1. The Fields Of Life

Tell me why I stand here again
I cannot seem to make up my mind
Now I'm right where I wanted to be
But still I find it hard to smile

I wait for the euphoria to come
Maybe I've got it all wrong

I'm stranded
On the fields of life
No

Not again, I said to myself
But there you were and shook me around
Dragged me out from the cave in my mind
A place I wanted noone to find

Destiny has always had a way with me
Opened up my lying eyes and made me see

I hope you hear me
When you come too near me
I don't know how to handle desire

On the fields of life
I don't know where to go
On the fields of life
In don't know where to turn
On the fields of life

I don't wanna loose what I have found
A light in the darkness around

Why can't I let go of the fear
And let all my doubt disappear
I depend on the balance divine
Always so hard to combine

I hate the insecurity inside of me
I will always be my biggest enemy

I will always fear me
Cause when noone steer me I will go
Into the fire alight

On the fields of life
I don't know where to go
On the fields of life
I don't know where to turn
On the fields of life
I don't wanna die alone
On the fields of life

2. Trial And Error

It's the way you behave, the things that you say
It' the twinkle of frustration in your eyes
That reveals your illusion
A file built on bundles of lies

For some time I believed you
And the stories that you told
It really was a glamorous display
Now your fortune is long gone
Reality is heading your way

Trial and error without reason of rhyme
All those hours and days such a waste, a waste of time
Trial and error takes us further apart
Never learn anything from mistakes or by heart

I have begged you to listen, tried to slow you down
But you're not so keen on taking my advice
You're so blind, you don't notice
You make the same mistake twice

Trial and error without reason of rhyme
All those hours and days such a waste, a waste of time
Trial and error takes us further apart
Never learn anything from mistakes or by heart

Mountains of failure
You're standing on the top no one can see you
Mountains of failure
You're standing on the top no one can hear you

You are stuck in the circle, chasing yourself
And with no way out there's one thing you must learn
At the end of the day
There's no more bridges to burn

Trial and error without reason of rhyme
All those hours and days such a waste, a waste of time
Trial and error takes us further apart
Never learn anything from mistakes or by heart

3. One Way Ticket

He always tried to seize the day
Now he let it slip away
Shining sun or failing rain
Doesn't matter anymore
Another boring day begins
Already knows how it will end
And now he's losing faith in you

You used to guide him
You showed the way the he should follow
He built a world upon your promise
He would be saved

He's all alone, no one to hold
When the nights are long and cold
He prayed to you for some relief
For some reward for his belief
He tried so hard to do it right
Saw the world in black and white
But now it's fading into grey

He feel temptation
He's never had a night of passion
Or numbed his mind with the firewater
Never felt alive

Oh he's lost again
Now the world will see
Another soul led astray
Another destiny thrown away
The one way ticket in his trembling hand
Is the testimony to the tragedy
Was he never meant to be??

He boarded the plane towards the end
A grave among the neon lights
Realized his wildest dreams
In a drunken, hazy night

He sold his life and the money made
Spent it all on the last crusade
His celebration of the end

The one's who found him
Said he smiled and looked so peaceful
And in his hand he held a letter
It said: "No one came"

I hope you're happy in the world beyond
That you find what you need
That you get what you want

The world has lost again
And no one will see
Another soul led astray
Another destiny thrown away
The final letter in his lifeless hand
Is the testimony to the tragedy
Was he never meant to be??

4. Reasons

I still feel your presence, although you're not here
Your voice your smile and laughter is
Now replaced with fear
I'm holding on to memories that slowly fade away
Force my self to hold on and live for one more day

Time is a twofaced creature of mercy and of pain
No way to control it, all efforts is in vain
Destiny is lawless. It makes up its own rules
Together they are mocking and make us look like fools

Give me reasons to leave, turn around and walk away
Give me reasons to stay
And be a part of this world once again
Give me reasons to leave, turn around and walk away
Give me reasons to stay,
You held the fate of my life in your hands

I thought I could handle everything
I thought that I was strong
File was running flawless and nothing could go wrong
But I froze when I saw it coming, the turning of the tide
Washed away in sadness with no place for me to hide

Give me reasons to leave, turn around and walk away
Give me reasons to stay
And be a part of this world once again
Give me reasons to leave, turn around and walk away
Give me reasons to stay
And be a part of this world once again
Give me reasons to leave, turn around and walk away
Give me reasons to stay,
You held the fate of my life in your hands

5. Wounded Soul

Now I Am here again
So tired of pretending
I know what my life is about
Trying to find a way
The almighty solution
Before I have run out of time

I still remember when
I believed that the fire
Inside me was destined to burn
Every day and night
For as long as 'I'm breathing
Now only the ashes remain

Always seek. Always speak
Of the moment all comes together
Am I back. Right on track
Are the changes made to the better

I hope that what will end all this confusion
The conclusion
I am just healing the wounds of soul

Maybe I'll never learn
From all the mistakes I've have done
Since the day I was born
Maybe I'll die alone
Surrounded by memories
Of all of the love I denied

Always seek. Always speak
Of the moment all comes together
Am I back. Right on track
Are the changes made to the better

Here in the darkness
I wait for the light to arise
And bring me back to where my heart was filled with life
Here in the darkness
Will someone please show me the way
To reignite the spark
And let me glow again

Here in this empty room
In my tower of sorrow
I decide to start over again
I hope to find someone new
That will search for the pieces
And try to recover my heart

6. Hideaway

There's a place, that no one knowi of
A safe haven filled with bliss
It's far away, I'd like to stay there
To make my clouded sky clear up

No tears or sorrow
In my hideaway of dreams

Suddenly my pain has turned into laughter
No restrains are keeping me
Locked inside this shell I'm in
Soon reality comes crawling again
Disabled as I lie, you enjoy life

There's no light, where I'm abandoned
I've lost all track of time and space
No friendly face, is recognized here
Behind my eyes I'm still aware

Suddenly my pain has turned into laughter
No restrains are keeping me
Locked inside this shell I'm in
Soon reality comes crawling again
Disabled as I lie, you enjoy life

I'm stashed away, to waste away
I won't be preying on your mind anymore
I will forgive, you will forget
What goes around will come around at the end

Suddenly my pain has turned into laughter
No restrains are keeping me
Locked inside this shell I'm in
Soon reality comes crawling again...

7. To My Inspiration

All my life you hale been here beside me
Through the days and nights we were as one
Now you're gone
I'm sorry that I couldn't see
The I treated u wrong
That I drove you away

Oh... my love don't leave me here alone
Oh.. I cannot make it on my own
Without you all I am will slowly fall apart
I need you here to bring some light into my heart

Now and then
I feel you inside of my soul
Like a flash of light
In the dead of night
Everyday I hope I will meet you again
And invite u to stay, forevermore

Then there is moments just like this
Times that I so dearly miss
When you return in all your glory

A piece of paper and pen
Some time alone and then
We are immortalized forever

I beg you
Don't ever leave for good

8. White Darkness

Nothing can move me when I'm fading
Slowly turning into air
No one can see me when I'm hiding
Somewhere beyond reality

I'm drifting away to my own landscape
Floating on the rivers of despair
And when the world upon my shoulders wears too heavy
I let it slip away

I am safe here
Inside my white darkness
Problems don't bother me in here
All alone here, a world in white darkness
The one place to where I always will return
Always will return

I won't deny that I am tempted
To stay here and to never ever leave
But to go where for good I need a reason
A battle impossible to win

Nowadays I'm stronger, feeling more secure
Dealing with my problems that I've had before
I've finally found the harmony I need in life
I need to be awake, don't let it wither away

We all have dark days in our lives
There will always be the moments when life has no mercy
Any loved ones will believe you
Before we die

I am safe here
Inside my white darkness
Problems don't bother me in here
All alone here, a world in white darkness
The one place to where I always will return
Always will return

9. Belief

Now I know nothing's what it seems
Money talks
Now I see religion screams
I believe in what I hear and what I see
and in myself, the king of my own destiny

The angles of heaven, the demons of hell
are creatures we had to create
Why are you scared to see who you are
and be in control of your life, and fate

I can't see why you choose to dedicate
all your life to assure you enter heavens gates

I can't say that I am right and you are wrong but common sense can tell a truth or two
All those lives lost in battle of belief
It's all because you were born to believe in different lies

The angles of heaven, the demons of hell are creatures we had to create
Why are you scared to see who you are and be in control of your life, and fate
If god is above us and satan beneath we all belong here on earth
Cause noone is good or evil to the core
We all have our halos and horns to bear

10. Trust

I told you my secret you said it would be safe
You would never show, and no one was to know

Sharing my burden, giving some relief
That was my true belief, but the I was deceived

Just like the stars that keep on glowing when they turn to dust
You left your mark that stained my soul with your betrayal and your broken trust

Kissed me like Judas and poisoning my heart
That's what you've done to me
I want all of the world to see

Just like the stars that keep on glowing when they turn to dust
You left your mark that stained my soul with your betrayal and your broken trust

Oh I wish we'd never met
It's time to forgive now, it's time to forget

Then these feelings would be gone
It's time to look forward, it's time to move on

I'll never know nthe answer why
Never know why

Don't need your confession, or any lame excuse
Because what goes around, always comes around

Just like the stars that keep on glowing when they turn to dust
You left your mark that stained my soul with your betrayal and your broken trust