1. In Pouring Rain

In pouring rain
I drown in thoughts
Angels' tears
They cry to god
Soaking wet
I clench my fists
I wonder what's amiss
I scream towards the pouring sky
Cursing life and asking why
In pouring rain
I drown in thoughts
I have no clue
I am lost

Why?
Why me?

What have I done?
Why am I the one?
It riddles me
These cryptic mysteries
Falling onto me
Like the rain
From the grey clouds
Above me

In pouring rain
I drown in thoughts
Angels' tears
They cry to god
Soaking wet
I clench my fists
I wonder what's amiss
I scream towards the pouring sky
Cursing life and asking why
In pouring rain
I drown in thoughts
I have no clue
I am lost

2. The Silent Witness

I cannot think of a reason
A question without an answer

An answer I can't give
I am the silent witness
To all misery
Created by lies and deceit
I can't find
The missing pieces of this puzzle

Puzzled I am
I still can't speak
A silent witness forever
On a quest for the answer
I seek

Even others cannot help
For they have no sight
Of what's inside
Talking ain't no solution
Because they don't see
They don't see
What the question is
The reason of being me

I cannot think of a reason
That's the question

3. This Inner Twist

All Dreams and Hopes are lost
Everything's shattered
I'd rather leave it all be
And move on to something better
'cause it sickens me
it's all so unreal
twisting inside of me

What will be better?
What am I to expect?
Fields of Fire
Or some peace of mind
Is this a decision
I'm going to regret
This inner twist
Messing with my head

All dreams and hopes are lost
Everything's shattered

What will be better?
What am I to expect?
Fields of Fire
Or a heavenly choir

This Inner Twist
It's getting Worse
Is there a reason to exist
Or am I cursed

All these questions
In my mind
No one can answer
No more smiles
No more laughter
As I sink
Into the depths
Of eternal misery.

4. The Sun Doesn't Shine Anymore

The sun doesn't shine anymore
Grey clouds cover the sky forevermore
And I miss you, your smile, your laughing face
And the twinkles of joy in your eyes

I know you are there
Yet you are so far away
A part of me has died
A part that chose not to stay

Wishful thoughts
In my mind
All the time
Thoughts of vengeance to ease my mind

I know you are there
Yet you are so far away
A part of me has died
A part that chose not to stay

Wishful thoughts
In my mind
All the time
The thought of holding you tight

In my arms
On a day
Under the blue sky
In the sunshine
Burning bright
On a day
In my arms
Under the blue sky

I fear this is a Utopian dream
Reality ain't the same no more
Real life equals horror
In real life I am game
Being hunted by reality
Reality which is unfair
And i'll always miss you
I am here and you are there

5. A Flower In Decay

Your scent
The smell of flowers in decay
So sad
The way you sit there, rotting away

So young
With a lot of plans and dreams
They're lost
Life's unfair, so it seems

All hope is gone
No spark of brightness in sight
You gave up
You don't want to fight this fight

Your scent
The smell of flowers in decay
So sad
You're rotting away

A battle lost before it even started
Leaving me behind, broken hearted
I couldn't imagine you would lose
That this is the end
That you would choose
I understand you are in pain
That living life becomes a strain
You'd rather be up there amongst angels
Because the demons inside are too painful