1. All My Life

Remember the words
I used to say for a reason
I told you I
I?m not your way

I?m changing I guess and I know
There is no reason
For all I have
Gave way today

Words decay
On common ground today

All my life I?ve been crying out
I thought you should know
All my life I?ve been lying down, hiding out
I thought you should know

This is all I am
This is all I got to give
If that?s alright
If that?s ok
We?re gonna see the day.

Remember the time
I used to smile for a reason
I told you I
I?m not that way

I?m falling I feel, and I fear
There is no reason
For all I am
Is here today

Words decay
On common ground today

All my life I?ve been crying out
I thought you should know
All my life I?ve been lying down, hiding out
I thought you should know

This is all I am
This is all I got to give
If that?s alright
If that?s ok
We?re gonna see the day.

2. Drifting

Don?t speak of love now
Of things that we might share
Of things that turned to stone
Leave me to cry alone

But it?s all for your own sake
As long as I?m not awake
In my maze of fear

Have I ever thought
That what I am is mine
That what I have has grown
Beyond me on its own

I?m fragile, prone to break
Just a little it will take
In my maze of fear

As I?m drifting and I can?t get on now
I am needing and all alone
I don?t wanna be the one

As I?m standing on the edge of nowhere
I am bleeding and down so low
I don?t wanna be the one

Now I wonder how I can keep silent
Now I wonder if you feel the need
But the time is now

Don?t speak of truth now
No way to tell what?s right
You?ll take what?s right inside
And what I try to hide

You?re never gonna break
You know I am not awake
In my maze of fear

Have I ever thought
That what I feel is real
That what I think is true
That I will get it through

I?m dying, don?t you see
Longing to be free
In my maze of fear

As I?m drifting and I can?t get on now
I am needing and all alone
I don?t wanna be the one

As I?m standing on the edge of nowhere
I am bleeding and down so low
I don?t wanna be the one

Now I wonder how I can keep silent
Now I wonder if you feel the need
But the time is now

3. Last

Look into these empty eyes and
Look beyond these binding ties
– Trapped inside a solemn way of wasting your day –
Understand it?s too late

Deep inside we feel the same and
Deep inside we take the blame
– For this kind of sick?ning mess, our painful distress –
Understand we?re going down

Last to be taken away
Last to be breathing and stay
Last for the gathering call

Force me to stay
?cause no one ever
Shows me
Where I do belong

A second away
Lies every day
We saw before
We lost the last

Lost inside an endless stream and
Lost inside a fragile dream
– Drifting in an endless night of deaf?ning delight –
Understand it?s too late

Listen to these vacant sighs and
Listen to these raucous cries
– Nothing but a timid way of nothing to say –
Understand we?re going down

Last to be taken away
Last to be breathing and stay
Last for the gathering call

Force me to stay
?cause no one ever
Shows me
Where I do belong

A second away
Lies every day
I saw before
I lost the last

Feel the silence scaring me and
Feel the craving haunting me
– Trembling in this solitude, my sorrowful mood –
Understand it?s too late

See us standing drenched in rain and
see us going down the drain
– Tired of this futile pain, this suff?ring in vain –
Understand we?re going down

Last to be taken away
Last to be breathing and stay
Last for the gathering call

Force me to stay
?cause no one ever
Shows me
Where I do belong

A second away
Lies every day
I saw before
I lost the last

4. Never Return

There?s silence all around us
Silence where we go
And I?m falling down

– In a golden cage
Of numb complacency –

Pretending that I know why
Pretending that I care
And I?m reaching out

The years, the time
All washed away
My hope, my plan
Has tumbled down
Was killed and drowned
Was crushed to sand

So I will never return
Never return
Never return
Never return

We?re empty like lost space now
Empty like the skies
And I?m grounded still

– In a fragile dream
Of sweet soliloquy –

These images of passion
These images and words
Now I?m awake

The years, the time
All washed away
My hope, my plan
Has tumbled down
Was killed and drowned
Was crushed to sand

So I will never return
Never return
Never return
Never return

It?s all about denial
All about dismiss
And I dream away

The years, the time
All washed away
My hope, my plan
Has tumbled down
Was killed and drowned
Was crushed to sand

So I will never return
Never return
Never return
Never return

5. Maybe One Day

We?re tired and done
We just can?t carry on
We couldn?t live up to what
To what we had

We?re left in this cold
We are alone again
We?re standing in shame and no
No one?s to blame

We?re standing in tears
Alone with our fears again
We carry this weight and we
We are afraid

We shiver and fall
We fear the reason why
Still we just don?t know what made
What made us cry

Maybe today
Maybe today
Was just too much for us

Maybe one day
Maybe one day
We?ll know the reason why

Maybe that day
Maybe that day
We won?t be left

We?re tired and done
We long for what is gone
We carried our dreams while we
We closed our eyes

In silence we stand
We fear that all this time
Was maybe just an idle hope
Was just in vain

Maybe today
Maybe today
Was just too much for us

Maybe one day
Maybe one day
We?ll know the reason why

Maybe that day
Maybe that day
We won?t be left
Behind

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7. Vanessa

Strange to see the world again
A second chance
Where have I been?

A ceiling bare, an asking stare
"Are you alright?"
Drifting in, drifting out

Strange to be alive again
Aware of me
Where have I been?

Strange to see me live and breathe
To feel again
In darkness gone and reborn

From the start I knew
Where to go and what to do
Well prepared
And willing to succeed

Took another stride
And my future?s looking bright
I?m well trained,
Determined and resolved

My vision coming true
I?m finally breaking through

From where I am
I can already sense it
From where I am
I can already see
Now that I?m here I?m
Reaching my hands out
Now that I?m here I?m
Pulling the strings

Accomplishments in sight
I can feel the pride
Things just grow
On straight and steady tracks

My vision coming true
I?m finally breaking through

From where I am
I can already sense it
From where I am
I can already see
Now that I?m here I?m
Reaching my hands out
Now that I?m here I?m
Pulling the strings

Thought I?m on my way
To a life so safe and sound
Thought I?m right on track
And nothing holds me back

Something?s feeling wrong
I don?t know what it is
I feel so insecure
Afraid and out of place

Explain me why (Someone)
Explain me why (Someone)
Explain me why
I can?t rest assured

Felt not weak nor needing
No doubt in all my days
Felt no need for caring
Frustration and regret

Something?s feeling wrong
There?s something underneath
Hanging by a thread
That might not take the weight

Explain me why (Someone)
Explain me why (Someone)
Explain me why
I can?t rest assured

I?m lost in my dreams
Floating it seems
To where I can?t be found
And I wonder why

I?m feeling so cold
In places untold
But there is no one here
And I wonder why
And I wonder why

Fallen apart
I got a new start today
Opened my eyes
But I have paid the price
Need a new way
Need a new way today
Need it now
Show me, show me how

Back in this life
I?m hearing my sighs
But they are real at last
Gotta trust me now

Trembling and slow
My first steps I go
Maybe there?s someone there
Gotta hope it now
Gotta cope somehow

Fallen apart
I got a new start today
Opened my eyes
But I have paid the price
Need a new way
Need a new way today
Need it now
Show me, show me how