1. On The Ledge
Anchorwoman: "Welcome back, now we take you downtown to a situation that is unfolding. A men is standing at the top of
a building. We have our reporter live on the scene, please tell us what is happening!"
Reporter: "Yes, we are here flying over a building where an elegantly dressed man is standing on the ledge. We still
don't know the causes but policemen and firemen are on the way to the scene and... wait, wait! Something strange is
happening now: he is sitting!"
Lit by the world outside me like never before
They're just waiting for more, morbidly
Tonight I'll be here with thoughts unclear
Taking a journey with me
Retracing my whole life of misery
All the choices I have made
And all the ones that I've delayed
Are tormenting me
Like a ghost that I am still feeding
I wish I had the courage to lose myself and fall
I sat down on a ledge in my hometown
That will condemn me or forgive me
I'm at a crossroads, where is my way out?
To live in regrets or die to make amends?
Eyes on me, I'm the freak
Can you see me, my beloved?
On your TV screens, there's just what you all created
Drop by drop and step after step walking over me
Suddenly sounds became much duller
As I am diving in the depths of memory
Will I find the answers to it all?
Will I rescue myself?
I was asking just for one more possibility
But every god seems to be deaf to me
Fasten my seatbelt and close my eyes
Journey will begin in a moment
Bite the bullet and you'll slowly understand the reason
I sat down on a ledge in my hometown
That will condemn me or forgive me
I'm at a crossroads, where is my way out?
To live in regrets and fall to pieces
Or die as a sinner and make my amends?
The answers are here or thirty floors away
2. Our Horizon
Lost in her eyes, I see true love and empathy
Hand in hand we'll walk and I'll feel more than I can see.
She's my whole wide world, floodlit by the Sun
A wildflower meadow with no walls and echoes that finally I can run
But something still consumes me
The worm of hesitation
(Don't leave me, stay with me forever)
Am I prepared for a life in three?
A new dawn, a new way to face reality
I'll never be the same from now on
She's my lifeline
Boss: "Yes Abraham, next year I'll give you your long service bonus!"
Waiting a pay raise
I dream of living the high life
Boss: "Don't worry Adrian, in two years you'll have that pay raise you longed for so much!"
I have faith in him
Why on Earth would he betray me?
I'm shining on my own and rising from the ashes of my demons gone
I see no turning back on this decision I made, there are no dark
Shadows on our horizon, I feel alive and conscious of it
When we're old, we'll read our story without dreaming something more
Within your arms I found something heavenly
A taste of perfection laid here on Earth
I take on the day just to sleep with you at night
Dreaming of you smiling at me
Be with me, walk with me
Reason with me, bear with me
Talk with me, argue with me
Come with me on an island
Just surrounded by our love
But something still consumes me
The worm of hesitation
Don't leave me, stay with me
I'm shining on my own and rising from the ashes of my demons gone
I see no turning back on this decision I made, there are no dark
Shadows on our horizon, I feel alive and conscious of it
When we're old, we'll read our story without dreaming something more
3. K
What is changing in you?
Will you rip apart inside?
I stare at your medical report
All my fears are taking form today
As if someone heard me begging not to live this
You're playing the final act
And I can just see you wither
How can your cells treat you like a stranger
Now that we were one?
Anne (voicemail): "Hi, you reached 404-3374. Please, leave a message after the tone"
Dr. Greedy: "Hi, this is Dr. Greedy from the hospital. Please, come here immediately. We have your CT scan, MRI and
blood analysis results"
Moments and memories
Are beautiful petals
But can be sharp black thorns
When they are all that remain
Leaves are now falling
And flowers are spoiling
This autumn of your life
Is passing, no spring will come
You cannot recognize what is a memory
Is it something you have or something you lost?
Memories are all that remain, but what if you have
More to remember from your past than to live?
All my nightmares flash before my eyes
Waiting for the last time I will look into yours
You're playing the final act
And I can just see you wither
How can your cells treat you like a stranger
Now that we were one?
I'm the one who'll remain
Between pictures and pain
My light burns out
Please God, don't let her leave me
Stay here, don't leave me
Stay here
4. As I Close My Eyes
Adam: "Goodnight..."
Anne: "This won't be a good night"
As I close my eyes and lights start to fade out
A familiar shape appears in my dream
With Anne's rosebud lips and my voice, it leaves no choice
Other than let his words reach my ears
"I am the future you won't face
No one will hear your scream
I'm not the one you will embrace
And then
Goodbye, I'll let you admire me one last time
Tonight the twist of fate unveils itself"
5. Trace On The Seaside
Walking alone with hands in pockets
Feeling cold inside of me, inside you
Stepping on the sand that once nurtured us
Watching those footsteps
Nearer the sea
Faster they will shrink
Further you are
Forgotten you'll be
Is it all that we can learn
From this tiring life?
We're just traces on the seaside
Then erased by the tide
Even if you weathered the ebb
There's another flow just waiting
Turning my back on the destination
All I see is a perfect shape
Violently smoothed by the sea
Nothing is forever, that's the reason
I stand still on the edge of sanity
Pushed by all my fears whispering in my ears
My faults
Radio speaker: "You're listening to Soul Secret on Radio 4"
We're just traces on the seaside
Then erased by the tide
Even if you weathered the ebb
There's another flow just waiting
6. Turning The Back Page
Blurred, out of nowhere she comes
Smiling like never before
Is this fictitious or real?
Can you hear this sound?
Anne: "Rip the soul out of me"
Awake and sweating
Anne: "Before it starts from within"
Trembling, still I'm petrified
Anne: "My mother's path I won't retrace"
Accepting her will
Anne: "Better to stop than to fade out"
The only thing to do is to give her
The courage I've never had in my life
A trial that now arrived to prove that I'm alive
So don't be afraid my dear
Pass the door with no fear
The future is so unclear
It's turning the back page of your path
You were just a child
Saw your mom on a bed
Suffering
Craving a faster passing away
Now that it comes to us
You're so decisive
I'm in a room, on a bench
While the injection is starting
The courage I've never had in my life
A trial that now arrived to prove that I'm alive
So don't be afraid my dear
Pass the door with no fear
The future is so unclear
It's turning the back page of your story
Of your path
Of our life
7. Silence
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8. In A Frame
Adam: "You're beautiful..."
Anne: *laughs*
Now you dwell in a frame
Staring at me
Time has passed and I'm torn
Between memories I have and moments forever lost
I'm at a crossroads, where is my way out?
Traveling forward, there's no roundabout
Your eyes lie still
While mine are trying not to believe
You're gone and on my shoulders
There's an entire world crushing me, but
At night, I dust off all your pictures
Where you were smiling
So I feel you still with me
A lullaby that gently makes me dream
9. My Lighthouse
"Life," just a senseless word
Without you here guiding me through
The warp of a tissue stained with my guilt
And, worse still, my negligence
I'm scratching my head
What will I do? Is anybody here helping me?
I want to know the road to walk
Asking nothing less or nothing more
Victim of a continuum
Leading me to the circle of foolish lovers
She was my lighthouse and shone far away
All that remains in my hands is just an handful of
Unsettled memories scratching my heart again
I am casting adrift from what I know
No natives in there, no one will help
Stuck in a savage void, hammering
I'll raise my head, I'll do my best
I won't regress, I will progress
Unwillingness
Abandoned at the sea, sun is hiding in a cloud
The wind is pushing me three or four degrees off course
Wave after wave I'll be so far
I'll disappear into the stars
I'll kiss my sanity goodbye
She was my lighthouse and shone far away
All that remains in my hands is just an handful of
Unsettled memories scratching my heart again
Within your arms I found something heavenly
A taste of perfection laid here on Earth
I take on the day just to dream of you
I have faith in God
Why on Earth would he betray me?
She was my lighthouse and shone far away
She was my light, a guide in the night
And shone far away, and shone far away
10. Downfall
At last everything's clear now
I have never had control of my life
All along we kept repeating we were free to choose
But where is the freedom if you have no freedom not to choose?
Only now I realize it
Afraid of being at the helm
Of my existence, at the mercy of the winds
I cannot bear it anymore
But I'm out of time
Way before you realize it, everything has been set
Even though you reject it
In a world that forgot us in the deep
With no ray of hope, one behind the other
Heading to the downfall
What can I do this time, now that all
The pieces are gathered and I see the full picture?
Like a sinner I fall on my knees
Please God, hear my words and choose the penance for me
I won't answer back
Arrived at the crossroads, the choices are just two
To live in regrets or die to make amends?
Way before you realize it, everything has been set
Even though you reject it
In a world that forgot us in the deep
With no ray of hope, one behind the other
Heading to the downfall
11. The White Stairs
Tightly between my hands
Holding my face again
But this time I have to take action
Today, at last, I'll raise my head
Taking at least a bow
Before the crowd leaves
Without any clapping
I will disconnect
Adam: "All the choices in my life, all the ones I've never had the courage to make, were there for a reason. To prove
me that I was different, that I could drop out of the queue slowing marching to the altar where every human being is
labeled and standardized. I can still do something, now that nothing remains for me: to set an example to the ones
behind me."
I have never been the one that people imitate
But tonight I'll finally take off my weight
Crawling in the desert of my imagination
On the way up the white stairs that divide me from the final station
Carry on!
You were my dream
A dream that came true
And now what I have is a handful of nothing
Clenching my fist I realize
I wanted more from my work (did I contend?)
Even more for my son (was it worth it?)
In a blink of an eye my time started to run out
Life's not so good as to forewarn us
Watching a building from the cold street that I am walking
I feel a magnetic attraction I cannot explain
I hear it say to me "Come up here, you'll find all the answers you want"
I close my eyes and go where my heart is pulling strongly
And like a last wish, the destiny gives consent to it
Step after step I will climb the stairs until I'll see the shining moonlight
I'll be so near the short-sighted gods
They'll surely see me this time
I see you among the stars and
I'll reach you, I give my word
These white stairs divide me from the final station
Carry on!
Finally here, alone with myself
All I see an infinite stairway
Cry, shiver but don't look back now
I'm shining on my own and rising from the ashes of my demons gone
I see no turning back from this last decision I made tonight
I'm still up on the ledge and as I stand up I decide if
This journey led me to step forward or to step back
Voices: "You..."
Adam: "Who are you? Who's talking?"
Voices: "You didn't have the courage to take center stage at work"
Adam: "How do you know!?"
Voices: "You didn't have the courage to give the world a child when you could have"
Adam: "But... I couldn't have given him the life he deserved!"
Voices: "Shut up, liar! You didn't have the courage to change Anne's mind! She could have cured herself! She could have
saved herself!"
Adam: "The doctor said it was nearly impossible!"
Voices: "... and now, you don't even have the courage to end it all!"
[Adam throws himself and screams]
Anne: "Adam... Adam? Wake up, it's late! You've got to go to work!"
Adam: "Anne!?"
Anne: "Yes?"
Adam: "What are you doing here?"
Anne: "What? Are you OK?"
Adam: "You... you were..."
Anne: "I was what?"
Adam: "You were dead..."
Anne: "Oh, you're so scared! Maybe you had a fitful sleep... I know you just want a big big breakfast prepared by your
lovely Anne, isn't it?"
Adam: "Yes... like in the old days"
Anne: "Old days? The last time was yesterday!"
Adam: "It's not important... I have you here again... come here Anne... come here my love..."
Anne: "Adam? Adam, everything is OK! Hey... Adam!"
Adam: *cries*