1. Number

Death, I hear you calling
But I can't come home right now
My days were few and numbered
But somebody lost count
Unlike the dust that settles down
Or fragments in the breeze
I'm now prone to supremacy
And I go on with ease

Time to climb – regain
What I've given up
Low or high – I'll never be satisfied
Transcending – I'll roam
The end is my home

I'll surmount and deride
The benumbed hands of time
Bribing the ebb of tide
It's time to climb

Time to climb – regain
What I've given up
Low or high – I'll never be satisfied
Transcending – I'll roam
The end is my home

All is dead and done
All is said and sung
But united and untied – unified
I'm turning the stone
The end is my home

At the mercy of the pouring rain
My fire inside
At the mercy of life's waterfall
My shelter's dry

2. Darkest White

Into the roar
Ignite the day's addiction
The soporific war
To numb my true attrition
It's my declaration
The altar spinning on the floor
My fight – my darkest white
The only war you will adore

I'll forever be
Head of theocracy
All the same with a different name
I am your escape
I'm your enemy
Your long lost friend
Just taste the bile to reconcile
The moment you enter your end
The darkest white

Into the core
The untilled fields of fission
I've come to still your thirst
Your hunger for submission
It's my defamation
Acidic silence makes you sore
You'll long for one more song
In every line you'll ask for more

I'll forever be
Head of theocracy
All the same with a different name
I am your escape
I'm your enemy
Your long lost friend
Just taste the bile to reconcile
The moment you enter your end
The darkest white

I'll forever be
Head of theocracy
All the same with a different name
I am your escape
I'm your enemy
Your long lost friend
Just taste the bile to reconcile
Blinded by light
The darkest white

3. Himmelfal

The familiar taste of the bullet you bite
It's your kind – the flaws of your mind

As you fall from above to a place with no love
Free your dog of desire

The familiar face of the fear that you fight
Reappears – and you're left behind

Find your seat – Now the tide and its choir are here
Hum along – drown your silence

Swing the axe for those who ran but never crawled
Raise your glass for those whose names were never called
Swing the axe for those who looked into the sun
Raise your glass for those who lost – whose games were never won

All the feelings and tears you fight to be here
Will be gone – will expire

Swing the axe for those who ran but never crawled
Raise your glass for those whose names were never called
Swing the axe for those who looked into the sun
Raise your glass for those who lost – whose games were never won

Swing the axe for those who almost hit the mark
Raise your glass for those who lost – whose hearts were never sparked
Swing the axe for those who killed your final hopes
Raise your glass for those who smiled – swaying from their ropes

4. Requiem

As lights go off one by one
When things unsaid
Are piling up
We still can't forgive how
We could forget
To dare to risk to regret
The drone of all the fools will rise and fall
Had enough but want more
The looking glass is cleaner from the other side
Your gordian knot's revealed

Every season
Every storm
A painful wish to
Be reborn
Now a second silence
Peace restored
If you lose the battle
Win the war

We make the final bow or start to run
Now my fate will be yours
You start again or go straight to the final day
Our breed – how do we plead

Every season
Every storm
Your near is cold
Your far is warm
In your sweet pain
Feel the joy
Your pleasure kills
'Cause love destroys
Choose your weapon – your door

5. Diagnosis

You and I
On either side
I closed one eye
As you confessed
Then both
So I could see
The whole of me through the cracks in you
A withered view

You said enough
It's dead enough
In a heartbeat it's over again
The twilight is pending
The end is descending
Said enough
It's dead enough

I can promise you
I love to see you fall
You'll only meet me once
And for all

Be victorious
Falling down
Be victorious
Turning around
Be victorious
Hitting the ground
Be victorious
Never to be found

6. Scarling

A cue for seconds spent on Earth
A clue – for what it's worth
Though time you borrow, steal or buy
The pool of fuel runs dry

There's no sound – just the smell of smoke
Your muse – your fuse – your own
You'll love that scent until you choke
You're free but feel disowned

Curse all the colours
Go white – fear blue
Kill all your scarlings
Before they kill you

A mighty fortress is your lord
He'll care until he won't
And all your prayers and all your praise
Will do until they don't

It's the reason for every sin
The clever blew it
It's the difference you feel within
The devil knew it

So why keep tasting
Why keep wasting
Why keep waiting – for no one

7. Night On Earth

You're peeling the pain from your canvas
The face you made with your brush
You kill your creation in anger
Cruelty that once was your crush
The painting is peeled and your darling dead
The secret of love turns its hideous head
Written in scars – cuts wide and deep
Written in stars – dark light in your sleep

Lost count of the wars – You lost count of the score
Returned to the trenches each time to fight more
Thought you escaped your nightmare – your curse
To find you were waking from one to a worse
Written in scars – cuts wide and deep
Written in stars – dark light in your sleep

It's written in scars now – your cuts wide and deep
It's written in stars now – dark light in your sleep
In memory of her brittle heart
Amused – abused – accursed
Your aquarelle – your living hell
It's right here on Earth

Erase – every trace
Of feelings and pain
Find your peace
When your lips stop saying her name

It's written in scars now – your cuts wide and deep
It's written in stars now – dark light in your sleep
In memory of her brittle heart
Amused – abused – accursed
You live to tell – You're leaving hell
It's night here on Earth

8. Lavender

All we'd say
Means nothing today
Foolish eloquence
We're silent again

Far will be farther
And now will forever
Be too late to mend
Our now will be then

Some day – I'll be yours
To keep for a while
Or another smile of youth
Will die to stay with me

Echoes of hunger
No longer resounding
Our cold craving hearts
Stopped pounding apart

Ending the circle
Still running
When you see your own back
Ahead
Outlasting the dead

Far will be farther
And now will forever
Be too late to mend
Our now ended when

9. Cypher

You wanted a song
You wanted a poem
This one is yours
And yours alone

It's locked with a code
For you to find
In scars – your design
Unjustly maligned

You wanted a view
You wanted a throne
This one is yours
And yours alone

Complexion divine
In return for your soul
Your mirror defined
What you would extol

10. Arteries

Whose side are you on
Whose side are you on
The pacifist
The pussyfist
The provocator

You speak of it
You reek of it
You're gone for good
Gone bad for good
An empty crater

Whose ride are you on

Drowning your mangled rose
Upside turning down
In the water you froze
You will leave it or believe it
When the thorns make you bleed

Like a heart attack
Like a knife in the back
He needs you just like you need him
Just bite the big bait now

Await your fate
Or chew on his leash
Just chew on his leash

Whose side are you on
Whose side are you on

Drowning your mangled rose
Upside turning down
In the water you froze
You will leave it or believe it
When the thorns make you bleed

Riding beside him
The more you defied him
Disabled and burning
The higher you're yearning

Down
All the creeks – the years
Arteries of tears
Fill your heart with the stream
Unravel shores less travelled
Or be drifting this way