullshit!

I'm playing, but nobody's paying...
Falling of balconies just because I need a break from the music...
Well, here's the big break for you... I quit

When graced by death
I stood the test
Found that in this place where I rest
everything is too still

The life that I've chosen
I go to it like a duck to water
But beyond the horizon there's a big, big world
and I think I want to see it after all...

6. At Home Watching Movies

Rain is pouring down from the purple haze
And I'm stuck in the Overlook hotel maze
Jack is closing in with his axe raised high
But the twins scare me more though, I can't lie

7. Coup De Grace

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8. Abigails Questions (In An Infinite Universe)

In an infinite universe
My first breath seems very close to my last
On the other hand:
Nothing has a beginning
Nothing has an end
In this infinite universe
Her breath felt so warm in the pouring rain
In the night we spoke
Of the cold and vast darkness
Abigail told me that
"Nothing has a beginning,
Nothing has an end..."

"What lures around the bend
of the continuous expanding infinity
that twirls my mind?
Will it like a rubber band get stretched 'til it snaps?
Send itself hurling back through time and space
But if it's infinite... that means it all has to go at the same time... right?"

"Like the white dot in the middle of the TV when you turn it off
Just seizing to exist, from everything to nothing
Or maybe the other way around?"

She felt lost there, like I'm lost here, but where else could we go
Our speculations were multi-layered, so we rolled with the flow
If space is the final frontier, we're still part of it
Lost in suspended animation forever

Abigail, take my hand
Follow me, let's run down the milky way
Stay with me, Abigail, my crazy source of joy
Don't ever let go

In my infinite loneliness
Her first kiss is all I can think of now
But she left me a trail (guess I'd better go track her down...)

In an infinite universe
My first breath seems very close to my last
On the other hand:
Nothing has a beginning
Nothing has an end

9. The Stuff That Dreams Are Made Of

This is the stuff that dreams are made of
What do you say about that?
Why would you care about that?
This is the love that claims your life
Though you say your heart can't cry
Why can't your broken heart cry?

I met with death and she told me your name
She whispered it in my ear
Guided me home through the long and dark night
She said you would meet me here

She is so calm
It's almost as if I they were nowhere around to be seen
She tells me things I missed while I was gone
Those days in between
The gravel is stained red where she stands
She must be a ghost, her face is white
Though I can't really recall her complexion
Before she passed on

Are we as children, naive, in the presence of the great void?
I am amazed by it all, what our ignorance destroy
And so now forever I fall

But she is so calm
It's almost as if I they were nowhere around to be seen
She tells me things I missed while I was gone
Those days in between

This is the stuff that dreams are made of
Why do you care about that?
Why would you care about that?
This is the love that claims your life
Though you say your heart can't cry
Why can't your broken heart cry?

Have we moved on to a safer place perhaps?
This death seem so easy, so tender and warm
It embraces me with open arms
Maybe this is where I belong

The stark reality of missing you hits me so hard
Struck down by an open palm, I can't stand my ground
And so now forever I fall