1. If?

Caught in the afterlife, or in limbo... Who can tell
Save me from the everlasting grief that they call hell
Eight internal bleedings; Stigmata – 1 per sin
I conmited all of them; My cleansing can begin

"Blood preasure weak... Broken and torn
A sinner who was cursed from the day he was born"

Looking at the whitened ceiling through a cloud of blood
Drifting in and out of consciousness in memory-flood
In my search for the light, I travel back in time
For my deadly sins to be uncovered as a holy crime

"Cellular death... The soul has left his eye
Nothing to do – nurse, please take him away to die"

What if my mortal remains are all that proved I was here?
What if I didn?t leave a mark in people?s sphere?
What if my deadly sins were my way to make you see?
To make all you non-believers believe in me...

2. King Of The Absurd

Can I cover your eyes with my hands?
Can I make you walk in my darkened lands?
A pawn to move around in my game of chess
Feeling down?
Come to me child and confess

Oh what I?d give to be able to see
Your shameless mirrored reflections of me
Soulless eyes that try to penetrate
The shell I made, to find out it?s too late

I use you solely for the sake of me
In egocentric vile fantasy
Self-indulgent; I am throwing you in the dirt
In my own dark dream
I?m king of the absurd

Can I measure my intelligence on you?
Can I use you as my tool to pass on through?
The halls of dark oblivion thay make
I?m the diamond that was made to never break

"So you wormed your way into my line of thoughts
Passing all the trenches I built to keep you out
And you found the barrier that no one else could break
A synaptic fortress to show you what I?m all about"

Hollowed out by speculation
In everlasting vile equation
Self indulgence; I?m drowing you in the dirt
In my own reality
I?m king of the absurd

3. Playing God

And I stand there like a King
Confronting you all, a hall of condemned
Almost like silent puppets on a string
You dance by my hands into the shadows of death

Your pathetic life means nothing to me
Random killings just for my exquisite pleasure
A violent game of destiny
I sit back and enjoy like judge and jury

Playing God...
Walk into my world of pain
Never walk out of here again
Playing God...
Soon I shall reveal for thee
The hatred buried deep in me

"Bones and skulls monumentally piled
To greet your arrival
Inhuman slavery, meaningless surgery
To prevent your survival"

And I stand there like a God
Watching my herd, my dejected flock
Disposing of your kind as if you were never here

Playing God...
Walk into my world of pain
Never walk out of here again
Playing God...
Soon I shall reveal for thee
The hatred buried deep in me

4. Melancholic

Waiting for you in a garden of hope
Where the fountain of dying light shines
Taking a stroll through a pleasure plane
Soon my idea of joy redefines

"Silence falls upon me
Silence fills my mind
Images awaken
Misery underlined"

Watching for you in a garden of joy
Where the silent breaths of the roses are heard
Flying alone in my pleasure plane
Experiencing possession by a single word

Wipe my tears away
Find me colours in my life today
In the blink of an eye
See a whole life passing by
Give me reason to live
In spheres of betrayal, we refuse to give

Found you in the garden of truth
Where the treacherous choirs of damnation sing
Killing my soul in the pleasure plane
In castles of sand I shall be the king

"Silence falls upon me
Silence fills my mind
Images awaken
Misery underlined"

Wipe my tears away
Find me colours in my life today
In the blink of an eye
See a whole life passing by
Give me reason to live
In spheres of betrayal, we refuse to give

5. Creator Of Failure

"The issue of beauty lies in the eye of the beholder"

Future bright, now another dimension
Wrapped up in endless tension
In my blurry haze, I see no tomorrow
I?ll drag you in coz?I?m crippled by sorrow
Downwards in a spiral I fall
Sentenced by my own pathetic call
Weak and fragile, thought I am strong
Pouring out a blind heart that went wrong

Sin upon sin, hidden deep within
The creator of failure will sell you anything
Worshipped for my deeds, sowing failure seeds
The creator of failure shall forever sing

...And the sweet I wished for in despair
Dissipates in empty, lifeless air
Seeking perfection I cry awkwardly
And re-enact the dream in fantasy
While my own deceit was called upon
You treated on me, waking aggression
I?ll sell you the fortune if I can
Of dying for leaving me, a lonely man

Sin upon sin, hidden deep within
The creator of failure will sell you anything
Worshipped for my deeds, sowing failure seeds
The creator of failure shall forever sing

"Last night she abandoned me
This beautifull creature, she
Who chose to be forever by my side
When she was dressed in white
Now I am left here in misery"

I burn the pictures of you and I
And curse your name in outrageous cries
Hostile in order to keep up the show
That I can imagine the whole world?s my foe
The oceans of dreams our emotions created
Have now become deceit-agitated
You, the virulent mutant cancer
I shall remove to build myself a decent answer

Sin upon sin, hidden deep within
The creator of failure will sell you anything
Worshipped for my deeds, sowing failure seeds
The creator of failure shall forever sing

6. It Feels Like The End

Left behind, pushed aside
Alone with my confusion
In sickness, in health,?till death do us?part
It was all an illusion

After dark, dressed in black
Still my presence is unknown
Watching you, with raging eyes
A side of me I?ve never shown

The deceit of my trust, the betrayal of my heart
My life in ruins, my world torn apart
Just floating around in a timeless hole
Holding on to my sanity, searching my soul
It feels like the end....

One wrong step, one wrong word
Every stranger you meet is a fake
No one else, deserves you like me
I strike like a slithering snake

The deceit of my trust, the betrayal of my heart
My life in ruins, my world torn apart
Just floating around in a timeless hole
Holding on to my sanity, searching my soul
It feels like the end....

"I let jealousy burn
Maybe then you will learn
As my pace is getting faster
And my rage is turning to laughter
I?m closing in on your back
I?m ready for the attack
I wish that time would re-wind
Too late... I... I... I?m only one step behind"

Terror on your face, horror in your mind
Your heart frozen dead in your chest
A mental note I?ll send to you
Saying "I will never rest"

The deceit of my trust, the betrayal of my heart
My life in ruins, my world torn apart
Just floating around in a timeless hole
Holding on to my sanity, searching my soul
It feels like the end....

7. Enigma

Psycho?s, freaks, beggars and thieves
The circus comes to town
Ugly sick and unclean; Pretending
That it is your own
Silently withering from disease
In arrogance
I watch you struggle on your knees

So, go back to the cardboard city
To the gutter and to your self-pity
Your destroyed life and malfunctioning mind
I won?t enrich a contaminated swine

I?m never going to pity
You, begging in the streets
Living life in dream mirage disorder
To fulfil your needs
Desperately holding on to a vanity
A distorted sanity

"Hope has always been a drug for the lost
But the shattered remmants of life kill
your enigmatic search
As you wake up, the harsh truth contaminates
you and destroys your vision of a better world"

So, go back to the cardboard city
To the gutter and to your self-pity
Your destroyed life and malfunctioning mind
I won?t enrich a contaminated swine

I am still to solve the riddle
That shows itself all around
Disclosure of the fragile human nature
Failure?s to be found
Stern and proud you bear your cross
Condemned to forever feeling loss

So, go back to the cardboard city
To the gutter and to your self-pity
Your destroyed life and malfunctioning mind
I won?t enrich a contaminated swine

8. Fall From Grace

Time has passed since my crusade began
The hours that fled my mind are gone
Still I recognize the feelings that I had
A selfish ignorant me undone

And as I fall from grace
Trapped from time and space
Can?t remember the days
The light on your pretty face

I threw away the time I had with you
To show my foolish state of mind
I can?t pretend that I was feeling anything
Only darkness I would find

And as I fall from grace
Trapped from time and space
Can?t remember the days
The light on your pretty face

"And I can feel no more
I can?t see the flaws in my head
The old man on the street is me
I will never ever see
My ignorance! Ignorance!
My ignorance! Ignorance!"

And as I fall from grace
Trapped from time and space
Can?t remember the days
And as I fall from grace
Can?t remember the days
...The light on your pretty face...

9. Help Me Like No One Can

"...Branded deep inside with the mark of melancholy"

It hurts so much inside, like a lethal chill down my spine
The destruction of my pride strangled this heart of mine
I have to live with this tragedy, get used to everybody?s stare
A wilted flower inside of me, I know you no longer care

I had a dream of breacking out from all the others
To me there was no other plan
Lost to myself now in a hole of self-destruction
Help me like no one can

...But what about me?
What about my destiny
No one else but me
Could see the tragedy
I?m drowning inside with apathy

My fires have disappeared, like the hopes of a better day
My future sadly weird, the insanity has come to stay
I see you in the darkest night, talking through my maze of depression
I almost feel your light, I turn my back on you with no hesitation

I had a dream of breacking out from all the others
To me there was no other plan
Lost to myself now in a hole of self-destruction
Help me like no one can

...But what about me?
What about my destiny
No one else but me
Could see the tragedy
I?m drowning inside with apathy

10. If, Then...

(Outro)

Did I really sin?
Should I suffer these bleedings within?
All of my body lying stigmatised
Beneath my skin – A flood oversized
Baptised – Sacrificed – Cannibalised!

I know now that every man has his deadly sins
Based on the scale of his own hollow conscience
Will everyone feel the bleeding deadly touch?
Or was 8 just a number too much?
Soul transition – Pain ignition – Blood corruption!

What if my reasons to believe have turned invalid?
What if I desire to deceive have proven solid?
What if I missed the difference of ecstatic and fanatic?
What if... What if... What if... then...?