1. Schizophrenia

His thoughts
Are diggin' through my brain
My thoughts
Put up resistance to him
He's in my head
Sometimes strong
Sometimes weak
But however I fight
I can't do him any harm

Sick thoughts drive me
To things I never want
How he makes it?
Is he stronger than me?
Where is the mystery
Where his sore point?
Can I defeat him
Or will he subject me?

He is the second self
Strong like the first
He is always by your side
Don't try to repress him
Sooner or later
He will get you too
You can't defeat him
He's a part of you!

An eternal fight
Struggle by everyone of us
The most are strong enough
But someone can't get it done
An endless war without a chance
To reconcillation
A vicious circle, sometimes I win
Sometimes he's the winner

He pushes me to kill
I don't hold him back
He shows me the way to evil
I follow him there
he sends me to Hell
I don't will prevent him
He is in sure distance
And laughs at me

Furious I try to grab
And destroy him
But just like in a nightmare
He leaves more and more
Humiliated and defeated
I left behind
Hopeless I lay on the ground
And choose the death!

2. Perverted Appetite

Big empty house
Creepy silence
An ugly morning all is grey
The streets are wet
I feel like to puke
My own guts
Lost my childhood
In everlasting loneliness
In search for a union
Of two sick souls
All possibilities are tried
All ways are walked
End in nowhere

Let me smell your flesh
Let me taste your flesh
Let me smell your blood
Let me taste your blood
Let me eat your flesh
I wanna feel you
Inside of myself

Dirty feelings always grow
Can't realize it
Desire raises
I need salvation
Then he appears from
The darkness of hopelessness

Shudders are twitching my loins
The kick of my life?
Lust is filling my inner self
Shiver my limbs
He gives himself to me
Is this my fulfillment?

Let me smell your flesh
Let me taste your flesh
Let me eat your flesh
I wanna feel you
Inside of myself

A new dimension of passion
Is opening to me
My fantasy
Beyond all humanity
His body in my body
For eternity
The smell of cremated flesh
Fills the air
The instinct of wild animals
Forced us
To be united forever

Let me smell your flesh
Let me taste your flesh
Let me eat your flesh
I wanna feel you
Inside of myself

3. Behind The Mask

Mask of a clown
A mask of smiling, hypocrisy
Mask of a clown
My mask
Alone I stand in the ring
Many thousand eyes
Look at me
Their faces
Turn to grimaces
I begin to hate them!

Nourished by laughter
Quenching my thirst
By the sources of grief
Hiding emotions
Behind the mask day by day
Leave alone with my fear

The show is over
The music goes dumb
The laughter is silent
The dream is dead

I take off my mask
And see into my face
My mouth
Distorted to a smile
A tear rolls
Across my cheek
A single tear
A tear, lost in eternity
It burns a hole
A deep hole in my soul

The voice of my
Heart screams
Deadly wounded
Never touched
Drowned in the sea of sorrow
Suffocated by life
Hopeless imprisoned
Behind my deeds
Crushed under the mask

Lay me down to
Sleep and dream
In the tent, a dead clown
Lies on the ground
Blood drops into the sand
The audience laugh
And applaud each laughter
Hits a new wound
Into the dead flesh

I wake up in the morning
Time for my entrance
Enter the tent
The mask in my face

Banished
The emotions of hate
But a knife in my hands

4. State Of The Rat

The crept to the top
High above our eyes
With hollow words
Empty promises and lies
We believed in them
Credulous and blind
The beginning of a new life
Was in your mind
And they eat all
Just like greedy rats
They eat our clothes
The hair from our heads
There is no meaning
For the tears we cry
We never can reach them
They are much too high

We are living
In a state of the rat
Our unconsciousness
Makes them fat
They are unimpeachable
Resist against all
And there is no force
That makes them fall

Their force is too strong
And will you crush and smash
Their greasy fingers
Always grab to your cash
Their ugly grimaces
Laugh at you loud
They will put you down
If you stand up and shout
We are too weak
Because we're disconnected
We are too fearful
Egoism-infected
From this vicious circle
We'll never break out
While our brain is affected
With a paralyzing cloud

We are living
In a state of the rat
Our unconsciousness
Makes them fat
They are unimpeachable
Resist against all
And there is no force
That makes them fall

5. The Atheist

Desperate they are searching
For power and help
Hoping for forgiveness
Of their sins
Their faith in God
Makes them stronger
But without faith
They are much weaker
Mind and naive they follow
God and the church
With their old-fashioned rules

Wings of destiny drive them
Into the addiction of their faith
Pain and their biggest fears
Disappear by their imagination
But your faith will not help you
When you stand before your judge
On the end of your days
On the end of your days!

I don't follow your rules
I don't believe in your God
I follow my own way
My own faith

I believe in my own god
I am an atheist!
I believe in my own god
I am an atheist

Everyone must pay the price
For his deeds and actions
Especially you, self-pleasing
Fighting for the church
To wash away your sins
And your sick desires
You will see, there is no hope
and help behind this facade

Oh, how I laugh at you
At your naivety
And how I despise you because
Of your carelessness
Your weak character
A lot of you will burn on Hell too
Further rely on your faith
And the chains, that you put
On yourself

6. Visions Of A Better World

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7. Necrophile

No one knows him
No one takes notice of him
He is a loner in all
Ways and relations
Extreme addictions
And preferences
Happy in his brain
Controlling his body
With full force
He knows himself
So he likes to move
In the dark

He's driven to go out
When the night comes down
Only in the dark
His victims are within reach
He searches for corpses
Dead men to use
He doesn't dare
Touching living flesh
He needs the smell
Of the dead
To satisfy his instinct

Dead flesh
Full of the smell of death
Dead flesh
Full of severe cold
Dead flesh
Defenseless like a child
Craving for lifeless bodies
It never ends
Before this thirst is quenched

He lives among ourselves
Unnoticed and pale
He feels good
In this world of easy prey
He's a beast

In human shape
Driven by a mania
That nobody knows or understands
He isn't a part of us
And help won't reach him soon

He gets untamed
If not kept under our control
He's sick and deranged
With his actions and when
Dealing with sexuality
There is no hope for recovery
Of his morbid appetite
The only relief is death
Almost all things are defined
And have backgrounds
Not for him
He's a necrophile!

8. Desperate Thoughts

My life is so empty
All days are the same
the time comes
To a standstill
I sit in my chamber
For myself to blame
And dismal thoughts
Let me thrill

I feel so chill
All around is so still

All fade to grey
You can leave me or stay
All fade to grey
There's nothing more to say
I go astray
While I try to leave this way
I drift away
And I think I cast away

I see into Hell
Always I hear my own knell

All fade to grey
You can leave me or stay
All fade to grey
There's nothing more to stay
I go astray
While I try to leave this way
I drift away
And I think I cast away

I don't want to live
I don't want to die
What can I do
That makes me ill
I just can't break out
So I always cry
And so many tears I spill

Myself to kill
Is that really my will?

All fade to grey
You can leave me or stay
All fade to grey
There's nothing more to say
I go astray
While I try to leave this way
I drift away
And I think I cast away

All fade to grey...
Leave me or stay...
All fade to grey...
Nothing more to say...

9. Amputated

Deadly infections
A smell of rotten flesh
Open wounds
Embolism in your veins
Twisted limbs rotting
While you breathe
Disgusted at your
Own body let you puke

Panic!
Eyes are dropping
Off your skull
Dying nerves
No feeling of pain
Deadly parts of your limbs
Are like garbage
They cut it off and
Throw it in the trash

They cut it off!
Throw it in the trash!

No feeling for your legs
You have no choice
You must cry for help
Or you must die

A cripple
For the rest of your life
This bad chance makes you ill

No one
Can believe your pain
No one
Understands your grief
No one
Knows how it feels
With your sorrows
You're alone
No one
Can really help you
No one
Can really love you
No one knows
Your terrible emotions
They see you
And look away

If you survive you must
Live on without legs
Always dependent
On help of the others
A life in a wheelchair
Helpless day by day
This is your life
After the amputation

10. If You Bleed

Someone is injured
Feel the pain?
So what, I have
My own chain!
I know, that's not my fault
He's desperate
Depressive, debased?
And feels just like erased?
Spare me from
This emotion assault!

Not my fault1

If you bleed
It's bad for you
But I'm not guilty
So bleed!
It's not my own blood
I'm not interested in you

Disaster and misery
Came to me suddenly
Why it choose me
Of all the people? Why?
I'm desperate
Depressive, debased
Fell just like a carcass
No one will hear my cry

Hear my cry
Tell me why
I feel pain
Go insane!

Now I'm broken
And I'm so alone
They kick me away
Just like a stone
And if I look back
I can't deny
All, that I said
Was nothing but a lie!

But now it's too late...