1. The Author And The Architect

With this pen,
I use invoke to describe how it felt
in wanting to have you again and again.
I'll hold my breath as our world comes undone
and catch the bullet if you hold the gun.
Now, life waiting for words to define
how to repair the seams of my soul.
Because of you, the architect still sleeps.
A consequence of design, that life will not pass by.
What has been said
of a yearning that stands as high as mountains
became of glimpse of a time to lose myself.
And I'll hold my breath as our world comes undone
and catch the bullet if you hold the gun.
Now if only that passion within myself could command the conflict between us both.
The beautiful denial forced me to stay;
I can not let go.
Even when my body's broken,
long before my soul fades away.
If I gave all control,
the destructive love we hide will be defined in the shadow of mourning to come
Where I stand free before life
for the first time I'll bask in its glow with all of my soul

2. Behind The Chapel Walls

The world alive,
bathed in moonlight as I walked past
my grave in the fog.
Observe her form, lying beside the stone
and the letters she left in my name.
Where I longed to speak the worst of my soul,
I watch the tears that run down her face drop to the ground
without ever knowing that...
I crossed a wide ocean of change,
consumed by a desperate despair all the way.
Yet, despite every hollow oremain that I've gone through,
the ghost is always you
behind the chapel walls, where my soul's laid to rest.
There within a moment I understood;
I the watcher, just a silent silhouette behind the gates.
By god, one day, help me forgive myself.
She the conspirator will guide my hands and cleanse my soul.
Though I have remained silent, the search is over and I let go.
I will find a voice to describe all the horror inside of my mind,
with determination.
I'm just a servant to the silence, the silence I despise.
Guide me through the darkest days.
Where in my heart beats a guiding voice? A sullen hand to suffer my choice;
and now, to decipher, the moments gone. I finally understand my fate,
and what has to come to be worth the pain, and ride the seas of change
whatever I become.
Like me, for that moment her face is gone. Life's lust, my only friend.
No more the answers to force my own life to change.
Breathing, cause the movement when life is gone.
Still the silent silhouette, may my search be over and lend me to rest.
I felt the anguish in that movement discovering me,
but consequently give my tired soul to be separate.

3. The Burden Of Eternity

Light the dawn, realization unfolding
That this tortured mind is unworthy yet inside this light
I spoke the words that severed barriers of silence
And though at times I may suffer, I never lost the perception
as a result, forced to witness horrors that most cannot imagine
though I command the armies of forever, I only dream of death
to exude the emptiness I felt, as eternal youth birthed its gift.
And when the passion falls away
only madness remains in the eyes that navigate the darkness
and when you scream your tears run dry
all the light you gave soon fades my darling
Days that stretched on for a lifetime
Only in death unite us both
these words live on in my craving for everlasting life to shine through me
now my soul has been torn into, subtle pieces of a memory
I soon take flight through the burden of the burden is eternity
I'll tear them down, utter words I've been longing to speak
so, to unleash, of the burden that slips off my tongue
the end that draws us on, drawing closer with each passing moment
the light you cast is mine, in this lightless chasm
Unyielding malice overtaking, seeps into my soul to seek forgiveness
may this path lead the way to find the end of all those memories I hold dear
lie in ruin ashes at my feet
Now I'm a witness, to the destruction of another
a witness to the demise of me
and all the anger left consuming won't set me free from its grasp
the blood in my veins flows like sand, through my heart and out of my hands
fill the burden of life, this life isn't mine
I'll tear them down, utter words I've been longing to speak
so, to unleash, of the burden that slips off of my tongue
the end that draws us on, drawing closer with each passing moment
the light you cast is mine, in this lightless chasm

4. Illumination

Upon the storm that gathers here, the torment reigns like fire on my soul.
Yet I'd cross this ocean with both eyes open wide,
and dream of the day that I set free my sorrows into your world.
And when your heart ceases to shine, I'll show you illumination;
divide the distance between I and I to regain all the strength I'd lost.
What she it's life for you and I, could endure a lifetime in our minds and in our veins.
Though the moments slowly pass that burn my soul,
I'd spend a lifetime letting go and what will remain in its place is the thought,
that I gave the world to itself to destroy.
Upon the storm that's gathering, rides a lifeless burning god like me
dying to divide the soul from life and cast the darkness aside.
Yet through it all, words of passion crumbling within my grasp.
My angel of darkness, spread your wings.
You're mine this time; when I decide.
Now, take my hand as our life burns away turn to dust
When your heart ceases to shine, I'll show you illumination
divide the distance between I and I to regain all the strength I've lost along the way.
As the moments slowly pass, that burn my soul
Through it all, words of passion crumbling within my grasp,
and fall as ashes at my feet. My angel of darkness spread your wings, you're mine this time,
when I decide.
And fly, on crimson wings towards the sun.
We are, no longer children of this earth.
The light would cast a shadow over us both, before our willing eyes.
So, now as my life has turned away, what remains is the fire in its place.
I know the time is ticking by. Time will change us. Time will run.
Upon that storm that's gathering rides a lifeless burning god like me
who would divide the soul from life to turn the darkness aside and when your heart ceases to shine
I'll show you all illumination, the further lights us all. Illumination cast a shadow. Illumination cast it over me. So
if I could gather life, I would stand there as I am: as lifeless, burns away.

5. Dividing The Distance

Now, I'm ready upon the journey,
with my eyes open wide.
A journey across the distance, though I'm so terrified,
to discover the failure in time and challenge the course of my world
if only the sound of your voice sustains.
Only between the lines of broken denial,
you'll find me lying trapped under the weight.
Dear Ana, my whole life to find you
if you would only help guide my way.
Just, light the course because I need you
more than ever now beside me through constant fear,
before I get lost again.
Watch over me from wherever you might be
and I promise that I will not fail you.
Give me acceptance of all to understand the past
now I'm stronger than rage and I won't bend or falter again.
I became of this fate, and so my heart let go
just guide the course of my hands, across a great, unknown world.
Like I was, I became again, to the deepest fraction of myself.
Speak to me the distance now, of life, the consequence I must accept.
As I, will descend on the world with the fury of the soul.
Mine was the way, before life relinquished my control.
The war inside my mind will soon become all the world
in victory divine
Ready to cross the distance, though I'm so terrified
To journey beneath the sunset, with my eyes open I'll
give life to the choice if I'm wrong, but without you I cannot last
beyond the burden that hangs at my soul because
Only between the lines of broken denial
You'll find me lying, trapped under the weight
Dear Ana, my whole life to find you,
if you would only help guide my way.
Dear Ana, I need you by my side,
to guide me through the darkest of days

6. Of Malice And Majesty

Through the looking glass, I watched in silence as we crumbled
Like ashes in a breeze, fall apart
Bone and flesh, reduced to dust and lies before me
within this moment I knew, that I had changed forever
Unholy passion of man's great loss, was offered to us this day
as our anguish poured like rain, observant to my decay
May the torment I live through now, echo through eternity
sing its song inside my mind and descend into memory
I remember the sound that their bodies made, as these gods of war were
split in two before my eyes and I, can't save them all or speak of peace
the words that were ripped from my mouth, echo blind in the moonlit sky
as though all the phrases know no bounds, no confines
Malice consuming, though my hands are shaking I slay them all with my hands
just to put my soul at ease and rest
Through the violence I have seen, I've found a new understanding of
how easily we can be broken
Through all these years, I've remained so silent
When I'm not strong enough to run through the fire
Where the darkness lives on, in every moment here
they're taking my hand, I'll scream it out forever in death decide
Through all these years, I've remained so silent
When I'm not strong enough to run through the fire
This is not compassion I seek, words that become the essence of the anger I felt
won't fade with time and decide, when life has ceased to set me free
I remain trapped inside the body of a broken man and only here will waste away
with nothing but my memories to guide
Through the darkness of my mind, will I find the answers to
shine new light on my shattered world and leave the earth behind
And only I know why
The pain that lasts lifetimes
Will I be saved? Set free from life?

7. Anathema: The Gatekeeper

Now, as the storm parted away, reveal to me his face;
the narrator of my whole world.
And as he spoke to me my soul could only tremble with each word that passed his lips.
He spoke to me, "my son, the path is yours to take.
Your purpose is greater than you'll ever know".
Now, hear these words my child of light,
understand only her soul can lead you home.
As I gazed into, the ocean of those eyes, the same blue as mine and I knew.
Without the words I needed to say,
that from my tongue would give life to this fear.
There's no time to decide, my son this is the path you chose.
Let it guide you to her and the greatness divine that awaits you
if you can overcome the world before you.
Give your life and your soul; you must not fail us the world rests on your shoulders.
And yet I feel your pain,
as though it's mine the same.
all the hurt remains,
and may not ever change.
This is, a compassionate calling to arms.
For all this time divide the distance between us both.
Along the way, fueled by the fire within your soul.
Your life is more than a consequence of design,
desire guides you towards your fate.
If I could shift the weight of the world
I would give you a choice, to turn back the time
Our lives lie within this moment, and all it's misery waits for you.
Go to her now Gabriel, deny fate and be doomed.
Now, hear these words my child of light,
understand only her soul can lead you home.
Seek her with all you have within your soul,
you'll find the answers in her hands.
What will guide my way? What will light my path?
You'll find the answers in her hands

8. To Cast The Mourning Shadow

And when the rain came down,
over the hills and through this valley,
the midnight moon shined down on me illuminating all that shimmers in this place.
I haven't spoken since it happened, words turn to dust in my mouth.
By tonight, bring solace
to cast the mourning shadow.
But I still see her face every moment that I'm awake.
I haven't spoken since it happened, words turn to dust in my mouth.
By tonight bring solace.
Was it the impact that broke her body? While I sat beside unscathed.
The windshield shattered from the concussion;
the class scorched my face, that burned so
I held her head by the roadside and wiped the blood from her face.
The words that, sent from her mouth, could only keep me silent.
And with the breath of those words aside, her last tear touched the pavement.
I pulled her close to my chest to hear her heart beat faster.
Her trembling voice cut through me,
will I make it through this night. I tried to conjure an answer, but my tongue had frozen.
My love, the source of my yearning, not long for this world.
I sat blindly as she slipped away and died in my arms.
The aroma of gas still soaked in my clothes, and blood not of my own.
Now at this moment, my body went numb.
All life's red lust was gone, it all dies with her that night.
All of my sins, all of my soul, all I'd given won't gain control yet I know.
All of my fears become one.
And within this tragedy I know life's fragility, burn;
that nothing remains unbroken, and forever is a myth that liars have spoken.
Dark unfolding, cast the shadow over me.
Bleak unfolding, cast the shadow of us all.
To cast the mourning shadow

9. The Departure

Behind these eyes, fearful of failure;
depart towards a new world to find her and stand before her like a god on high with my arms wide.
And I will shift the tides at my willing to step through the fire.
My world defined, who I've become.
Yet I cannot allow the distance before me,
to have me completely.
These could be the last words I speak.
But all that matters is that you hear me
when I scream, call out your name
as I depart from this place.
Our time will come, when our world's undone. To all divine, it's in the tides.
In focus, I can see for miles, though our lives divide.
Though you and I are not the same, in time with the tides we both can change.
I have dreamt of this day,
I just wish I could stay in the wake of the day and remain unchanged.
If I cross the distant divide, light the way over me.
Though hopeless I won't refrain from the course.
The tides are shifting in my favor and all that lies before me is clear.
Give me the strength for the journey carry on towards...
I'll walk that line until the end of time.
Until I stand beside you Anna.
Through these darkest days that last forever, I will suffer by your side.
Though you and I are not the same, in time, with the tides we both can change.
I have dreamt of this day. I just wish I could stay, in the wake of the day and remain unchanged...