1. My Eyes
nous on broken wings
blown away
blends in other thougths to
evergrey
grows an enforced frown
in teardrops while
i forgot
the language to survive
my eyes
are duller and strained than before
no delight, in my eyes
all i tried
like flowing sand in my hand
unrecognized by my withered eyes
hopes in blisters cause
a cold embrace
and blench in front of my
invalid haze
in tears i'm bearing
my disguise
the sea of craving
lies so quiet
2. Harvest
Finally you've done the endless thoughts
Believe that every step is guiding homewards
But all of your endeavours have become
to an worthless word
unsaid for long
And you creep and crawl
on your barren soil
You've been caught
In your own sowed spore
And so deep you are
At your dreary shores
there is nothing to glean
In a lonesome dream
Now you're standing right upright ashore
proud of your work you have done
before blinded by the irony you swore
To an worthless word
unsaid for long
3. Kerosene
the guess the knowing
the paleness and the glance
let shades so soundless
surround our innocence
and we know...
the gloom the brightness
beyond of the within
and greedy seeks the serpent
for truth in every sin
and we know that we both lost
and we know...
i'm your ruin
and you're my ruiness
but don't be scared let's do the wrong
i'm kerosene
and you're the raging blaze
so let it happen lead me on
the plus and minus
the going and return
it does not matter
that antimatter hurts
4. The Vitriol
countless times in a row
grow thorns in envy
cold will hate steady grow
admiration and scorn
and solemnly you wear
bruises. careful adorned
but brave I carry on
i never will belong
i'm on the run
i strike me on
and strike me on
your feigned embellished jaw
i'm on the run
i strike me on
and strike me on
till nearly cessation
endure the vitriol
fairy tales someone wrote
once about me
no one has ever told
disturbed in my devout
cherished reveries
by your incessant fraud
5. Nothingness
roam on my sentiment circles
like a lion in his cage
untamed – betrayed
of my delusion in mirrors
in vigilance still – i'm keeping my
eyes closed
i'm....
jailed in the walls
of my gloomy pressures
loose my confidence
in my own
existence
and can't get me out
and million doubts
in unwritten letters
perish all the hopes
to escape
the tighten rope
now i sense narrowness growing
under my apathy veil – choking my
weeping
slowly
and all of my frantic endeavours
always just flowing into
nothingness
6. My Tenebrous Illusion
In the middle of the ocean's roads
drifts a bottle to find a way home
but couldn't find the way
alone
careful filled with everything
once i threw within the raging sea
what i've lost before
in me
cleave
the ocean's might
carry the freight
to bright my life
in seclusion
leave
in oceans tide
a feigned cold smile
to bright my tenebrous
illusion
and my cradle of emotions locked
with any bottle i've thrown on any shores
but never noticed by
someone
and the precious freight within
on eternal journey will remain
what i never can't
regain
just up and down
in raging oceans
whirling around
never run aground
and carry all
my deep devotions
can't hear their call
in oceans growl
7. Unspoken
You followed me too far
and now is every remedy
unable
to find your avatar
in eversleeping realm of fame
forsaken
I can't regain
what is lost and sadly broken
I can't regain
What is lost in my own sin
I can't regain
what is left for long unspoken
awoken
unspoken
revealed
You gathered all the scars
In your small "believe in" jar
so careless
and aiming for the stars
greedy for an unsaid verse
the chosen
8. In Every Sin
is always that what's always been
just any truth and always
a noble kind of salvation
just always
been one for just a second
when twilightness will fade
just threefold we have met before
four eyes were full of blaze
when five's the venus sign
and sex what i won't say
could seven be so audacious
watch out dont be afraid
In every sin
is always that what's always been
just any truth and always
a noble kind of salvation
just always
the one and only reason
two hearts of evidence
the trinity – blind deaf and quiet
for everlasting glance
when five's the venus sign
and sex what i won't say
could seven be so audacious
watch out dont be afraid
9. Riders
anything we said
in frantic rage before you left our bed
had better been unsaid
the era of our bond
were carried by our ignorance for long
so sad to behold
lonesome ride on
frozen time to
find a way
that we could start again
to find the same
and anything we swore
were fragile lies when we had closed the door to fool ourself again
and all what has remained
is just the insight of our yesteryear
so sad inane
10. Aphelia
when the curse that i conjured up
has begun
it will hurt, i've omitted to
try to ban
and if solely some hurts try to
guide me on
i will bear and don't change the course
till it's gone
and sorry, father
a helpless son
want to yearn, want to run
and sorry, mother
i carry on
to the back of beyond
and so we cover
up the sun
want to be where it begun
so we don't bother
who comes along...
what we miss on the run
in a world where we live in pride
a quiet shout
where it hurts, we've omitted to
cry it out
and my soul just keeps clinging on
to my mind
i can't bear this course leading from
time to time
it seems so far... Aphelia...