1.

2. Limerent Death

I'm amazed at how you'll reinforce your guard
'Cause deep inside you're still a son of a bitch
Mistakes forever haunt you a lie to persecute you
So thoroughly it's giving you fits, it's giving you fits

In your world make believe
No one knows you
Hold your breath count to ten

Peering through a vacant glass
That nothing can hope to ever fill
When movement ceases and everything is still
I thought that time was frozen
Instead my resting state
I thought we'd be forever
What was I to say

You were never alone
You just didn't know
Where to fucking go

But who will hear you fall?
If no one's there at all

Do you...
Are you a-OK?
...feel fine?
Do you wake up smiling?
Do you...
Do you feel alright?
...feel fine?
Are you always shining?

Do you feel fine?
Do you feel fine?
Do you wake up smiling?

I'm amazed at how you'll reinforce your guard
'Cause deep inside you're still a son of a bitch
Mistakes forever haunt you a lie to persecute you
So thoroughly it's giving you fits, it's giving you fits

Giving you fits
Giving you... fits
Giving you fits
Giving you fits
Giving you fits
Giving you fits

I gave you everything you wanted,
You were everything to me
I gave you everything you wanted,
You were everything to me

I gave you everything you wanted,
You were everything to me [9x]
I gave you

In your world make believe
In your world no one loves you

3. Symptom Of Terminal Illness

To those of you I loved this pains me to lose
I hate to feel used

I'm frightened in sleep thinking my world will be gone
Promise me I won't die
I panic in dreams from when I was still young
Please don't turn on that light I can't see it

To those of you I've lost that pained me to love
Please know that I tried,
Please know that I tried

I'm frightened in sleep thinking my world will be gone
Promise me I won't die
I panic in dreams from when I was still young
Please don't turn on that light I can't see it

Do you really think that I would leave you but I couldn't stand myself so I had to choose
Still you turn me on the wild in your eyes but now I can't trust myself to keep on the light
For us to see with

I'm frightened in sleep thinking my world will be gone
Promise me I won't die
I panic in dreams from when I was still young
Please don't turn on that...

4. Wanting Not So Much To As To

In a lifeless memory you're not there a craving in the street
I'm alive and getting an urge to fill the void
With whatever I need
With whatever I need
With whatever I need

I withdraw you advance the move is complete
Are you able to see?
'cause it's getting too bright for me
Over time we'll dissolve
To a feeling we won't recall

Bring all your heroes down to their knees
I don't need nothing I do as I please

Destiny overruled through distance
I'm losing creation of your mind
Through distance I'm losing
Through distance I'm losing

All night I've been trying to reach out
How people naturally do when they're young
An attempt to live to feel weightless and free
In the abyss
In the abyss

For a time I felt completely alive
Still without legs we all just sink

In the past I would have tried harder
But now I know
There isn't anything there
And what you, I, we were reaching for
Is something I had in me all along

For a time I felt completely alive
Still without legs we all just sink

We see most clear
From lowest points

We see most clear
From lowest points

We see most clear
From lowest points

Through distance we're losing
Hope for our dignity

Bring all your heroes down to their knees
I don't need nothing I do as I please

5. FUGUE

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6. Low Feels Blvd

Lonely in a room of memories from another life
Waiting and chasing moments that elude
Why can't I escape

Waiting and chasing memories of moments that are gone
When first she looked at me
And sipped her drink across from me

Newborn hell was it all along
Right there with me inside reflecting on the outside

If it won't die can I
Some days I look at things as if they never existed
And others it's all right here

I've been thinking aloud about the way it went
I guess we're having a moment right now
Having a moment right now
I guess we're having a moment right now
Having a moment right now

Best of them all
Memories long gone
Lately I'm thinking were they all along

What then becomes of letters never sent
In stillness you can hear us
Never far away

7. Surrogate

Any thought of moving on
Is a loop without an end back to the beginning

Reliving this over and over and over and over
While everything around me moves
Detached to protect others more than myself
Well, I'm afraid of how this ends

No comfort in absolutes
No places without time
I am the beginning

Reliving this over and over, and over, and over
While everything around me moves
Detached to protect others more than myself
Well, I'm afraid of how this ends

Reliving this over and over, and over, and over
While everything around me moves
Detached to protect others more than myself
Well, I'm afraid of how this ends

Now a monumental waste

I refuse to be a crutch for your disease
I refuse to carry on your tragedy
I refuse...

All your secrets
Never shared
Programmed into me

All your secrets
Never shared
Programmed into me

Well, I'm afraid of how this ends
I never thought such things before
Ignorance is indeed bliss
And knowledge isn't just power
It's torture
I see you trying to get to me
But I'm alone even in the most crowded room
Screaming inside like an animal
Inside confused and scared

Trying to survive in this place
Over and over, and over

Trying to survive this place
Over and over

Trying to survive this place
Over and over, and over

Trying to survive this place
Over and over

8. Honeysuckle

I'm lying here wondering am I dying inside
Am I diseased I'm feeling pretty weak
My lungs are full of fluid
will they continue to fill?
is this nearly the end?

I used to be so pissed off

Then I forgot
then I erased
Then I just fucking erased you

Not for nothing
I was born so happy
but now it just takes so much to keep me alive

I was born so happy
but now it just takes so much to keep me alive
I thought I'd be better without you
the past is always poison to me

Tried to forget
Tried to erase you

From the rain that never falls
From the wind that blows away from me
From the waves on the other shores
From the taste of air surrounding me

I'm stuck at the corner of how long
I'm stuck at the corner of how long

So hard to be awake
Like hell to fall asleep

Tried to forget,
Tried to forget

So hard to be awake
Like hell to fall asleep

Let me erase,
Let me erase

A time and place
I can't forget, I can't forget
Your face

I can't erase, I can't erase, I can't erase, I can't erase

Claw away at the wound inside
Rip into my flesh to find a light
It's suffocating in here
And it's only me
Come a little bit closer please

9. Manufacturing Discontent

Discarded a broken escape
Fortunate to be in this state
Firing on a boredom innate
Chewing on a ticking grenade
Listening to the comforting shade
Instinctive

I'm supporting a string of destructive habits
And fighting more than I care to admit

Crumbling from a sudden dead weight

Here lies me
Now what's the meaning

Here lies me
Now what's the meaning
Oh won't you tell me

Now won't you tell me the point
I was trying to find myself
I wasn't looking for you
But you gave me the point
I was trying to kill myself
What else was I--what else was I gonna do?

I had a pretty good time
I had a pretty good time

A long goodbye
Ascension to demise
A vow to break
A lesson for the wise

I was put here to survive
Why is your burden mine

Holding space for this
There's a place we must have missed

They're open real late
And I believe that we should go
As a consolation
But directions are unknown

Tonight would be the perfect time for us to reach the peak

It takes a lot to try to care
The truth's below the surface, beneath the deep
When you live on the thinnest air
And even condescension comes with a fee

Slow to care
Slow to care

Now you tell me the point
I was trying to find myself
I wasn't looking for you
Looking for you
Looking
But you gave me the point
I was trying to kill myself
What else was I gonna do, gonna do?
I had a pretty good time

10. Apologies Not Included

I'm finding nothing
No point just energy to burn
A pocketful of pointless and faded days

What have you done
This never-ending heart attack
Is spilling over self murderous assault

Late hours turn to blur
A boiling inner temperature

Late hours turn to blur
A boiling inner temperature
This never-ending murderous assault
Late hours turn to blur

Crowned waves torrid sea washing years over me
Myself into a knot in sudden overdose
Myself into a knot in sudden overdose

Someone is moving but who is staying still
Or have we grown apart
How selfish of you not to find
You didn't look for peace to gain from being alive

Fuck if I care it doesn't matter
Ignore the more things stay the same
Fuck I don't care the more things never change
I'm not sorry for you
Fuck if don't care it doesn't matter,
Ignore--
I'm not sorry, you didn't look, but

I'm finding nothing
No point just energy to burn
A pocketful of pointless and faded days

Make yourself present are you hiding
Do you feel guilt cause mine's dying
Worked through your waste now there's nothing
But maybe there's still hope

11. Nothing To Forget

Innocent angel watching over me
Covering up in a crown of thorns so I could not see
Guilty by birth a choice that wasn't mine
Seeding me deep with a terror growing over time

Covering up so I could not see
Covering up so I could not see
Covering up so I could not see
Your fingers choking me

Please let me be by myself
I don't need anything
Please let me be by myself
I don't need anything
Please let me be by myself
I don't need anything
Please let me be by myself
I don't need anyone else

Anything just to gain the years I lost
Driven by instinct resolute and I'm the cost
I don't remember existing at all
Only in moments as I struggle not to fall

Please let me be by myself
I don't need anything
Please let me be by myself
I don't need anything
Please let me be by myself
I don't need anything
Please let me be by myself
I don't need anyone else

In darkened rooms
As I try to look for you
I feel our forgotten days
With nothing to light the way
With all your fears as a fuel to get me here
I climbed out of others graves and swam through a tidal wave

In darkened rooms
When I stop looking for you
I'll illuminate the days and make sure to light the way

Please let me be by myself
I don't need anything
Please let me be by myself
I don't need anything
Please let me be by myself
I don't need anything
Please let me be by myself
I don't need anyone else

Please let me be by myself
I don't need anything
Please let me be by myself
I don't need anything
Please let me be by myself
I don't need anything
Please let me be by myself
I don't need anyone else

12. Dissociation

By the last time in the car
Then I already knew
At the time I laughed
I didn't know what to believe

Couldn't stay for you
What a strange way to lose

Take you, I couldn't take you
Don't confuse being set free with being discarded and lonely
I tried to tell you we never change
I let you go
And when I left
I really tried to tell myself it was for me and not--
It was for me and not you

Couldn't stay for you
What a strange way to lose

Finding a way to die alone
Is better than what I was shown

Couldn't stay for you
What a strange way to lose

Finding a way to die alone
Couldn't stay for you
Is better than what I was shown
What a strange way to lose

Finding a way to die alone
Finding a way to die alone
Finding a way to die alone
Finding a way to die alone
Finding a way to die alone
Finding a way to die alone