1. Deprived

An endless descent into my personal darkness
Longing for nonexistence, slowly holding my breath
Down down down – So fucked up and so careless
Feeling so close to the end of this journey into cold death

Deprive me – Pave the way for my demise
Deprive me – I will miss the morning rise
Deprive me – Cut me down, close my eyes
Deprive me – To deny the gift of life

This torment so tempting, the path of the joyless
I took all my love and turned it into my own curse
Rape my innocence, rip me apart, leave me heartless
The only place I fit in is into my own hearse

Deprive me – Pave the way for my demise
Deprive me – I will miss the morning rise
Deprive me – Cut me down, close my eyes
Deprive me – To deny the gift of life

Deprived

Useless strains of sorry lies
Worthless days, worthless nights

Deprive me – Kill my chances to survive
Deprive me – Through black waters let me dive
Deprive me – Waste my will to be alive
Deprive me – Take away what I despise

2. ...And Don't Deliver Us From Evil

Lead us into temptation
We are nothing but tools
To embrace the enlightenment of depravity
Take our souls, take our lives, take everything from us

Mother – Who art in the depths
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done on earth
As it is in death
And don't deliver us from evil

A will to do harm
To ourselves and to all lives that we'll cross
We chose a path with no way back
Let us touch the ecstasy of iniquity

Mother – Who art in the depths
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done on earth
As it is in death
And don't deliver us from evil

In the name of everything that's foul
We glorify our will to destroy
No flesh shall be spared
Join us in the light of Negativity

Join us

3. Cold Summer

Come, come over me
Dark waters, drowning hope
Images shattered by dimness
A place so full of void and disease

The swollen vagina of sickness opens
So inviting and warm, unveiling my call to perdition

Rotten blood drained straight from my arteries
Rust in my mouth, the foul stench of lovely perversion

Cold Summer
Your sickness divine
Cold Summer

Architets of my suffering
Driving my way to my self-annihilation
Embracing impurity
Tearing away every piece of my smile

Adrift in a sea of unlimited obscurity
I welcome my curse with outstretched arms
And rejoice

Starvation comes, grief-filled sobriety
Loaded on angst, bloated on disgusting misery

Cold Summer
Your sickness divine
Cold Summer

Collapsing the sane
Life fills me with disgust.

Life fills me with disgust.

Cold summer divine.

4. Let's Torture Each Other

Everlasting cycle of pain
Reciprocal failure, our terminal game
You know, we're born with a birth defect
We only share feelings in our longing for death

One more step towards the end
Only while dying we're gonna hold out our hands
You'll slit my fucking throat
I'll kick your chair so you can swing from your rope

Let's burn together, let's start our strife
Let's dig our fucking graves, let's waste our lives

This angst keeps us alive
Let's torture each other
Like a splinter in our eyes
Let's torture each other
Please feed from my disease
Let's torture each other
We'll end up on our knees
Let's torture each other

A will to disappear
No more life means no more fear
This cruelty, our addiction
We'll share the nails for our crucifixion

Like heroin in our veins
Our pleasure in suffering will drive us insane
Strung out, I need a final injection
I'll overdose on my own self-destruction

Let's burn together, let's blind our sight
Let's get to the bitter end, let's fuck up our lives

This angst keeps us alive
Let's torture each other
Like a splinter in our eyes
Let's torture each other
Please feed from my disease
Let's torture each other
We'll end up on our knees
Let's torture each other

There's no compassion in the way we live
A selfish constant search for all the kicks we need
I don't want to be saved, you got it all wrong
I want us to share our grave
The only place we belong

This angst keeps us alive
Let's torture each other
Like a splinter in our eyes
Let's torture each other
Please feed from my disease
Let's torture each other
We'll end up on our knees
Let's torture each other

5. Love Me Like You'd Love The Death

It's like if the suffering of this world
runs into my veins
Broken dreams and wasted lives
The solitude of a million souls

Poisoning my blood, carved upon my skin
But when you think that I might care, you're so damn wrong

I wish you could live on your flesh
The pain that I've been through
The denial of emotions
Euthanasia of all sweetness
Aborted happiness, my heart a shallow grave

Lack of redemption, my only prize
If only you could see the hell which lies
behind my eyes

You would
Love me like you'd love the death
Like if you're loving Death itself

Love me like you'd love the death
We're going six feet under
Still divided as we've always been

A chronic lack of trust in life
What else could you expect?
Everything deserves to be gone
I chose to run towards the end

Be a martyr or be a hangman
Two different ways to fail at life
I know exactly what's wrong for me
But temptation comes my way

Over and over again
A tragedy I could foresee
An omen so predictable
My self-inflicted punishment
Murdered serenity, my heart's a graveyard

Now – It's far too late to make amends
Fuck me like you'd fuck a man that soon will end up dead

Love me like you'd love the death
Like if you're loving Death itself

Love me like you'd love the death
We're going six feet under
Still divided as we've always been

Love me like you'd love the death
Love me like you'd love the death
Love me like you'd love the death
Fuck me like if you're fucking Death itself.

6. Adrift

Waging the war of nerves again
The silence of the ones who failed

I'm craving for isolation
A way to stop the screams in my head
My reflection shows me
A man battered by this life of neglect

I don't feel like rising up again
Standing frozen, idle in my longing for the end

Pills to ignore the pain
Booze to numb the senses
Smoke to fall asleep
I don't fucking care about your help

Pills to ignore the pain
Booze to numb the senses
Smoke to fall asleep
I don't fucking care, I feel adrift

Deprive me of all self-esteem
I'm guilty of inducing my demise

My health has went to pieces
My joy rots somewhere deep inside
Your judgement won't affect me
I already sentenced myself to death

Too fucked up to care about life
Don't call me self-pity sick
'Cause the only truth is that I really don't give a shit

Pills to ignore the pain
Booze to numb the senses
Smoke to fall asleep
I don't fucking care about your help

Pills to ignore the pain
Booze to numb the senses
Smoke to fall asleep
I don't fucking care, I feel adrift

Another city, another faceless crowd
Feeling more alone than ever
My smile is so fake that it disgusts me
I wish next motel room will be my tomb

Trust me when I tell you
Today I just don't care if I live or die
I hate you all for giving me the illusion
that someone cares
We're born alone, we die alone

Pills to ignore the pain
Booze to numb the senses
Smoke to fall asleep
I don't fucking care about your help

Pills to ignore the pain
Booze to numb the senses
Smoke to fall asleep
I don't fucking care, I feel adrift

7. Nullifying Tomorrow

In the night hour I wander through the streetlights
This dead city is as bleak as my existence
My senses are numb, tranquilized by my self-abuse
Wishing for each of you to stop breathing

In the coldness of this tortured life
I see more darkness coming
I'm fully aware you think I'm a sick junk
I chose to dismiss my salvation

Nullifying tomorrow, erasing our will to be
Counting down the days, expecting the one when we won't awake
Putting compassion to sleep, heading for a killing spree
A selfish final exit, the only way to set ourselves free

In the coldness of this tortured life
I see more darkness coming
I'm fully aware you think I'm a sick junk
I chose to dismiss my salvation

It's so hard for you to accept
What I say is what I believe in
There's a difference between you and me
You just pretend, I fucking mean it

Let's nullify ourselves
Let's nullify our place in this life