1. Lost

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2. Shock

Nothing can prepare you for the bad news rolling in
Vertigo will greet them as they come
I can't shake the feel of premonition on my skin
One single word becoming everything

Cold disbelief straining tighter
His bony fingers around my neck

Turned inside out
I can't face the truth of it
I'm going under
Never signed up for damnation
Or a legion of sickness
A broken legacy my name

Knowledge cuts through reality like a burning blade of fate
Nothing can go back to how it was before
Hit by the shock into a nauseating state
Awakened by the drums of civil war

I can't believe the words you say
I'm coiling thunderstruck

Tell me how you can be so sure that it's all true
I've got this growing doubt inside
Please don't say it, I can't hear no more from you
Leave me be, never mind
It's only numbers
You know, you know I'm fine

3. Denial

You want to know when I will go
But I am still right right here
It's not today, I'm not afraid
The bell will toll for every soul
Righteous and wicked ones
Why don't you see, it can't be real

You say I'm in denial
Oh no, it's nothing I can't fight

Just wait and see, make you believe
I'll turn those months to years
The tables turn, when will you learn?
I'll carry on, break through the storm
I don't care what it takes
'Cause I am stronger than you know

I've made it through the wild before
Hear me when I say
I will defy this
I'm a survivor
Why do you call it illusions
Why do you call it denial?

All alone I know I'll fall
For the madness of it all
I can't make it on my own (Can't make it all alone)

(I darken your door)
Hearing a sound from my back door
I open, there's nobody there
A night owl's call the only sound
(Darkness falls inside)

4. When Everything Falls

I know the day will come
When the sun will never rise and shine on me
I know it won't be long now
Been there before but I don't know how to find relief
For this pain inside of me

When everything falls
You try to stay on your course
Keep your eyes on the road
In spite of it all
When everything falls around you
Again and again

Black smoke arising from
The scattered ruins of my yesterday long gone
Whatever plans I once had
All disappeared the moment someone wrote "positive"

Time will heal they say
And all the pain will pass
You will never be the same anymore
Time goes by...
I have never felt so alive
As when you told me we could live to tell the tale together
Even though it made me cry
I know, that everything is fallen

5. Hatred

How can it be
You've turned your back on me completely
In my hour of need
I'm out of fortune
I wish it would come to an end

Awakening an ancient force inside
Here I go, I'm crossing every line

I'm all hatred
It burns inside
Feel my hatred

I'm so infuriated I can't see
Just get out of my way
Leave me be
There need be no casualties here
Apart from myself

I'm all hatred
It burns inside
Blood red hatred

"I gave you all of my strength
Trusting you with each decision
You've given me nothing
But pain and wrong incisions
Alone here in this hellhole
Where all the lost ones fall
I must needs find a ray of hope
Before I lose it all"

6. If Only

If only the righteous will be saved
What does it mean to you,
What does it mean for me?
If only the good ones will die young
Does it please the gods?

You have to believe in something
Your fate depends upon your creed

I am walking the wire
Dance on the edge of insanity
I never thought I could want something more
I wish for one last dance with you

If there is no way to cure this body
I turn to the soul
My life a hell-bent shooting star
The show is over before it began

Everything we have is the here and the now
So talk to me, let's make the moment count

7. Isolate

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8. (W)hole

I was waiting for a savior
All the time I had the tools
Like a prime time channel of failures
I'm a jester of fools
Hearing the reaper he's at my door

Sickness is eating me alive
I've got black mass pouring out of me
Like I am rotten inside

Putting the pieces together
Watch me closely, I'm whole again
Flying higher and higher to reach tomorrow

I was waiting for a savior
All the while I tied my noose
The pills don't work without a prayer
The puppet master's strings hang loose
Darkness hanging on me closely

Because I turned out all the lights
I let the shadows grow so grisly
When I should have fought for my life

A sudden sound of falling feathers
It was all an illusion
I fall down the hole again
There's no one else to blame

9. Regrets

How long has this thing gone on
'cause the signs were there
No I don't want to go
Back to the white house of pain

I thought that this would be over by now
That's what they said and I believed
This must be a nightmare
I just can't find a way out of it
To make it all undone

If I could go back in time
I would change everything
But it's a dream within a dream
I feel like I'm drowning
Down in this ocean of regrets

I could have been so much better a friend to you all
Stronger an enemy
How could I be so blinded?
I threw away my last lifeline for fear to lose
And I've let you all down
Can't step away from the void now
Without crossing the edge

I can never make it back again
I have forsaken you for too long
Now I know you won't forgive me anymore
I'm filled with regret
I can't help it, I can't take it anymore

10. Utopia

Whatever happens when you walk the final mile
I know it's waiting for me down the line

A house of peace
A place to rest your soul
Oh I've heard it all
A mouth of fire to kill desire

You never know until you get there
You never know for sure
Until it's too late too late to change

Can't see the end
My destination unknown
Though millions walked here before
A great divide
You can't deny

A garden of roses
A dark cell for the damned
An infinite life like the one I never had
Are the stories all real
Or is Utopia only a place in my dreams

Dimension X, a forbidden danger zone
For every mortal soul
The truth is hidden by the void
I can't deny it anymore
I know him all too well
The stranger at my door

Oh how I wish it could be true
That heaven will open for sinners too
Lying in a green field
The sun warm on my face
I'm finally at peace
But the journey still awaits

11. Acceptance

Slow now
Turn now, slowly
Close your eyes
Walk now, slowly, away
Come now
You'll see, slowly
How as I fade
Slowly the pain goes away

I want you to know
I'll be there forever after

Mother don't you cry for me
Our last goodbye as this may be
I want no tears for me
My time has come
I've got to move on

Such a strange sensation
My eyes are closed but I can still see
Invisible hands pull me higher
I reach out to you but you can't feel
I try to speak but you can't hear
I'm not afraid anymore

My love oh my life, I wish you well
Give me your smile this one last time
Only time will tell
When all is said and done
We all become one

Please don't fall into despair
Because nothing lasts forever
No more desire burns

12. Archangel

Darkness surrounds me
This place a cove of mystery
There is somebody watching me
As the shadows all fall away they approach
I can feel my die is cast now

I am walking through light
Cast away my worldly guise
I'm soaring, I'm dying tonight

In the hands of an Archangel

The space around is empty
The nothingness becoming one
With all these memories flashing by
I can see all the rights and wrongs I have done
I can feel I'm going home

I am walking through light
Cast away my worldly guise
I'm soaring, I'm dying tonight
Freed from space and from time
The Everlight surrounds my mind
As I reach for the end of the line