1. Wanderer From The Fold

Like an empty hourglass
Time has come to a halt
Where the overthrown is now rebuilding
Shifting to a sight unseen
Set against the obscure
In this breeding ground of doubt and yielding

Fear without a stop
Without restraint
As the world goes I must keep my head
Clear out of the way
Out of this hold
Latching on to all I used to shed

When the wolf is at the door
On the hunt for a change
Unreality becomes existence
Cannot burn this frostbite off
Everliving ordeal
Always close at heart, yet in the distance

I am the wanderer from the fold
Through aimless days I drift alone
But never on my own
What is part of me
Is also part of you
Sleeping in the nameless depths
Waiting to come to the throne

Fear without a stop
Without restraint
As the world goes I must keep my head
Clear out of the way
Out of this hold
Latching on to all I used to shed

I am the wanderer from the fold
Through aimless days I drift alone
But never on my own
What is part of me
Is also part of you
Sleeping in the nameless depths
Waiting to come to the throne

The day of death never came
No funeral, no dark exit
The nights of murder and breathing shadows
I watched the sun rise

2. Perfecting The Void

When built, the damage done
The all-absorbing eye
With ball and chain
Against the grain
Where lost tomorrows die

Feeding storm
Yet the walls still stand
Changing form
King of nothing on a throne of sand

Cannot break out of this maze
Said to leave a deep trace – once designed
What has been fought since day one
In a war never won – now defined

This deadweight of the soul
A state of siege upheld
The worlds I weave
Of make-believe
In waking dreams expelled
The more the truth distorts
The less the mond is a blur
Thought correction
Resurrection
Patching up the future

Feeding storm
Yet the walls still stand
Changing form
King of nothing on a throne of sand

Cannot break out of this maze
Said to leave a deep trace – once designed
What has been fought since day one
In a war never won – now defined

Void of anguish
Nourished by isolation and self deception
Subconsciously I must have felt as awe and dread increased
My nightmares will soon all be so vivid and visible
The punishment came to strike

As the roots come undone
Bit by bit, one by one
Ripping out any chance of control
Life is caught in a haze
Preying on rainy days
Giving rise to a shell of a soul

Watch fate take wing!

As the roots come undone
Bit by bit, one by one
Ripping out any chance of control
Life is caught in a haze
Preying on rainy days
Giving rise to a shell of a soul

What thrives in hiding
And on fear
Is making itself known
Like doubt in the clear
A shared illusion
Shown and destroyed
The error perfecting the void

Cannot break out of this maze
Said to leave a deep trace – once designed
What has been fought since day one
In a war never won – now defined

3. Bleed Heavens Dry

Cannot clear this hideaway
Building walls inside
All I see is what now lies before me
Set aside the cutting edge
Navigate the clouds
Ride the non-existent of its cobwebs

I know this trail only too well
Leading astray my control
The time has come to break the spell
Once and for all

Jaded patterns of the mind
Making terms with fate
In the watches of the night I am set free
On the hunt for exit roads
Ways of shedding skin
Something that will give the key another turn

I know this trail only too well
Leading astray my control
The time has come to break the spell
Once and for all

At the far end of despair
Where the sun departs
The bare bones of reality
Reformed in dreamlike states
Altered source
The sticking point
Materialized in the flesh
A new form of hell
Bleeding heavens dry

I know this trail only too well
Leading astray my control
The time has come to break the spell
Once and for all

4. Winning Where Losing Is All

Welcome into my maze
A labyrinth of concern
Once clear and easy to grasp
Now point of no return

Gateways, backwards though time
Curtains falling on every morning's sun

In spite of myself
I am bleeding ascendancy dry
Restructuring shells
Where my vision will not turn a blind eye

Welcome into my maze
A labyrinth of concern
Once clear and easy to grasp
Now point of no return

No tomorrows grace will end this – what is known as the dark night of the soul

In spite of myself
I am bleeding ascendancy dry
Restructuring shells
Where my vision will not turn a blind eye
This newborn despair
Cannot take away my bearing wall
Yet in disrepair
As I am winning where losing is all

This journey will be long, I know
Though it appears to take me nowhere
It has me retained
It might have no end, no salvation
All I can do is dream
And at the same time curse all hope

5. In Moments Of Despair

At the heart of innocence
Outlooks torn and shadows trenched
Found a shelter from the wind once blowing hard
Fearsome stories laying claim of a beast no man can tame
The remains of shattered hopes and visions scarred

Yet another thorned embrace
As if all falls into place
On an ever-changing path to the unseen
Where defiance comes to feed
Captured struggle shall be freed
A new nightmare born with every waking dream

Day in and day out
Always at my side
By reason of doubt
Cannot bridge this great divide
Way in and way out
Crossing swords with pride
The odds you now shout
From the deadlocked halls inside

When the tide is on the turn
And the ropes around you burn
Cutting out the deadwood of the sightless host
Under mind-expanding skies
Failed conceptions cleanse the eyes
It is in moments of despair we live the most

Day in and day out
Always at my side
By reason of doubt
Cannot bridge this great divide
Way in and way out
Crossing swords with pride
The odds you now shout
From the deadlocked halls inside

Day in and day out
Always at my side
By reason of doubt
Cannot bridge this great divide
Way in and way out
Crossing swords with pride
The odds you now shout
From the deadlocked halls inside

6. Second To None

Ever – ever and again
Calling in, striking blind
Setting up a claim for the throne supreme
Always – always at a stop
Constant sameness, well in hand
Crossing paths no matter how far apart

I know holding the line against myself
Will just brace what cannot be cast out
As though bridging the void in which I dwell

Under – under various forms
Keeping off, bending rules
Grinding down the sun once risen in vain
Order – order of the stray
Reckless yearning, punished will
Entering a state unknown to the mind

I know holding the line against myself
Will just brace what cannot be cast out
As though bridging the void in which I dwell

With the seasons we change as one, body and soul
The shadow of my shadow
The abyss that makes me whole

With the seasons we change as one, body and soul
The shadow of my shadow
The abyss that makes me whole

I know holding the line against myself
Will just brace what cannot be cast out
As though bridging the void in which I dwell

7. Targeting Blaze

Targeting blaze
Like a mass of fire
Climbing higher
Targeting blaze
Never to retire
Poisoning desire

See the shift in cold print
Born in the blink of an eye
Will I ever be the same?

Targeting blaze
Always ner in hiding
Endless, biding
Targeting blaze
Till no longer guiding
What is now colliding

See the shift in cold print
Born in the blink of an eye
Will I ever be the same?
Laid siege to all at once
Torn in the blink of an eye
Time to play the waiting game

8. Alter (The Unbearable Weight Of Nothing)

Laid out smokescreens
Blaze the trail
Fear triumphant
As I fail

The dream incinerator
A black hole on the rise
The darkness generator
Casting its shadow

Alter, set to ride the wings of the unknown
Alter, old tomorrows now adjusting
Alter, an agenda carving change in stone
Alter, the unbearable weight of nothing

Range of vision
Narrowed down
Lucid breathing
As I drown

The dream incinerator
A black hole on the rise
The darkness generator
Casting its shadow

Alter, set to ride the wings of the unknown
Alter, old tomorrows now adjusting
Alter, an agenda carving change in stone
Alter, the unbearable weight of nothing

The cold shield broken through
Transparent passage
The onset of a storm
Gathered in the ashes
Across the sands of time
Beyond the frontier
Where voids form the patterns
You will find my sphere

Alter!

9. Wield The Scepter

The blaze of a dying sun, lighting up the skies
An extinction watched from behind a two-way mirror
Broken source of energy rebuilt
Piercing through the multiple shields

I cannot see, nor can I hear
Senses blocked, as I am trying to get back
If I set free the change I fear
Will I be thrown off the track?
On the razor's edge of fate, wielding the scepter

The beast does not change and the beast is hungry
A scent beyond the compass of the human mind
Here where the limits are indefinite
And reason is on a hiding to nothing

I cannot see, nor can I hear
Senses blocked, as I am trying to get back
If I set free the change I fear
Will I be thrown off the track?
On the razor's edge of fate, wielding the scepter

Tried to turn away from the truth denied
When the enemy is your will deified
Torn inside all through

Phasing out of loss, constraint and despair
Like a closing wound, yet beyond repair
This tide is running strong
Phasing out the chapter
The now is where you belong
Awaiting ever so long
This tide is running strong

I cannot see, nor can I hear
Senses blocked, as I am trying to get back
If I set free the change I fear
Will I be thrown off the track?
On the razor's edge of fate, wielding the scepter

10. I, Nemesis

Changes come as seasons go
Camouflage will hide no such scar as mine
Anger and fear versus emptiness
This strange vendetta tears at the heart of my soul

You cannot save me
Nobody can

A firm refusal to die
But barely holding on
To whatever that is near
Obsessions and madness
Come as unforeseen saviors

So run from me, just run
Cause no matter what I may want
I am sill going to hurt
Do not try to change this
I stopped so many years ago
I humbly accept and remain
Almost begun liking my stay

You cannot save me
Nobody can

And when you have been here
For as long as I have been
You will slowly turn, becoming part of hell itself

You should be full of fear
To really have to live by your words
In an ever ongoing everyday war
Not chosen nor played by any set of rules
Your appeasement and naivety
Is an insult, it nauseates me
One day in my prison
Your will to live would perish quickly
We are not the same
I have become something else
So vastly different
Oceans and depths
Filled with only hurt
From here to there
No equal do stand by me

I, nemesis

My hell
My heaven
Your nightmare
My world

And when you have been here
For as long as I have been
You will slowly turn, becoming part of hell itself