1. Nonsense Of Belonging

Between the dawning of my life and when
My days are numbered low
Nobody else is ever gonna run my show

I play the game according to my rules
Got neither foe nor friend
For independence is my motto till the end

I twist the meaning of society
And always walk alone
These narrow streets I made with cobbles of my own

I ask the questions and I give replies
I am the one to please
If there's somebody whom to prove a thing, that's me

I look around – there's a feeling inside
Tells me not to trust a soul
Whatever plot you decide to write
I refuse to play a role

I'm an outcast – in this nonsense of belonging

Throughout the years I have denied to be
In groups of any kind
'cause my ideals never fit the common mind

They're all so certain they could even bet
That I am bound to fail
But in the end all my convictions will prevail

I look around – there's a feeling inside
Tells me not to trust a soul
Whatever choice I decide to make
I refuse to yield control

I'm an outcast – in this nonsense of belonging

2. Even Shares Of Gold

The time has come
A decision must be made
'bout sharing joy and tears with somebody else

All the lessons learned
In their previous fates
Will surely grace their little chest of wishes
Down its way into the magic well

Aside from plans
There is also doubt inside
'bout missing what they've conquered individually

On the other hand
There's a brighter side
The whole is greater than the sum of parts
As long as they are caring mutually

He will make his vows
She's on common grounds
Their will is now an oath

To pursue the dream
That rainbow's end will bring
Even shares of gold

"It is worthwhile all
If the soul's not small"
Their souls are ocean wide

3. Bitter Words

My bitter words came out impatiently
A flow of misery, of darkened thoughts
Of ignorance and irrationality
Now this unsavory aftertaste is left
My better words, no more secrets to be kept

Your bitter words, a restless source of pain
Different each other day, water to wine
From distant skies to familiar terrains
Now the confusion within has come to light
Your better words won't suffice to get things right

Thoughtless and perverse
Rhymes of disarray
Soon tore down the trust
Of the early days

Passion in reverse
Poured like acid rain
Soon put down to rust
Our derailed trains

Our bitter words undid what once we loved
They brought up our worst, the secret monsters
We conceal and sweep under the rug
Now the emotions and hopes from us have fled
Our better words, for some reason left unsaid

4. On The Wings Of Ruin

Once a man with a valorous heart
Went for the vision of living his dream
To express his creativity through some form of art

Day by day he would feed his soul
With the contentment of working at home
"I am fortunate to live as an artist"
So he said

What he could never expect...

The world couldn't pay for his candid work
And so he had to turn back on his faith
Freedom has never been the same from that day on
And so his will to live

Once a man with a straightforward mind
Went for the vision of living with ease
Amid luxury and all the wealth he could ever find

Day by day he would struggle hard
With the commitment his firm desired
"It's all part of the art of making a fortune"
So he said

What he could never expect...

Routine turned his fight into such a load
He couldn't bear fearless like before
He chose to give up that life
In favor of his sanity

On the wings of ruin
After the search of their lives
Fate has been so merciless
For having let them fly
On the wings of ruin

5. The Crossing

In the dead of night
Wrapped in silence, unobserved
I'm ready to set sail

Lift the anchors up
Start the engines to release
A venture off the trails

Drifting through the dark
To the wilderness of dreams
A vessel as my home

Destiny ignored
All I need is to inhale
The scent of the unknown

I've been safe but insecure – roots so deep for years
Thought I needed so much – now it hurts to be free

Wherever I get – all mem'ries will abide
But this day is the first of the rest – of the rest of my whole life

There is no map of where I'm heading to
Tonight Fate will turn the wheels
I got no compass, no magnetic North
The world is lying at my heels

There is no map of where I'm heading to
Tonight Chance is at the helm
I got no compass, no magnetic North
The world is suddenly my realm

This is my crossing

6. Haven

Morning rise, as I crumble
Down and have to face another day
There's a search, yet unfinished,
For the essence of the one I now am and soon will be

As every ship demands a harbor to land in
I need to find my solid ground
Whenever there's imbalance in between my selves
Someone has to give me shelter

Haven, haven – keep me safe from stormy nights
Right on the morrow bury my sorrows
Deep within a casket out of sight, my sight

Late at night, as I reckon
All the pieces of this maze I'm in
There's a spark, yet unclear,
A perception that enlightens my internal debate

It seems wherever I may go the answer's "no"
To every question that I make
Why have I taken just so long to realize
"Yes" lies with my kin, my blood tribe

Haven, haven – keep me safe from the awful truth
Bear no intrusion, heal the delusions
Rooted in the memories of my youth, poor youth

Just before my time runs out
Came to know the balance I've longed for is right within my reach
Good and bad I have been through
Only with these loving people (all around my soul) I could

Haven, haven – keep me safe from disbelief
Find me a reason for every season
I have spent in so much loss and grief, deep grief

7. Under Fading Lights

Long ago I was wiser than them all
Brightest among my peers, of any age
Master of fine arts and numbers and ideals
Source of good advice and common sense and clear foresight

My mind soon went gray, slow and patiently
Who's this stranger reflected in the looking glass?
Oh why my good Lord have you abandoned me?
Tragic ending of a story full of greatness and pride

Under fading lights I'll drown in peace
In the silent waves of madness I'm released
The eternal dark awaits my soul
Under fading lights, a mystery unknown

8. A Momentary Lapse Of Treason

He's always dreamed of
The scepter and the crown
The right to rule and stand above the law

He's gathered millions
The faithful and the blind
Who hold as true his tales of rich-and-poor

He's made his way up
But a second face appeared
As circumstances went and came around

He claims injustice
And blames his entourage
Makes sure that every fact turns upside down

Sanctified and cherished by
All those who take a part in his domain
But for the righteous people
The excuses for his crimes are oh so lame

A momentary lapse of treason
An ounce of selfness, a pound of ambition
A temporary glimpse of confusion
Who's to accuse him with thieves in profusion
Out in this country's fields?

He's promised heaven
Delivers hell instead
A dreadful scent of terror in the air

He's aiming high now
A past and future king
To celebrate his never-ending scheme

9. Ashes Of Yesteryear

After three decades of calm seas
I have come across a turning point
All my energy's been drained out
A dying man for someone to anoint

Now I know what stands before me
Have to burn the bridges all at once
It's the only chance to surface
And regain control over my course

I must come through tornado's eye
Abandon all days of yore
I must swim with the shifting tide
Arrive in an alien shore

I must be ready to leave behind
The canons I held to before
I must awaken the beast inside
That knows how to fear ignore

As I wander the halls
Of a mind so deranged
I heed to life's call
"Take hold of the inescapable change"

Though painful and stern
This passage might be
I'm willing to burn
And wipe off the ashes of yesteryear

(Hope)

I hope that all the angels and spirits will stay by my side
I hope that all my dreams will come true
When the turn of the year is due

Here is where I draw the line
Start off my journey anew
To reach for the real me
And find the cardinal truth

I hope I won't subdue to the old standards I used to know
I hope this irreligious devotion
Will drive my perennial motion

Here I forge the great divide
Give birth to somebody new
To reach for the love supreme
And find salvation with you

10. Over And Out

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