1. I Remember Now

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2. Anarchy-X

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3. Revolution Calling

For a price I'd do about anything
Except pull the trigger
For that I'd need a pretty good cause
Then I heard of Dr. X
The man with the cure
Just watch the television
Yeah, you'll see there's something going on

Got no love for politicians
Or that crazy scene in D.C.
It's just a power mad town
But the time is ripe for changes
There's a growing feeling
That taking a chance on a new kind of vision is due

I used to trust the media
To tell me the truth, tell us the truth
But now I've seen the payoffs
Everywhere I look
Who do you trust when everyone's a crook?

Revolution calling
Revolution calling
Revolution calling you
(There's a) Revolution calling
Revolution calling
Gotta make a change
Gotta push, gotta push it on through

I'm tired of all this bullshit
They keep selling me on T.V.
About the communist plan
And all the shady preachers
Begging for my cash
Swiss bank accounts while giving their
Secretaries the slam

They're all in Penthouse now
Or Playboy magazine, million dollar stories to tell
I guess Warhol wasn't wrong
Fame fifteen minutes long
Everyone's using everybody, making the sale

I used to think
That only America's way, way was right
But now the holy dollar rules everybody's lives
Gotta make a million doesn't matter who dies

Revolution calling
Revolution calling
Revolution calling you
(There's a) Revolution calling
Revolution calling
Gotta make a change
Gotta push, gotta push it on through

I used to trust the media
To tell me the truth, tell us the truth
But now I've seen the payoffs
Everywhere I look
Who do you trust when everyone's a crook?

Revolution calling
Revolution calling
Revolution calling you
(There's a) Revolution calling
Revolution calling
Gotta make a change
Gotta push, gotta push it on through

4. Operation: Mindcrime

It just takes a minute
And you'll feel no pain
Gotta make something of your life boy
Give me one more vein
You've come to see the doctor
Cause I'll show you the cure
I'm gonna take away the questions
Yeah I'm gonna make you sure

A hit man for the order
When you couldn't go to school
Had a skin job for a hair-do
Yeah you looked pretty cool
Had a habit doing mainline
Watch the dragon burn
No regrets, you've got no goals
Nothing more to learn

Now I know you won't refuse
Because we've got so much to do
And you've got nothing more to lose
So take this number and welcome to

Operation: Mindcrime
We're an underground revolution
Working overtime
Operation: Mindcrime
There's a job for you in
The system boy, with nothing to sign

Hey Nikki you know everything
That there is to do
Here's a gun take it home
Wait by the phone
We'll send someone over
To bring you what you need
You're a one man death machine
Make this city bleed

Now I know you won't refuse
Because we've got so much to do
And you've got nothing more to lose
So take this number and welcome to

Operation: Mindcrime
We're an underground revolution
Working overtime
Operation: Mindcrime
There's a job for you in
The system boy, with nothing to sign

Operation: Mindcrime
We're an underground revolution
Working overtime
Operation: Mindcrime
If you come to see the doctor
Yeah he'll give you the cure

Operation: Mindcrime
Make something of your life boy
Let me into your mind
Operation: Mindcrime
There's a job for you in the system boy
With nothing to sign

5. Speak

They've given me a mission
I don't really know the game yet
I'm bent on submission
Religion is to blame
I'm the new messiah
Death Angel with a gun
Dangerous in my silence
Deadly to my cause

Speak to me the pain you feel
Speak the word
The word is all of us

I've given my life to become what I am
To preach the new beginning
To make you understand
To reach some point of order
Utopia in mind, you've got to learn
To sacrifice, to leave what's now behind

Speak to me the pain you feel
Speak the word
The word is all of us
Speak the word
The word is all of us

Seven years of power
The corporation claw
The rich control the government, the media the law
To make some kind of difference
Then everyone must know
Eradicate the fascists, revolution will grow

The system we learn says we're equal under law
But the streets are reality, the weak and poor will fall
Let's tip the power balance and tear down their crown
Educate the masses, We'll burn the White House down

Speak to me the pain you feel
Speak to me the pain you feel
Speak the word (Revolution)
The word is all of us
Speak the word (Revolution)
The word is all of us
Speak the word
The word is all of us
Speak the Word
The word is all of us

SPEAK!!!

6. Spreading The Disease

She always brings me what I need
Without I beg and sweat and bleed
When we're alone at night
Waiting for the call
She feeds my skin

Sixteen and on the run from home
Found a job in Times Square
Working Live S&M shows
Twenty-five bucks (a fuck)
And John's a happy man
She wipes the filth away
And it's back on the streets again

Spreading the disease
Everybody needs
But no one wants to see

Father William saved her from the streets
She drank the lifeblood from the saviour's feet
She's Sister Mary now, eyes as cold as ice
He takes her once a week
On the alter like a sacrifice

Spreading the disease
Everybody needs
But no one wants to see

Religion and sex are powerplays
Manipulate the people for the money they pay
Selling skin, selling God
The numbers look the same on their credit cards
Politicians say no to drugs
While we pay for wars in South America

Fighting fire with empty words
While the banks get fat
And the poor stay poor
And the rich get rich
And the cops get paid
To look away
As the one percent rules America

Spreading the disease
Everybody needs
But no one wants to see
The way society
Keeps spreading the disease

7. The Mission

In the wooden chair
Beside my window
I wear a face born in the falling rain
I talk to shadows from a lonely candle
Recite the phrases from the wall
I can't explain this Holy pain

Six days ago my life had taken a tumble
The orders came from high above they say
A need to use me once again they've got my number
Further the cause boy yes you know the game

I'll wait here for days longer
Till the sister comes to wash my sins away
She is the lady that can ease my sorrow
She brings the only friend
That helps me find my way

I search the past back to a time
When I was younger
A target for the new society
Picked to displace the leaders
Countering objectives
Of this new underground reality

Waiting for days longer
'til sister comes to wash my sins away
She is the lady that can ease my sorrow
My love for her
Will help me find my way

My mission saved the world
And I stood proud
My mission changed the world
It turned my life around

I look around my room is filled with candles
Each one a story but they end the same
I'll hide away in here the law will never find me
The walls will tell the story of my pain

Waiting for days longer
Till sister comes to wash my sins away
She is the lady who can ease my sorrow
She sets the pace for my delivery of pain

They'll say my mission saved the world
And I stood proud
My mission changed the world
The underground will rise and
Save this world we'll all stand proud
Our mission changed the world, we'll change the world
We'll all stand proud

8. Suite Sister Mary

[Dr. X:] "Kill her. That's all you have to do."
[Nikki:] "Kill Mary?"
[Dr. X:] "She's a risk, and get the priest as well."

10 P.M., I feel the rain coming down
My face feels the wet, my mind the storm
Flashing lights as people race to find shelter from the pour
Moving silent, through the streets, they're mine, they're
mine

Midnite, she sings praises in the Hall
To saintly faces hallowed be their names she can't recall
Sister Mary, virgin Mary, silent with her sin
( [Mary:] "What are you doing out in the rain?" )
She feels me, I can taste her breath when she speaks
( [Mary:] "I've been waiting for you. Come in." )

Mary, Mary just a whore for the underground
They made you pay in guilt for your salvation
Thought you had them fooled? Now they've sent me for you
You know too much for your own good
Don't offer me faith, I've got all I need here
My faith is growing, growing tight against the seam
What we need is trust, to keep us both alive
Help us make it through the night

[Mary]
I've no more want of any faith
Binds my arm and feed my mind
The only peace I've ever known
I'll close my eyes and you shoot

No Mary, listen, you've got to pull your strength from my lips
I pray I feed you well
Your precious cross is gone, it made me wait so long
For what you gave to everyone
The priest is cold and dead on his knees he fed
From my barrel of death, he turned the Holy water red
As he died he said thank you
I just watched him bleed

[Mary]
I feel the flow, the blessed stain
Sweating hands like fire, and flames
Burn my thighs, spread in sacrificial rite
The hallowed altar burns my flesh once more tonight

Mary, sweet lady of pain
Always alone
Blind you search for the truth
I see myself in you, parallel lives
Winding at light-speed through time

No time to rest yet
We've got to stop his game
Before madness has the final laugh
Too much bloodshed
We're being used and fed
Like rats in experiments
No final outcome here
Only pain and fear
It's followed us both all our lives
There's one thing left to see
Will it be him or me?
There's one more candle left to light

[Mary]
Don't turn your back on my disgrace
The blood of Christ can't heal my wounds...so deep
The sins of man are all I taste
Can't spit the memory from my mind
I can't cry anymore

Mary, my lady of pain, always alone
Blind you search for the truth
I see myself in you, parallel lives
Winding at light-speed through time, you're mine

9. The Needle Lies

[Nikki:] "I've had enough and I WANT OUT!"
[Dr. X:] "You can't walk away now."

I looked back once
And all I saw was his face
Smiling, the needle crying
Walking out of his room
With mirrors, afraid I heard him scream
You'll never get away

Cold and shaking
I crawled down alleys to try
And scrape away the tracks that marked me
Slammed my face into walls of concrete
I stared, amazed at the words written on the wall

Don't ever trust
Don't ever trust the needle, it lies
Don't ever trust
Don't ever trust the needle when it cries...
Cries your name

Wet and raving
The needle keeps calling me back
To bloody my hands forever
Carved my cure with the blade
That left me in scars
Now every time I'm weak
Words scream from my arm

Don't ever trust
Don't ever trust the needle, it lies
Don't ever trust
Don't ever trust the needle when it cries...
Cries your name
Don't ever trust
Don't ever trust the needle, it lies
Don't ever trust
Don't ever trust the needle when it cries...
Cries your name

10. Electric Requiem

([Nikki:] "Anybody home? Mary?")
Even in death
You still look sad
Don't leave me
Don't leave me...here
I want what you feel, believe me
Turn the current on

11. Breaking The Silence

They told me to run, but just how far?
Can I go wearing the black mask of fear?
The hate in my eyes always gives me away
The tension building slowly
Now I lost everything I had in you
Nothing we shared means a thing
Without you close to me
I can't live without you

Breaking the silence of the night
Can't you hear me screaming?
I look for your face in the neon light
You never answer me

There's no direction to my stare
No more flame burning in my heart anymore
Quiet, I keep it to myself
Until the sun sets slowly
I hear your voice in the evening rain calling
Nothing will keep us apart
No more lies and fear
There's no end to our story

Breaking the silence of the night
Can't you hear me screaming?
I look for your face in the neon light
You never answer
I could make all the wrong seem right
If you were by my side
I'd gather all the tears you cried
And hide them deep underground

Can't look back, it's just a waste of time
Can't erase this hate from my eyes

Breaking the silence of the night
Through the streets I'm screaming
Looking for you in the neon light
Why don't you answer me?
Breaking the silence with my cries
Can't you hear me screaming?
We could make all this wrong seem right
But you never answer me

12. I Don't Believe In Love

I awoke on impact
Under surveillance from the camera eye
Searching high and low
The criminal mind found at the scene of the crime
Handcuffed and blind, I didn't do it
She said she loved me
I guess I never knew
But do we ever, ever really know?
She said she'd meet me on the other side
But I knew right then, I'd never find her

I don't believe in love
I never have, I never will
I don't believe in love
It's never worth the pain that you feel

No more nightmares, I've seen them all
From the day I was born, they've haunted my every move
Every open hand's there to push and shove
No time for love it doesn't matter
She made a difference
I guess she had a way
Of making every night seem bright as day
Now I walk in shadows, never see the light
She must have lied 'cause she never said goodbye

I don't believe in love
I never have, I never will
I don't believe in love
I'll just pretend she never was real
I don't believe in lovev I need to forget her face, I see
it still
I don't believe in love
It's never worth the pain that you feel

No chance for contact
There's no raison d'etre
My only hope is one day I'll forget
The pain of knowing what can never be
With or without love it's all the same to me

I don't believe in love
I never have, I never will
I don't believe in love
I'll just pretend she never was real
I don't believe in love
I need to forget her face, I see it still
I don't believe in love
It's never worth the pain that you feel

13. Waiting For 22

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14. My Empty Room

Empty room today
And here I sit
Chalk outline upon the wall
I remember tracing it
A thousand times, the night she died.
Why? (Why?)
There's no sleep today, I can't pretend
When all my dreams are crimes
I can't stand facing them
Now who will come
To wash away my sins
Clean my room, fix my meals
Be my friend?

15. Eyes Of A Stranger

All alone now
Except for the memories
Of what we had and what we knew
Everytime I try to leave it behind me
I see something that reminds me of you
Every night the dreams return to haunt me
Your rosary wrapped around your throat
I lie awake and sweat, afraid to fall asleep
I see your face looking back at me

And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare

Is this all that's left
Of my life before me
Straight jacket memories, sedative highs
No happy ending like they've always promised
There's got to be something left for me
And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare [Lies behind my stare]

How many times must I live this tragedy
How many more lies will they tell me
All I want is the same as everyone
Why am I here, and for how long

And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare
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16. Freiheit Ouverture

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17. Convict

"Hooray for you convict, you're a free man!"

18. I'm American

I gotta have it,
Gotta drink the high life.
I'll buy a new suit, black skinny necktie.
I'll mingle with elite and imitate
And they'll never even get it 'til I hit 'em.

I've got no fear 'cause I've weathered the breakdown,
San Quentin to the edge of the Big Town.
I'm a man of the people,
In the home of the brave, and I'm no man's slave.

Because I'm free,
I deserve everything I can get.
I'm American.
I'm American.

If you voted for the man you're wasting time.
He's got his fingers dipped in everyone's pie.
The news can't wait to promote
All the bullshit this government is selling.

I've got this plan in motion, countdown.
Assassinate, terminate, smack down.
There's a war in my head and it needs to be said.
If they think they can take me they're dead.

Because I'm free,
I deserve everything I can get.
And I'll get everything I can get.
I'm American.
I'm American.

What do you believe in?
What are you living for?
Do you want what they're selling you,
Another television war?

I can't stop! I feel I gotta have more!
That's right, more!
I want more!
More!

Because I'm free,
I deserve everything I can get.
I'm American.
I'm American.

Because I'm free,
And I'll get everything I can get.
I'm American.
I'm American.

Are you free?
You deserve everything you can get.
I'm American.
I'm American.

Yeah I'm free,
I deserve everything I can get.
I'm American.
I'm American.

19. One Foot In Hell

Back streets... oh hell,
Back where I started from
There's not a thing... but you.
When they took you, when they took you from me and left you
Bleeding on that concrete floor.
One man's obsession is another man's trash,
And Mary was more than a whore.

And every day I breathe I remember more.
I've become something you wouldn't believe!

I've got this number burned in my brain,
A walking nightmare, only slightly insane.
They tried to take my fight, almost took my life.
They took my truth from me.
But when they left me, they didn't know me,
'cause I'm like a lion that's about to roar.
Mistakes you make, you take to your grave.
And now I'm gonna even the score.

And every day I live I remember more.
I ain't got nothing to sell,
But it's time to pay attention,

I'm back with one foot in hell.
I'm back.

There's nothing left but memories here
Of something that I didn't begin with.
You wanted to believe in something until the end.

Yeah I'm like a ghost back from the dead.
I need revenge. Gonna have his head.
I'm gonna finish this and X marks the spot.
I'm gonna find him give him all that I got.

And every day I breathe I remember more.
I ain't coming at you with something to sell,
But you better believe,

I'm back with one foot in hell.
I'm back.

20. Hostage

Culture hostage.
I'm writhing in the cold grasp of justice,
As she turns away.
Blind is she supposed to be but,
Someone took a razor to her mask.

Rusted now the scales you hold,
The balance tipped by the weight of gold.
When will it end?
When will it ever end?

The judgment man holds my fate,
As I beg forgiveness with the
Plastic smile of a candidate.

They take for granted that I'm out of my mind
And they're wasting their time to care.
So all my reasons are damned before they're heard.
I'm held hostage by their words.
What will lead us to tolerance
If we don't question our prejudice?

Courage is such a lonely word,
Patience, in time these truths will be known.
Please, don't keep looking away.
You see fortunes are on line, reputations at risk,
And there's fear in the hearts of all of you
That believe that you're right,
And that's your right.
But are you... right?

The judgment man holds my fate,
As I gaze around the room,
Their eyes are like knives, could decapitate.
They take for granted that I'm out of my mind
And I'm wasting their time, don't show, don't show me my fate.

Reasons are damned, can't understand.
If I fall to pieces they'll know...
He's out of his mind and he's wasting our time, we know.
As I sense my fate...
His reasons be damned, can't understand him.
... and now all my reasons are damned before they're heard.
I'm held hostage by their words.
I'm a hostage.

21. The Hands

When I'm lost... I find a way.
I hear voices. I feel them surround me,
Pull me from the edge.
I close my eyes and....

My luck keeps holding strong,
Even when the boot comes down.
Waiting for the revolution but there's no one around except the...
Hands out of nowhere, saving me again.
There's always something there watching out for me,
If I'm suffocating, it gives me air.

Finally now I remember,
But where I'm going now, I'm not sure.
Only one thing matters much to me anymore.

I'm looking for you.
Can you imagine? You can't think.
You won't find a way this time to frighten me.
You're running scared, now,
Always looking over your shoulder for a place
Where you don't see my face.

But my luck keeps holding so strong,
Even with the state I'm in.
I'm like a revolution of one, even when I stumble I win.

Because there's hands out of nowhere, saving me again.
There's always something there, watching out for me.
When I'm suffocating, it gives me air.

I'm like a cat with only a few lives left
And I'm crawling through the shadows.
Watching my back waiting for the attack that I know is coming...
I feel it's near.

22. Speed Of Light

Wonder where'd the time go?
There it was, gone in the blink of an eye.
See how much life is left staring back in my face?
But I know it now as clear as, clear as a window.

Never thought this day would come,
I never thought I'd see.
Half my life is gone.
Thought I'd never live to see...
Never thought this day would come...
I never thought I'd see half my life is gone
Thought I'd never live to be... much of anything.

Everything moves faster now.
We're living at the speed of light.
I stand here fascinated,
Watching as it all goes by.
Maybe I should live what's left... like it was my last.

Never thought this day would come...
I never thought I'd see half my life is gone.
I'd never live to see...
Never thought this day would come...
I never thought I'd see half my life is gone
I'd never live to be... much of anything.
Everything moves faster now.

Where are you now?
Feeling small.
Can't live without it?
You call this your best?
I made my life a mess.
And everyone but you sees it.
What a fool.
What are you gonna do,
Make more excuses?
"Don't worry,
I'll kill the bastard!"

23. Signs Say Go

Imagine if you will, what it means...
This worthless life.
Tried my best to the scratch the surface
Got bloody broken fingernails.

Convincing stories of achievement, lies.
All expectations smashed,
Never could comply.
Generations come and go.
And what will I be,
The failure they see here?

Now, I can't remember!
All the signs say go!
Would I surrender?
To try to save your soul?
I can't remember!
All the signs say go!
I'll never surrender!
Time for heads to roll!

Do you think I've got to have one good reason?
The question stands,
How does he keep getting into my head?

I know I'll never see.
I've got to get free.
No matter what's said,
I'd rather see him dead!

You might be wondering why...
I can't take any more?
I can't take any more.
I'll tear him down! I'm gonna tear him down!

I've been called so many things
Now what do you see?
A failure dares to dream?

Now, I can't remember!
All the signs say go!
Would I surrender?
To try to save your soul?
I can't remember!
All the signs say go!
I'll never surrender!
I can't remember!
All the signs say go!
Would I surrender?
To try to save your soul?
I can't remember!
All the signs say... go!

Convince me, mesmerize me
Feed me more lies.
I'll get stronger!
How do you get him out, out of your head?
I know I'll never see.
I've got to get free.
No matter what's said,
I swear I'll see him dead!

I can't remember!
All the signs say go!
Would I surrender?
To try to save your soul?
I can't remember!
All the signs say go!
I'll never surrender!
It's time for heads to roll!

I can't remember!
All the signs say go!
Would I surrender?
To try to save your soul?
I can't remember!
All the signs say... go!

24. Re-Arrange You

Last time, missed my chance but never again.
The further away you slip, the more I'll dig in.
All things come around again
And this time I'll be ready and waiting.
You can't imagine dedication that I now possess.

There's no one left to save you.
Where you run I will follow.
I'll step by step re-arrange you.
There's nowhere to hide.

You'll never see me coming but
You'll feel the fear from my shadow.
With intensity, yeah, you'll bleed.
Before it's over you'll age ten years older.
Time flows like a river... deep.
I'm going to take you down.

There's no one left to save you.
Where you run I will follow.
I'll step by step re-arrange you.
There's nowhere to hide.

They say let the world change you
And you can change the world.
They'll bit by bit re-arrange you.
I can't change the world.

It's taken me years to get to this place.
I found you hiding inside a persona
You built from my pain.
Fortune has finally come and
Vengeance is mine I've won.
I'll take the world now by storm.

Do I let the world change me?
Do I lead or follow?
They'll step by step re-arrange me.
Let them all try!

If I let the world change me,
Step by step re-arrange me.
If I focus on tomorrow,
Maybe I could change the world!

25. The Chase

You think you're smart, inventive
Because you've figured out my game?
Pride is a handy substitute,
When you've got only yourself to blame.
All my dreams I've realized while you... were indisposed.
While you've spent eighteen years watching TV,
I've watched my fortune grow.

Here I am-I'm finally on the outside and
You're nowhere near where I've been!
I've got you where I want you... at last.
You've got no idea who I am!
We circle around each other waiting for reaction
We circle around each other waiting for reaction
Wanting satisfaction for the past.
I want nothing... from the past.

Always been so easy you're like a puppet on my string,
Throwing down hollow threats, unsure of what to think.
Why should I care?
You wouldn't dare!
You're nothing but worthless... I swear.

From where I stand I've got you where I want you.
You'll never take me! Never take me down!
I've seen all I need to put you in the ground
Revenge is normal, a typical reaction
I've seen your cynical reaction...
If you're standing outside of in.
Always on the outside of in.

Here we are at last facing oblivion...
And this is where finally it ends.
You don't belong here.
Holding fast to each of our sins.
With hope by my side, I'll survive to see the dawn.
Believe me or not... you owe me.
I owe you nothing!
I gave your life a purpose!
I owe you nothing but your death!
Without me you would have learned nothing!

26. Murderer?

Lost my faith in humanity
And I don't trust in society
I'm numb, cold, ready.

No one else dies today...

What did you do?
I don't remember...
Murderer!
They say I'm a murderer!

God must be dead because I'm still free.
No religion holds me... am I the killer?

No one else dies today...

What did you do?
I'm the revenger,
Murderer!
No! I'm the revenger!
Murderer!
No I'm the... black hand of death!

Sixty-five hundred days...
I'm feeling good for the first time in years.
Your miserable life is in my hands.
What would you do?

Kill him!

Does this signal an ending or another dream just beginning?
Are his actions worth forgiving?
No more pain! Revenge!

Haven't you enough?
The dog is on his knees!

Does this signal an ending or another dream just beginning?
Is revenge worth any price?
Tell me what's right?

He wants more life!

NO!
You want more life?
NO!
Is this my victory?
Murderer!
Am I?

Stay down on your knees
And explain it to me one more time.
What gives you the right?
You took away my life...
And left me with nothing, nothing.

This is like what I dreamed...
It seems like a good day to die.

And so it ends. And now what?

27. Circles

I walk around in circles, up all night.
I wish there was something in my life that turned out right.
I'm waiting here for reasons that used to be clear.
What I thought I needed so bad was always here...

28. If I Could Change It All

She said, "Baby, where you been?
Why'd you have to leave me?
I'm on the other side... just looking in."
I've been so high; I climbed to the mountaintop,
Looked at myself and...

I'd tell you anything you want to hear.
And I'd desert you when I'm through.
I'd say anything because true love
Don't mean a thing to a man who's not a man, but a fool.

Look at me!
You're a model of efficiency.
I'm always doing what he tells me.
How can you change it now?

I'm always looking for it down deep inside,
I thought that this would change my life.
Have you found out?
I remember more...
Can you change?
I can change.

For years he must have cried a river of tears.
In his dreams he saw himself...
A dying man drawing figures, arrows in the sand.
Mmm, I don't think he understands.
Never thought that it would last forever.
One glance back... there's nothing much to say.
He watched as it all began spinning further and further from the truth.

And nothing really matters, when your heart doesn't lead the way.

29. An Intentional Confrontation

Where are you now?
Feeling small.
Can't live without it?
You call this your best?
I made my life a mess.
And everyone but you sees it.
What a fool.
What are you gonna do,
Make more excuses?
Why don't you tie it off?
Hang myself?
End your pathetic little life!

What is your life worth now?
Is this what you pictured for yourself?

Do you understand anything?

You're not there yet.
You're not anywhere yet.
Am I closer?
Go back to your mountain.

30. A Junkie's Blues

I still have questions with no answers.
I'm alive... but I'm not living.
I don't have much time left... I just know this:
I've lived a violent life.
I might as well be dead.

I just want to sleep forever and forget...

It's more than physical, love unconditional.
Everything else is like a Band-Aid.
Everything will be allright.

So you cover your bleeding wounds,
So the dogs won't smell you coming.
There may be time... and
... everything will work out fine.

But what if it never changes?
And what if I wasn't to blame?
And what if it never gets any better... than this?
Everything will be allright.

What if I wasn't to blame?
And what if I could change?
Yeah, what if I could change?
Everything will work out fine.

What if you're only...?

What if I'm only insane?

31. Fear City Slide

I feel like I'm rising,
As everything falls away.
I feel old like the cold wind
Blowing outside today.

Got my finger on the trigger and no one cares.
When they find me face down in the river
Will they just leave me there?

Hang on, don't let go!
Just hang on! Don't let go!

Come on, come on
Gotta take a ride,
Fear City slide.
Last chance @ suicide.

Come on, come on
Leave your head outside,
You've built a lie.
Last chance @ suicide.

Come on, come on
Let's take a ride!
Last chance @ suicide.

Will anyone remember?
Will they learn from my mistakes?
Sometimes it takes a lifetime of pain to change.

I'm closing on the edge here and you've heard it all before...
But what good did any of my life bring?
What was it really for?

Hang on don't let go!
Just hang on and don't let go!

Come on, come on
Gotta take a ride,
Fear City slide.
Last chance @ suicide.

Come on, come on
Leave your head outside,
You've lived a lie.
Last chance @ suicide.

Come on, come on
Let's take a ride!
Last chance @ suicide.

Take me to the top of the sky... and
Let me look down...
The long mile down.
When will the darkness end?

Hang on, don't let go!
Just hang on and don't let go!

Come on, come on
Gotta take a ride,
Fear City slide.
Last chance @ suicide.

Come on, come on
Leave your head outside,
You've lived a lie.
Last chance @ suicide.

Come on, come on
Let's take a ride!
Last chance @ suicide.

32. All The Promises

Is there some other way out of here?
Somewhere I could find myself?
Can't sleep enough, can't stay high.
All the promises... just another lie.

I've always been afraid except...
In the moments that I loved you.
The only time I felt strong
Was when you stood next to me.
I could make a stand if...
I could hold your hand again...

The road I've traveled is the hard way down,
Always playing another man's fool.
They offered a way inside
With the promise of forgiveness. It's a lie.
Could you forgive what I've done?

We had it all, but couldn't see anything.
The blind leading the blind
Through the darkest night.

When you said you loved me
It made me feel alive.
When you said you loved me it made me feel...
Like I could fly.

I've always lived afraid except...
In the moments that I loved you.
The only time I felt strong was when you stood next to me.
I could make a stand if...
I could hold your hand again.

We had it all, but couldn't see anything.
The blind leading the blind
Through the darkest of nights.
When you said you loved me it made me feel alive.

When you said you loved me
It made me feel... like I could fly.

I've always been afraid except in the moments that I loved you.

33. Walk In The Shadows

What? You say you're through with me
I'm not through with you
We've had what others might call love
You say it's over now,
What's done, what's through?
You can't stay away, you need me
I need you

When the fire starts the pain's too much
For your mind
You need attention, what's good is only mine
I can cure the hunger that burns in your heart
Just come to me
I'll take you home
We'll walk in the shadows
By day we'll live in a dream
We'll walk in the shadows

You say you don't feel safe alone tonight
Cause you feel the pressure building in your head
Our secret's safe for one more night
But when the morning comes remember
I'll be with you

We'll walk in the shadows
By day we'll live in a dream
We'll walk in the shadows
One day you'll be with me

34. Jet City Woman

Every time I leave
You say you won't be there.
And you're always there.
Every time I cry your name at night,
you pull close and say it's alright.
I look in your eyes, just like the rain.
Washing me, rain wash over me.
Touching your face, I feel the heat
of your heartbeat echo in my head like a scream.
What you do to me!
Waited so long I can't wait another day without you.

Jet City Woman.
It's a long way, home to my
Jet City Woman.
I see her face everywhere, can't get her out of my mind.

Whenever I'm alone I'm thinking,
there's a part missing from my life.
Wonder where I'd be without your love
holding me together now I'm
watching the time tick, tick away.
Face grows longer every day.
Fortunes are lost on the women I've seen
but without you I can't breathe!
You're the air to me!
Waited so long, I'm all alone thinking about you.

Jet City Woman.
Got to find my way home to her.
Jet City Woman.
I see her face everywhere I look!
Jet City Woman.
Just a thousand miles and I'll be there
Jet City Woman, to make the clouds go away.
Time for some blue sky!

Waited so long now the plane's delayed
and hour, reminds me of all our days apart.
Hold on, just a little longer.

Jet City Woman.
Wonder where I'd be, you're the air to me.
Jet City Woman.
Eyes like the rain, rain down on me.
Jet City Woman.
No more nights alone I'm almost home now.
Jet City Woman.
Close my eyes, I'm there in my Jet City.