1. The Close Beyond

Left to devices
All of my own innovation
To the screaming end
Of what has always been
Whenever the dying is calling
I will go
To last reasons jagged edge

Now I know for what I am
Is wrong again

Out by the ledge
Out of reach
Further now to
A close beyond

Why are we trying to live
When all we know
Is just how to die

Left to abide defeat
In the long gone past
Not knowing this might be
What will tip the scales
Still nothing will fail me
As I am going through
The line simply
Must be crossed

Now I know for what I am
Is wrong again

I hear the dark
Smell the fear
Nil at hand
But a close beyond

I never brought anybody
To where our faith is gone
I am the last unrepentence
Bringing down the hail
Of storm and fire
Now for once I am on my own
Must make a final decision
Against this driving force
Or else I will find it
All in vain
I never asked to be challenged
The pain I bear is mine
And mine alone

Now I know for what I am
Is wrong again

Why are we trying to live
When all we know
Is just how to die

Why are we trying to live
When all we know
Is just how to die

2. Gravitational Lensing

Into what goes on forever
Beyond perspectives lost
Kaleidoscope vision
Introspective display
What hides in plain sight

Force it into my head
Now is the only time
Hiding behind a lie
All I know

I cast the fire

Inside these hours
All alone
For I am in denial
Though never again will I
Direct my shields
Against another
But turn it on myself

Come back
To something I need
Come back to misery
Living the misdirection
All I know
The further off center
My lies become

Force it into my head
Now is the only time
Hiding behind a lie
All I know

I cast the fire

No sight – unseen
No light – in between
Gravitational lensing
What they see
Is bent around my lies

Around this black hole
I have found myself again
Brought out the answers
For my seeing eyes only
Travelling in circles
I have found myself again
No way to face it straight
Inside the lonely

Here in the night of nights
Where nothing shines
I brought the flame down
On it all – unforgiving
In time the flame will die
The only hope I have to find
To never deny, never regret
The masquerade is over

As long as I cast the fire

3. Through Night-Kingdomed Gates

Forever dreaming
Way down
In the blindsighted night
For I just try to avoid
Giving out inside (inside)

Only way out, now
Through
Night-kingdomed gates, go

Whoever is the closest
The end
Of this journey within
Can see the future and all
That it holds for me

Go, find what is veiled
Behind
The night-kingdomed gates

Time and again
I find myself forgiven
By uncharted forces
Out of reach
And now I know that
Everything
Must end to start
The healing
To resume with hands
No longer chained

I am he debtor
For all savings graces
Of time
The means
Excused by the acts
That we keep concealed

Only way out, now
Through
Night-kingdomed gates, go

I have never been here
The outskirts
Of sanity's halls
As far as it will go
And as long as it takes

Go, find what is veiled
Behind
The night-kingdomed gates

Time and again
I find myself forgiven
By uncharted forces
Out of reach
And now I know that
Everything
Must end to start
The healing
To resume with hands
No longer chained

I am the one
That has to try and reason
There are no boundaries
And nothing to forgive
Once through this gateway
There is no reversion
What now remains is that
With which I cannot deal

Time and again
I find myself forgiven
By uncharted forces
Out of reach
And now I know that
Everything
Must end to start
The healing
To resume with hands
No longer chained

Set ahead

4. For Aeons Past

We cannot sleep forever
Nor can our dreams awake
Mindless our souls are taken
Another future forged
From a dying past

Darkness it feeds me
In this eternal dream
Just barely breathing
Found inside
Of the endless mizmaze
Forever kept in
A never dying shade
Through failing daylight
Saw the dying
Of hope and faith

Not again
Get away
I want to hear it
What I know
Cannot be seen alive
I will never find a way
To make you
Take it back again
What has been
What will be
Another turning
Of the truth
You will find
On your own
In time you will see
Where you have been
For aeons past

Been for aeons past

I am not needed
But for a darkness past
A vision bleeding
Into worlds
At the end of all time
Forever secret
A never spoken line
In fevered slumber
Aeons pass again and again

Not again
Get away
I want to hear it
What I know
Cannot be seen alive
I will never find a way
To make you
Take it back again
What has been
What will be
Another turning
Of the truth
You will find
On your own
In time you will see
Where you have been
For aeons past

Will time ever see me
Knowing all along
What I found in a dream
Gone astray
Will it be there waiting
When I am alone
And the aeons collide
As we go down

We cannot sleep forever
Nor can our dreams awake
Mindless our souls are taken
Another future forged
From a dying past

Not again
Get away
I want to hear it
What I know
Cannot be seen alive
I will never find a way
To make you
Take it back again
What has been
What will be
Another turning
Of the truth
You will find
On your own
In time you will see
Where you have been
For aeons past

Not again
Get away
I want to hear it
What I know
Cannot be seen alive
I will never find a way
To make you
Take it back again
What has been
What will be
Another turning
Of the truth
You will find
On your own
In time you will see
Where you have been
For aeons past

Been for aeons past

5. Lethean Tears

As time goes by
All eventually
Comes full circle
Just turning end for end
Where benightedness
Tip the scales
And once the fire
Has been lit
The mind's eye closes anew
Through endless ages
Ever lapsing into old ways

A denied tomorrow
Calling on yesterday
Headway in reverse
Only shadows reach
The light of day

Another sun
Now sets within
On the torn apart
Not to be found
Again therein
Bleeding fry the heart
Once more a dawn
Now wearing thin
Broken work of art
A can of worm
Incisive burns
Of the dark

Whatever comes now
Nothing but a
Reflection bygone
Restored continuum
And the tide
is on the turn

A denied tomorrow
Calling on yesterday
Headway in reverse
Only shadows reach
The light of day

Another sun
Now sets within
On the torn apart
Not to be found
Again therein
Bleeding fry the heart
Once more a dawn
Now wearing thin
Broken work of art
A can of worm
Incisive burns
Of the dark

Ruins
Laid in without cause
Sourceless call
For silence
Self-supporting fear
unaware abidance
Firm like ropes of sand
Past that go for nothing
Come leathen tears

Another sun
Now sets within
On the torn apart
Not to be found
Again therein
Bleeding fry the heart
Once more a dawn
Now wearing thin
Broken work of art
A can of worm
Incisive burns
Of the dark

Another sun
Now sets within
On the torn apart
Not to be found
Again therein
Bleeding fry the heart
Once more a dawn
Now wearing thin
Broken work of art
A can of worm
Incisive burns
Of the dark

6. Bladed Vaults

Never again to be the fool
Now I know that all
Is going away
Wait and daylight is done
We are terminal

Will the time of my life
Be one out of time
So seal me off from time
Our final night
Within vaults
That I have been dreaming of
Forever where life is denied

Never again am I to blame
Barred from prying eyes
And coming dismay
Wait and my time is gone
In back of the blades.

Will the time of my life
Be one out of time
So seal me off from time
Our final night
Within vaults
That I have been dreaming of
Forever where life is denied

I cannot even falter
In the safety of
What this shallow life
Has forced me into

I chose confinement
Inside the bladed vaults
The day will not come
When our punishment is over
I am taken part
Torn asunder

Will the time of my life
Be one out of time
So seal me off from time
Our final night
Within vaults
That I have been dreaming of
Forever where life is denied

Will the time of my life
Be one out of time
So seal me off from time
Our final night
Within vaults
That I have been dreaming of
Forever where life is denied

One night
I found what was missing
The thread that attaches
Us all together
Without us knowing
Our nexus
By this we stand parted
We challenge
What we do not know
These mindless masses
Will now take us
For a journey

Nowhere fast to the end
Let nothing lasting remain
Ripping the wires,
From failing structures
And build my self again

One night
I found what was missing
The thread that attaches
Us all together
Without us knowing
Our nexus

I have never been
Alive like this
The strings attached
I will make my own
I have never been
Alive like this
Behold my legacy
I have built a wirethrone
My wirethrone

My wirethrone

One too many times
I have failed to answer
To your questions why

Here on my throne of scorn
Concealed walls cannot hide
I have torn out,
All that supports me
To never be whole again

The more I am straining,
The less I attain
What has been built,
All in vain
The more I am gaining,
The less I sustain
Another wellspring to drain

My wirethrone

The more I am straining,
The less I attain
What has been built,
All in vain
The more I am gaining,
The less I sustain
Another wellspring to drain

7. Wirethrone

One night
I found what was missing
The thread that attaches
Us all together
Without us knowing
Our nexus
By this we stand parted
We challenge
What we do not know
These mindless masses
Will now take us
For a journey

Nowhere fast to the end
Let nothing lasting remain
Ripping the wires,
From failing structures
And build my self again

One night
I found what was missing
The thread that attaches
Us all together
Without us knowing
Our nexus

I have never been
Alive like this
The strings attached
I will make my own
I have never been
Alive like this
Behold my legacy
I have built a wirethrone
My wirethrone

My wirethrone

One too many times
I have failed to answer
To your questions why

Here on my throne of scorn
Concealed walls cannot hide
I have torn out,
All that supports me
To never be whole again

The more I am straining,
The less I attain
What has been built,
All in vain
The more I am gaining,
The less I sustain
Another wellspring to drain

My wirethrone

The more I am straining,
The less I attain
What has been built,
All in vain
The more I am gaining,
The less I sustain
Another wellspring to drain

8. On Embered Fields Adust

I am the one
That hides in flame and fire
Who takes you under
And brings you in

When the silence is all
No day before night
The burning plains
Are my light and my home

Striking down
The unfortunate ones
Black days forever
Leaving behind
Everything in sight
Cannot take me

What no man has seen
Awaits me far down below
On emered fields
Embered fields adust
Now I know what time is life
Forevermore gone
Is this the end?

When the silence is all
No day before night
The burning plains
Are my light and my home
They say never again
Decision is mine
No longer hiding
In darkness alone

Force it to stand
Unending down
Black days forever
Now upon me to
Turn the tide

What no man has seen
Awaits me far down below
On emered fields
Embered fields adust
Now I know what time is life
Forevermore gone
Is this the end?

What no man has seen
Awaits me far down below
On emered fields
Embered fields adust
Now I know what time is life
Forevermore gone
Is this the end?

9. Into Shadow

You have given desire a name
These tremors I have felt
Are the remnants of dying
Whenever you are gone
From our days
I am alone
All that we had will now end

I know I am not to blame
I know you do not feel the same
Whatever I did
Wont you please forgive me

You brought down
The heavens again
Set stage for my pain
Tragedy and disaster
And suddenly gone on your way
So alone
All that we were is now lost

I know I am not to blame
I know you do not feel the same
Whatever I did
Wont you please forgive me

Never again
Cannot take the pain
We were once
Now we are nothing
I am half alive
Gone into shadow

I know I am not to blame
I know you do not feel the same
Whatever I did
Wont you please forgive me

Why wont you please forgive me!

10. Clandestinity Now

Walk away from the nightmare
Total eclipse of the mind
Eyes that have always been blind
Replaced by a different kind

What has been all around
Gone through my time
Forever dreaming in red
Said the sane to the blind
Stay far away
Forever or bygone

Why I cannot
Forsee this end of me
Now befallen my lost kind

What I have found
Is what defines me
Push the past away
Down here alone
Not to return
here I will be
Holding on to something
Turn away from all
A life now concealed for me

What has been all around
Gone through my time
Forever dreaming in red
Said the sane to the blind
Stay far away
Forever or bygone

What I have found
Is what defines me
Push the past away
Down here alone
Not to return
here I will be
Holding on to something
Turn away from all
A life now concealed for me

Awake in the dark of my hiding
Far from the world
Where the lies cannot reach
And the hours pretend

Not let into what is mine
Never share what I have found
From the world I am gone

Ways of the dark now trespass
Coming to claim what is mine
Eyes deceive believers
Upset indifferent minds

Misgive in our light of day
Perceived in darkness
All that I see now
Pitch black
Future obscure
This has to be

Am I now
What is to come of misery
I have yet to see how
All our thoughts
Are weakened by
This dying world
Selfchosen ending
Come to pass on this last
Day of reckoning
Greet the end of reason
Cannot face the strength
Of the ones gone to faith
To shield forever

No more
Will be of what we were
And will we ever be coherent
All for this only to remain
Not faced with
The ultimate standoff
When I am waking up alone
The wall
Is still wrapped around me
No one witnessing
My own passing away

Home is hell to me now
Here is salvation
Fall from the heights
Of safety
To the darkest of depths

What I have found
Is what defines me
Push the past away
Down here alone
Not to return
here I will be
Holding on to something
Turn away from all
A life now concealed for me

Mistreated by life again
Deceived by darkness
All that I see now
Pitch black
Fear is in me
This cannot be

No more
Will be of what we were
And will we ever be coherent
All for this only to remain
Not faced with
The ultimate standoff

Nothing more
Will come from the union
Of reason and faith undying
Lost now
In the mazelike passageway
of argument and false claims

Rage now to the sound of
Total resistance of life
Eyes so blind forever
Drawn from the innocent mind

Leave it all behind

So lost in time
Forever and always
Remember the way it was
Seemed to last
In fear of the now
In fear of tomorrow
And all that has yet to pass
Out of our reach
We are going nowhere
Faster than ever
And there is no way
We will be last

A level further down
Deep below
Begin on a journey alone
The way I want to see
It all end
Something never to be shown

Told through the dreaming
Time and again
In our dying
Speaking now to the end

We favoured the laws
Of insanity's logic
And braced the storm
Of humble advice
To the unfathomable depths
Of secrecy
We pray for
Clandestinity now

What has been all around
Gone through my time
Forever dreaming in red
Said the sane to the blind
Stay far away
Forever or bygone

What I have found
Is what defines me
Push the past away
Down here alone
Not to return
here I will be
Holding on to something
Turn away from all
A life now concealed for me

What I have found
Is what defines me
Push the past away
Down here alone
Not to return
here I will be
Holding on to something
Turn away from all
A life now concealed for me