1. At The Barricades

So, it's a fact now, what should have been the bloody years of my life, down the drain
So, I'm on the bed, I hate my heart for pumping
Things will never be the same
Wish I was dead and no one cared
Wish I was dead and that I dared
Left to fight despair
Truthfully I really should have been aware
I clench my fists
So, I bite down hard, I won't go out like this
Yes, you'll find me there... at the barricades
See you at the barricades; meet you there, at the barricades
So, I'm at the front
I hate my heart for pumping
Things will always be the same
It always ends like this, always had and always will
You're all the same
Wish I was dead and no one cared
Wish I was dead and that I dared
Wish you were dead and no one cared
Wish you were dead and that I dared
See you at the barricades; meet you there, at the barricades

2. Crash Course

Racing rain-drenched roads of dimness, the incessant light-pulse
Invades your privacy, heading nowhere special
An indecisive gaze at nothing as your mind's drawn blank and outside features start to fade
Sad to see you end this way, chasing your self-hatred
Streetlights flashing by in thousands, the city traffic's round the bend
Seems your number has come up, it's closing stages now
Look, here comes the end
As the pulses intensity, a shimmer on the pallor of your face
You see the crash and press down hard, somehow to ease the impact
You know you should have hit the brakes, what a fucking waste
The way the world just smashed right into your face
So many things you should have done, the spans you could have run
I'm sad to see you end this way
Sad to see you end this way, facing your self-hatred

3. Thanks To You

I feel tired of all my expectations constantly getting ruined by her
Of all I ever wanted from life being guarded by some bloody unbreakable wall
Seems I'll never get there
Seems I'll never break through, thanks to you...

Suck my dry!
I give myself, my soul, my will
I give it all to you
Don't you dare let go
I give my life, my whole
I give it all to you!

Seems I'll never get there
Seems I'll never break through, thanks to you...
I feel cheated on my enthuasism over certain aims I've set
On the fundamental will to create
Seems I'm always held back by her distant ways
Seems she's pulling the leash every time I'm in need of a chase...

Suck my dry!
I give myself, my soul, my will
I give it all to you
Don't you dare let go
I give my life, my whole
I give it all to you!

I need her to break me
I like when she hates me
I know there's a comfort in fading
Vaguely declininng
The pulse rising high as she tightens the grip
The drought left behind as she empties it all...

4. Second And Last But Not Always

Hanging by the thinnest of threads
Trying to secure a decent grip before you slash the line
Clearly, it's a futile act
Truth be told that's how I felt the whole time
Waiting for the verdict to fall
You're not fit to stay here
I knew it all along

Visibly, I cannot help
You were meant to assure me so I did not stray
I felt it all along
Obviously, I cannot help it
You were meant to assure me...

Can you recall?
Realise, with bitter hindsight
You were meant to applaud me, reassure me
Instead you slash the line
I knew it all along

Visibly, I cannot help
You were meant to assure me so I did not stray
I felt it all along
Obviously, I cannot help it
You were meant to assure me
My precious, my precious hell!

5. Revelling Masses

The spread of tension mounting to the point it feels you're to explode
Pressure rising, muscles cramp
Then comes the blast of expectations
You've got nowhere left to hide
You've got nowhere left to hide
You're struggling desperately to overcome the strain
Lashing out at everyone, in vain
The closing hit that match the marking of your first
Delivered into chaos, you're alive
You've got front row goddamn seats to gloat at misery
The lack of empathy shines through
I know you hear me, although unable to relate
I know you hear me
Live and breathe... from revelling masses
Learn to feed on revelling masses
The end is approaching
Seeping in to lay it's veil-like calm upon you
To soothe and ease an erratic mind
The revelling masses starts to fade...

6. Leave-Takings

Hear now, my pretty
You're not around too frequently, so please note I miss you
But certain things are still untold
This I will bestow, apart from what you know
Christ, I'm sorry love
I'm a sinner
Sought for by pity, hence every corner shelter
Hunted shamelessly
I think I'm giving in
Truth be told, I'm feeling old
I have no strength
I'm a quitter!
Leave-takings...
Trust me, my pretty, when I say I'm truly sorry and notice I'll miss you
But I am truthful to my name
Honest with my shame
I really need the blame
Yes, I'm truthful to my name
I'm a sinner
Too weary to press on
What was is forever gone
Embittered by the trend
What's broken you cannot mend...

7. The Cost

Slaughter by the minute, profit by the day
Everyone is in it, media accentuates
Self is just a word now, meaningless to all
Narcissistic models show you how to fall

Think no more!
Think no more!
So, this... this is what you wanted to withhold?
In truth, that is all you ever seem to do

Exceeding, surpassing, mere growing, mere rising
They're killing perception
We're victims of craze
The thinner the better, the weightless, beget her!
The world breaking way, it's all in your head
This is not an act, I hope you realize the pain it causes
It's a goddamn fact, the amount of load put on our backs

Murder by the minute, earnings by the day
Everyone is in it, media accentuates
We are just a market, watch us how we crawl
Down on bloodied knees now, how they bought us all

Think no more!
Think no more!
So, this... this is what you wanted to withhold?
In truth, that is all you ever seem to do

8. Deadened

I know that it is dark, love
I know that it's hard to push ahead
You might seem faint now but I know you'll shine with full force one day
It's not as if I've killed you
It's not as if you've died
I might have fed you cancer but nothing you can't hide!
I wish for progress
I wish for growth, for you to prosper and show some backbone
With you a circlet
Wish you a throne, for you to strenghten, stand on your own
I know I brought the plague, love
O know that I chose side
I'd make amends but it would cost too much merely for the ride
Poor excuse, although a fact
You knew from the start it was all an act
I haven't always lacked concern
A simple choice to have it burned
But a door that leads to nowhere, a gun without a cause
A letter lacking address or like anger without pause...
I find you distancing yourself
I find you mean, a cutting sharp infection, so hopelessly unclean!
She stares with dead eyes, quitened, insane
Her cancer's clear though, time and time again
I need some help here
She's lost control, a raving black disease inside her soul
Her tongue is spiteful but means no ill
It's this wretched cancer that slowlt kills...

9. One Warning

I will not stop for anything
I will not drop this for anyone
You'll have to learn to appreciate the fact that you're the one I hate
The one I hate!

One warning, that's all you get
One single notice, care to bet?

Reach for my gun, soon to realise
No matter what you'll be lying
I wake at nights crying out for you
Ear-splitting mindless point of views, point of views...

One warning, that's all you get
One single notice, care to bet?

I wonder why, I wish you'd say
I know you won't, to my dismay
I cannot live like this and I really don't appreaciate what you sense...

One warning, that's all you get
One single notice, care to bet?

10. Settle Soon

The black, closing around you...
The lack, to tuck you in...
Tears to bid you goodnight
Fears to wake you just to find...
The hurt, it's still there
A short moment there you thought it was gone
The promise never to forget
The secret pledge of alltime suffering
This fever will break ar some point
The dark mist, settle soon
Perhaps but one things certain
I'll be there, try to guide you through...
I'll be your light, your second sight
Please let me guide your right
I'd make amends and I'm recomprense for all
If only I knew how
I'll be your light, your second sight
Please let me show the way back
I'll be your friend and I'll try to mend whichever piece is broken
I'll be your light, your second sight
Please let me guide your right
I'll be your light, your second sight
Please let me show the way back
I'll be your friend and I'll try to mend whichever piece is broken
This fever will break at some point, the dark mist settle soon
Perhaps but one things certain
I'll be there, try to guide you through...
Only if you want me to and only if you need me to...
Just say the word, say the word, just say the ward!