1. Grief And Despair

This is a story about why love
Can be the reason for hate
I never thought I could have such a hard time
due to my feelings

His presence alone is enough
Enough for me to seethe with rage
Sometimes I dream about
Breaking every single bone in his body
Now I know what hate feels like

Falling in love is one of the greatest things anyone can experience
You paint the world around you in glowing colors
Even those cheesy love songs you've always laughed at
Start to make sense, start to make sense

All of a sudden you realise that you have
That you have to tell her how you feel
And you start asking yourself all of those questions
When should I tell her? What am I supposed to say?

When you are in love you form a picture of how great it would be if all goes well
How happy you would be
I was ready to declare my love to her

She was in tears when she told me that she is not in love with me
The bottom fell out of my world, all the colors faded
I felt as if I was in an ol..d b..lack and white drama movie
Don't get me wrong our friendship means a lot to me
To this day we are close friends

Maybe there are many reasons why we are not together
But I blame it on him. I know it's wrong but I can't help
That married two-timer did something I will never forgive him for

But I will never stop loving her....

2. Neurosia

Happiness means something different for everyone

I am afraid to lose it
Afraid that someone will take it away
I am afraid to lose it
Afraid that it will end someday

All your life you try to find the one thing
That puts a smile on your face
The one thing that makes you feel that
All the trouble life caused was worth it
The one thing that makes you wanna dance and sing
Even if your talent can't be described

And when you've finally found it you realise what life is all about
All of a sudden you start to accept the little things that are sent to try us

But deep inside you slumbers this feeling
This feeling that all of this is too good to be true and that it will turn out badly
It lies in wait like a tiger, ready to attack
And you know that you can't hold it back forever

I am afraid to lose it
Afraid that someone will take it away
I am afraid to lose it
Afraid that it will end someday

All your life you try to find the one thing
That puts a smile on your face
The one thing that makes you feel that
All the trouble life caused was worth it
The one thing that makes you wanna dance and sing
Even if your talent can't be described

I am afraid to lose it
Afraid that someone will take it away
I am afraid to lose it
Afraid that it will end someday

3. Afraid To Lose

Happiness means something different for everyone

I am afraid to lose it
Afraid that someone will take it away
I am afraid to lose it
Afraid that it will end someday

All your life you try to find the one thing
That puts a smile on your face
The one thing that makes you feel that
All the trouble life caused was worth it
The one thing that makes you wanna dance and sing
Even if your talent can't be described

And when you've finally found it you realise what life is all about
All of a sudden you start to accept the little things that are sent to try us

But deep inside you slumbers this feeling
This feeling that all of this is too good to be true and that it will turn out badly
It lies in wait like a tiger, ready to attack
And you know that you can't hold it back forever

I am afraid to lose it
Afraid that someone will take it away
I am afraid to lose it
Afraid that it will end someday

All your life you try to find the one thing
That puts a smile on your face
The one thing that makes you feel that
All the trouble life caused was worth it
The one thing that makes you wanna dance and sing
Even if your talent can't be described

I am afraid to lose it
Afraid that someone will take it away
I am afraid to lose it
Afraid that it will end someday

4. Facing Up To My Destiny

My heart was broken by a loved one
My thoughts were racked with pain
My mind was tormented by all my happy memories
My soul was drowned in loneliness

Even though I know suicide is not a cure
I often think of it
I wonder how many people would attend my funeral
How many would cry over my death

It does not matter how happy or sad I am
Those thoughts are always there
They pursue me like demons
They never give up and sometimes they are hard to resist

Normally, after an intense struggle, they go as fast as they
Come and all the pain they caused is forgotten

Even if I know that it was not the last time I met those
demons, I'm not scared anymore
I've learned how to handle them
Or at least I hope so

5. The Cruelty Of Life

For the most time of my life i was longing for something
Something that gave me stability
After aling intense search and many setbacks
It seems like i have found it

Absolutely convinced to do the right thing
I thought i would finally how to live my life

One day i realised that i live in a dream world
As a prisoner of my own illusions
Lost in the depth of my wracked soul
Staring disaster in the face
Unable to stop this madness alone

Overcome by desperation
My thoughts, full of anger and sadness
My dreams dominated by extravagant ideas

Too much love will kill you
That's the cruelty of life
Too much love
Will kill you
Too much love will kill you
That's the cruelty of life
Too much love
Will kill you

6. Thanatos

I just realised how sick life is
A friend of mine is dying, there is nothing i can do
I feel so helpless and weak
Remember the time when we used
Used to jam all night long
We had so much fun back then
Those were the days, those were the days

Goodbye my friend? i will never forget you
Goodbye my friend? thank you for all
Goodbye my friend? life is so unfair
Goodbye my friend? farewell

Farewell my friend
Farewell my friend

To watch how your situation gets worse day by day
Is one of the hardest things i've ever experienced
You used to be a great guitarplayer
Now you aren't even able to hold your guitar any more

It's time to say goodbye
I am proud of you how brave you've handled your situation
May you rest in piece my friend
May you rest in peace

Even if i am happy for you now your suffering is over
I still feel teribble
You will never be forgotten

7. Overshadowed

The shadows of life's bitterness covers my heart
Memories of a time full of poetry and warmth are fading
Unable to resist, darkness monopolises me
Controls my body like a grotesque puppet player

The cruelty of life is corrupting my mind
Overwhelmed by dark thoughts
Questioning myself
I wander through the winding paths of my bleeding soul

Trying to fight to the bitter end
Having the unplumbed depths of the human soul in mind
A last-ditch effort to overcome darkness fails miserable

All hope is gone
Vanished into thin air

8. Beyond The Shades

Racked with doubts, i try to follow the path of my life
From time to time, it gets so narrow that i almost can't go on

The wind of failure embraces me
Like a cloak of death
Every part of my body
Feels this uncanny coldness

All along the path gapes the precipice
Those are the moments where my life hangs by a thread
Someday i will fall, someday i will fall

Be seized by dizziness i try to keep my balance
Step by step, until the path gets widen again
And i can walk on with hope in my heart

The wind of failure embraces me
Like a cloak of death
Every part of my body
Feels this uncanny coldness

All of a sudden i step out of line
And drop of sharply
Am i dead or is this the life
Beyond the shades of time

The wind of failure embraces me
Like a cloak of death
Every part of my body
Feels this uncanny coldness

9. Time

I could see her coming in the distance
My heart bled at the night
It cut me to the quick
I felt buried alive
Respiratory arrest, desperation
I was overcome by panic
Time is a great healer
So people told me
Time is a great healer
So people told me
But that's a lie
Confronted by my inner conflict
Dominated by melancholy
Being on the brink of ruin
My existance became a plaything of destiny
Time is a great healer
So people told me
Time is a great healer
So people told me
But that's a lie
I am a mere shadow of my former self
My soul is at death's door
My fate is sealed
There's no way out
My fate is sealed
There's no way out

10. Drifting Finitness

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