1. Edmund, A Butler's Tale

Indulging in acts of perversity
Perseverance
A trademark of the mind
Persistant
Surfacing the inside rot
An access to the morbid scars

Pernicious effect of negligence
Escalates in intimidations
Causing a person to introvert
Intrusion equals the impossible

Seemingly aware
Where his sanity went
Unable to control
He has suffered, he resent
Surpressing the conscience
To a certain extent
Exploiting the powers
He feels heaven sent

Unexpected exposure to the public eye
Recieving attention composed by the deeds
Of a mind now with meagre resource
Yet still seems bright and comprehensive

Fear of reprise – it's not to forsee
Numerous aspects to conclude upon
Solution seem an impossibility
Conditions fatal, there's enough to be done

The patterns scream with abnormity
Blame can be put on humanity
Selfish, ignorant inhuman bastards
Egos soaring up there in the wind
No time to care for weaker souls
Stranded with emotions, the time is nigh

Pernicious effect of negligence
Escalates in intimidations
Causing a person to introvert
Intrusion equals the impossible

Seemingly aware
Where his sanity went
Unable to control
He has suffered, he resent
Surpressing the conscience
To a certain extent
Exploiting the powers
He feels heaven sent

2. I Fall In Temptation

I lie dormant, overrun with fear
Unreal fate, discouraging me
Life's comsumed as I lie here in gloom
Retarded existences surrounds my doom
Sinful desire, please set me free
Watching my body mould, it's brutal don't you see
Exhume the impediments restraining me
Look in my eyes, it's all I plea

Trapped inside these walls
Tranquilized I await your call
Sickness builds here in this cell
Help me as I forever fall
Emotions never to be discharged
Accumulate in this sick suspension
Desperate urge for confidence
Never stimulated I fall in temptation

Can't move in this disgustingly contorted shell
Fed by saturated hands
Around my neck they'd fit as well
Hearing, understanding your ever so pityful curse
If this is life I don't believe that death can hurt

I cry, but I can't shed a tear
I'm alone, retardation, oh I fear
Paralyzed, in this sickness infested shelf
I fall in temptation

This disgusting life is restraining me
Filled with impediments, it's cruel don't you see
Famish my soul behind latticed glass
This life is simply obscene, alas
Enslaved to the excess of the human ways
Crouching corpse, I hunger for days
I'm tortured here in privacy
Behind this fence my sight meets agony

These spilling thoughts are slowly twisting my soul
My supreme fear, will my sanity mould?
In darkness, speech has left my tongue
Can't free myself, tell you that you are wrong

I cry, but I can't shed a tear
I'm alone, retardation, oh I fear
Paralyzed, in this sickness infested shelf
I fall in temptation

I have been on a journey beyond this fence
Though I suffered defeat
Your eyes told more than I had dared to believe

I cry, but I can't shed a tear
I'm alone, retardation, oh I fear
Paralyzed, in this sickness infested shelf
Silence, this life is nothing but hell

This repulsive destination seems so helplessly absurd
Trapped inside obliterating reality
My soul I slowly put to sleep
My thoughts emerge from my feebling mind soon obscured
Can't break these chains, sense the sacred breed

I have seen the ones, drawn into the horrifying bedlam
Heard their cries when coldness spread upon their skin
Strapped down and torture struck, got no chance of relief
Water soaked, their skin macerated, flesh emaciated
Through agony spent

3. Contents Of Logical Disbelief

Conditions causing self projection
Your health
Might have been a weak constitution
Hesitation
Standing at the threshold of death

As you sleep
Blinding vibrations paralyse
Awake
As you see again – amazed
Horisontally floating above yourself

The feeling of vitality
Not to be felt in your real body
The astral you now seems to be real
Your physical body is nothing but a shell

The projection of your astral body
An eerie vision
Thoughts buries logic
Steep the barriers of your psyche
Dealing with comprehension
Blinded, yet attracted
To the light in which you bathe

The feeling of vitality
Not to be felt in your real body
The astral you now seems to be real
Your physical body is nothing but a shell

Frustrating feeling, your limbs won't obey
But as your spiritual body glides away
Control of your limbs is regained
A string of silver connecting the physical you

Discover frightening abilities
The oh so narrow limits
Of the physical world you see
Are no longer relevant

The feeling of vitality
Not to be felt in your real body
The astral you now seems to be real
Your physical body is nothing but a shell

4. Distitute Of Compassion

I feel innocent, withdrawn in fear
Ignore my denial, you never were my dear
Disconnecting emotions
Looking for the eye watching me
Days of laughter now depressed
Pityful creature is what you'll ever be

Void of darkness, feel you're watching me
Destitute of compassion, hell you're annoying me

You're the watching eye, entangled in insanity
My emotions, I admit, were never attracted to thee
But in your world of fantasy, never seemed to see
I feel haunted, it's all over, don't you see

Neglecting my acts of ignoration
To you I only feel destitutre of compassion
Assaulting me with your perfidious demagogy
You're twisted in the ways of insanity
Hell, don't you see I've had it with your sickening approach
To your self humiliation I can only feel loathe
Retarded in the ways of your own insanity
Destitute of compassion, you have to face reality

Now I know, you must be suffering a psychological trauma
But still I can't take your nearness
Forget myself and let you win
You deny to face reality
Feeding on the past in your own fantasy
Incarcerated in your mind memories so sick
Tell me are you blind?

Escaping into the void of darkness
Paranoid? Oh, yes I fear
I've had it with your physical assaults
So don't you ever come near

Trapped in your own world so sick
Your behaviour indeed I loathe
The perversion of your mind, ending spiritual growth

Retarded in your sinful desire, just leave me alone
I once was tempted, though why should I rupture my life
To grant you immortality, as you're sick indeed
So stick to my acts of ignoration, please stop following me

Void of darkness, feel you're watching me
Destitute of compassion, hell you're annoying me

Neglecting my acts of ignoration
To you I only feel destitutre of compassion
Assaulting me with your perfidious demagogy
You're twisted in the ways of insanity
Hell, don't you see I've had it with your sickening approach
To your self humiliation I can only feel loathe
Retarded in the ways of your own insanity
Destitute of compassion, you have to face reality

I feel innocent, withdrawn in fear
Ignore my denial, you never were my dear
Disconnecting emotions
Looking for the eye watching me
Days of laughter now depressed
Pityful creature is what you'll ever be

5. Acknowledged By Life

The norm is here for ever to be
Classification on through the life
Acceptance rely often on conformity
One or the other, how skilled can I be?

The need for skill and diversity
A picture drawn obscuring my mind
Tranquilization, I need to survive
A quest for sanity is what it's become

It's a huge decision
What am I going to do with my life

Searching an educational way
Twisting my mind for illumination
Desperate to become a newfound sensation
Now this is life, huh?

Nothing's supposed to matter
Except social acknowledgement
Will become my reward
According to my priority
Immence pressure on my intellect

It's a huge decision
What am I going to do with my life

Surrounded by talk supposed as influence
You think you see all the values in life
If blinded by the prospects shown to me
Disappointment could be brought unto others

Self confidence more needed than ever
Parental advice to choose the right path
Determined not to be led astray
I've found my way?

6. Thus I Cry

Contrarities absorbing my mind
Tempting is the darkness I see
Consuming the thoughts I once beheld
Desperate fear of the yet unknown

Walk deep in my mind, where I try to escape
You'll hear desperate cries of my soul tempting obscurity
Blinded I feel by all the things my eyes have seen
Watched – I'm being towards this absurd rising domain

Drained down towards the horror of my life
Try to break free, but my cries are all that remains

Why was I born into this frigid regime
Did I have to sleep to hear my cries take form
A nightmare I will see take form
Entwined I'm being in this overreaching insanity

Chocking on all I'm so used at seeing
Death a figur growing in my being
Immortality set me free, oh I hate to see
Awake me from this nightmare endlessly

Yes, what I fear is my own corporal frigidity
Delusions of the world draining what is called sanity
Have to break free before I'm trapped in this flesh
Oh, can't you see I'm being tortured with regret

Cold and primitive insanity remains
Innocense cauterized dripping down in stains
Have to find a substitute to safety and warmth
The one I've known since I was born

Primitive steps towards an adolescent death are made
Constadicting what I've learned
Reality is my never ending fate
Drawn down into the dungeons of hate
Don't try to stop me, it is too late
I have no more dreams to feed
They are all here in my wretched fantasy

Thus I cry – I'm withered away in this world
The dust that burns, my mind lost its conscious state
Thus I die – no hands tried to take my fate

Now living on the high waves of this lethal drug is all I lust
Reality has become a hymn that I forgot
Buried in this concrete jungle
Throughts of the summer that now is lost
I suffer convulsions if death not I ray
Come forth my dying day

Chocking on all I'm so used at seeing
Death a figur growing in my being
Immortality set me free, oh I hate to see
Awake me from this nightmare endlessly

Thus I cry – I'm withered away in this world
The dust that burns, my mind lost its conscious state
Thus I die – no hands tried to take my fate

Thus I enhance this distortion of my visionary world
I remain in frigid hands, distrust the world I've lost
Explore death as I inject the pump and shoot
Trickling feeling eludes I'm desperately lost as I remain

7. Conducted Strain

Hostility is what you meet
Mean no harm, you're on the flee
Anger lurking everywhere
As despair emerges, longing for relief

An evil circle it is
Latent grasp of termination
Holding the relic of
What used to be

Escape finally succeeded
Confidence overflow
Eventhough, eventhough
Scars in eternity will glow

Here you are
A glimpse of hope
Memories go back
Despair

Immediate housing was granted
Anger sizzling outside
Fear haunts, you're stranded
Never seems to cease

Opposed fanatics chases
Innocent trapped between two poles
Opposed fanatics chases
Innocent trapped between two poles

Feelings. Suffering immence strain
They feel supperior on their own terrain
Final words from a mind
Collapsed

Hostility is what you meet
Mean no harm, you're on the flee
Anger lurking everywhere
As despair emerges, longing for relief