1. Weak

Worn out and nothing more to give
Who said that life was simple to live
The pain inside eats away at your pride
The price of friendship is sometimes high

But weak, in pain
Is where you want me to be
But still you are
The one who'll always lose
I win, you lose

Crack some lies behind my back
The time has come to start paying back
So here I come you pathetic shit
It's time to choose where the fist will hit

But weak, in pain
Is where you want me to be
But still you are
The one who'll always lose
I win, you lose

I called you a friend

I win, you lose

2. Kill The Pain

Trying to run from what you are
Afraid of being alive
Hands shaking body aching
The abuse left a permanent scar
So now to get by you do whatever it takes
You need your reality to hit your veins again
Don't try to blame anyone
Your blame is self chosen

Don't come looking for sympathy
'Cause you won't get it from me
You're nothing but a burned out wreck
That solves problems with another hit
The remedy in a bag
Served up on a spoon
Starts to serve it's purpose
To kill the pain!

Looking for the utopia you found the first time
Will you ever get there again
Increase the dose and soon you'll find out
Was it too much or just enough
The chemical satan has got you in his hell
Don't you think you're better off dead
Don't try to blame anyone
Your pain is self chosen

Don't come looking for sympathy
'Cause you won't get it from me
You're nothing but a burned out wreck
That solves problems with another hit
The remedy in a bag
Served up on a spoon
Starts to serve it's purpose
To kill the pain!

I need to kill the pain, kill it again
Need to release my pain, kill myself again
Traded your life for a fix

The remedy in a bag
Served up on a spoon
Starts to serve it's purpose
To kill the pain!

I need to
Release my pain
Help me to
Kill the pain

3. Human

The things you tried to make me believe in
To live, give, love and forgive

I'm trying...

Never painless, emotional emptiness
I always keep raping myself this way
Just darkness, I'm building myself a mountain of grief
I'm left by myself
Noose of guilt around my neck
Will there be someone here to listen?

Self destructive, or call it what you want
Self deception, I do it time and time again

True denial, Am I suicidal?
As my pain mounts up
I really can't tell anymore
Now I am
I'm left by myself
Fed up by thoughts
Will there be someone here to listen?

Self destructive, or call it what you want
Self deception, I do it time and time again

Can't put my life on hold
I need to catch my breath

Self destructive, or call it what you want
Self deception, I do it time and time again
Halls of emptiness, filled up with my mistakes
Still rejected, all that's left is loneliness...

I'm left by myslef
Fed up by thoughts
There were no one here to listen
Regret

Forget

4. Holy Rage

Preacher man, judging you again
Telling you about your sins
He made himself god to say
Sinful life is not the way
Follow christ the lord of flies
In holy wars where people still die
So as god fills your hollow mind
I will st my own rules of life

Body of christ
Holy rage

"Thou shalt not sin" are the words of the weak
Do you really believe in turning the other cheek?!
As so many others, you've been deceived
By the false servants of hate and greed
If there is a will there is a way
I'll never be on my knees to pray
You're taught to believe in christian lies
Words that will destroy your lives

Body of christ
Holy rage

Amen
They fool you
They rule you
And soon they'll also own you

They fooled you
They ruled you
And now they also own you

They fooled you
They ruled you
Who will now come to save you?

They fooled you
They ruled you

Amen

5. Demon Seed

There is a seed set to grow in my soul
That burns my heart but leaves my brain in control
Screams of pain and screams of fear
That lives inside my head

So now in different shapes I come to you
Smile as I fill your head with words untrue
Addictive ways of pleasure I bring to thee
You are weak, thereby easy to victimize

Crack my whip
To project demons in your mind
Taking you down
To the forever black

Now it's my time to rise
Break you down and grind your soul
Fear and disgust cracks your face
I have reached my goal
So now that I have entered your soul
I shall proceed to crush
Not because I want to or need to
Rather just because I can

Crack my whip...

The one with the mind on a higher level
Precious life, honed to perfection
Devious in heart, spawn of the dark
Born of demon seed
The son of the one almighty
I will be there to control
Always doing what I please
Demon seed

Crack my whip...

Devious in heart
Spawn of the dark
Demon seed

6. Save Me, Kill Me

Here I stand alone
Abused by myself
Scenes of suicide
Like a solid wall of fear
Negativity overcomes
Positivity in me
Self pity, laughing
Screaming in my ears

The fuse is lit
The fuse that makes me explode

These questions I ask
Who gives and who takes?
If the answer is god, well
Who am I? His mistake?
An endless battle
Against depressive thoughts
Brief moments of victory
'Cause you know there is always more to come

The fuse is lit
The fuse that makes me explode

I am
Alone
Save me
Kill me

Save me
Sane me

Spent some time in myself to find out who I am
All I found was pain
Can I ever be saved?
Kill me please, set me free
Save me
Kill me

The fuse is lit
The fuse that makes me explode

7. Colors

Look at you now, pathetic and weak
Slowly walking down on loser street
Bound to live your life without dignity
Self-inflicted misery

Trust is something that you earn
Deceit from trust is what I've learned

What you have is what I gave
I made you what you are
Is this the thanks that I get
Broken trust, a permanent scar
True colors
Transparent, I see through you

Who cares about old times
Who cares anymore
I'm just waiting for the right time
To even the score
Once you're gone and out of my way
You'll see my life was not so grey
Trust is something that you ear
Deceit from trust is what I've learned

What you have is what I gave
I made you what you are
Is this the thanks that I get
Broken trust, a permanent scar
True colors

Transparent, I see through you

8. Twelve Rounds

Here they go again, being untrue to themselves
It's nothing new, it's all been done before
They are not a dying breed
More like growing seed
With roots choking honesty and truth

They are twisting your words
And they are making up lies
When confronted they are in denial
No one is given the chance
To explain the actual facts
Because the book's already judged by its cover

Hate, rage, fear
Not prepared to
Hate, rage, fear

You think I don't hear you, talk behind my back?
You think I don't see oyu, and your hypocritical act
Did you ever think about the rest
Here's twelve rounds in the chest

Hate, rage, fear
Not prepared to
Hate, rage, fear
Not prepared to be
Pre-judged by thee
But determined to stand
Rise above

9. Hatred

Intact is what I am
Full weight not missing a gramme
Got the power to blow it all away
Attitude a part of the game
You and me are not the same
I'm superior in every way

Why can't you see
You're where I want you to be
I hope you see it my way
Your end will come, you will see

Feel the strength, why can't you see?
I am the one I want to be
I am a one man war machine
Know me, touch me
Love me, fear me
What is and ever will be
I am the bringer of it all

Why can't you see...

Used to think I could take a stand
But now my hatred has got the upper hand
The situation's beyond control
The hatred is burning my mind and my soul
Yeah, you better believe it
See you around, you're gonna receive it
I have come to rip and shred
The hate is for myself

Violence is my language
Hate is my right hand
I am death incarnated

Don't make the mistake
Hear my lesson in hate

You know I will

Crush

10. One Eyed Man

I feel strong
The power is back
It's been gone for so long
Trust me, here I come

Yeah, the scars in me
Came from what you wanted me to be
But still
I am what I am...

My life built on confusion
Hours spent alone in seclusion
I've come to claim what's mine
I am the one

"I am the armageddon man
It's written on a wall for a good time call"
Should I reveal the secrets in my mind?
Tell me, I wanna know
Time to leave life behind
To close doors in my mind
The hatred
Makes my eyes blind...

My life built on confusion
Hours spent alone in seclusion
I've come to claim what's mine
I am the one