1. Halflight

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death.
I fear no light I fear no pain I fear no salvation
As I stand on the top of the highest pile of skulls
I inhale fear and exhale anger...
I summon thee, spirits in the depths and in the stars
Confront me as I am, for the blasphemy against you all...
As the fallen remember the heaven and joy – I cherish all past reminiscence
The greatest curse of all in we can never forget what we've lost...
"Once I was the one to crave your light, and I was the one to ease your toil"
The greatest loss is what dies inside, dies inside of us while we live
This is how it all began, I was left with nothing
First you let me touch and feel this sober adherence
Then you make me watch you die, as I go through the motion of my life
The tranquility and calmness was what I was looking for
Now as I came to the place of no return
I'll make you all loose your belief and burn
And when it all ends, when your hopes are gone, I will understand all the things I've done
See in all the graves and weeping men upon, nowhere to go from here
I face the barrel of a gun, all knowledge come from experience
Loss and possession, death and life are one, there falls no shadow, where there shines no sun.

2. Innocence

See your father, son
Come sit and listen
I've been walking on a rather strange path
But here I am now unmasked

Take a deep breath
The monsters under your pillow
I've been passing over with silence
And I've been lying for as long as I could
So you could have your playgrounds

But now this time has come for you to know
Soon you'll start to like your sleep more and more

Because when you're awake, you'll see your life falling apart
Because when you're awake, you'll see your life falling apart
Because when you're awake, you'll see your life falling apart

And the stars and the skies you'll never reach them
You've been given a wish without being given the power to make it true..

Well well well my father, you may want to reconsider
Yet I've been told by adversary
I'm always free to change my mind
Choose a different future
Is it so?.. no!

"Look deep in my eyes past all the lies,
Past my act past this disguise,
Past the scars and past the tears,
You will see only fear."..

And this time up on the earth
Living by the "things will get better"
Holding the thoughts back will never save you from yourself
You are your own end

3. Disillusion

Oh the silence, the awakening in the middle of a scornful sky
Examination of conscience
A true believer crescendo of clarity and soul misery
Disintegrating common sense, the human hybris reckoning

For yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory of the possession
The conquering, the knowing, the fire in the heart
And vows to yourself to the world to the lovers to the enemies to deceivers and friends
Oh how far can you go in trusting to be your own god?..

How good does that sound?
How sweet is it to your ears?

They understand, they seize
They teach you to withstand the defeat, the confusion
The will to survive with nothing in the end
To maintain a delusion state of mind of control and of the power
Blissful sedative
You're free to believe what you're made of makes some sense

Somewhat powerless, roughly hedonist
You follow the pattern
Libertine free of morals
Stronger than all you're in control

Damn you oh what a tragedy
The striking wrong
Relentless soul in a cage of mortal ghoul..

Let others see what you don't see
There is no light in the tunnel..
There is no light whatsoever..

There is one thing about the mankind
A bitter lesson to learn, a reason to live
The man is just what others comprehend
They have their ways to see

So if you seem to have faith in yourself
And you're strong enough to reconcile
Acknowledge the fact, that every other conviction you may have
Is one miserable pile of secrets..

And no one will ever know
How deep is your sorrow, how joyful is your happiness
May then your fear of tomorrow reassure you of your forthcomings..

You'll be dying alone..

4. Vortex

You're the contamination of earth
Solemn strive for vicious power
Perverse repulse of darkest hour

And the world will strike back upon your urge
Will hunt you down and you're fertilized this exhausted soil
Why would you even think. why would you even try
For this one and every moment
Your visions are free to die

Solemn strive for real filth
Perverse repulse of sense of guilt

All of this has happened before
And all of this will happen again
Amor fati, scarab, the recurrence eternal
Hysterical patchwork makes no sense
You catch a piece a glance
And you tumble down to rise again

The empires falling
Twilights of the gods
Seven deadly joys cacophony
Restless hearts sleep alone tonight

5. Dismay

As you keep pushing forward
You hold on to righteous self for self power sake
Prove you're not a coward
Go on with decisions to make

In consequence of your creation
Gods are crying in dismay

Visions of the future, they will devour you
Reconciling with the past what a shame
Watch the answers change
For all questions you ever had

Comprehend, cogitate
Realize it's going nowhere, obliterate

The point of absolute prostration
A man stripped down to the very fear
And none of you shall reach out to him

Drowned in disease, crowned with your fears
Paralyzing self-righteousness, all your loves gone in tears
So close yet so far, so distant yet so near
The aesthetics gives you joy, sweetest of all decay

You're barely human, more like a creature
You may defend what's left, you many pretend to live
Horrifying death you'll be facing

I've done everything you wanted, like the ancient tragedy
You're not what you were meant to be means and ends are seen

"Learning means finding out what you may already know..."

But before the curtains close, to awaken all the hopes again
Deus ex machina is descending from the top

The audience holds the breath
Faintly rising from their seats
Eyes wide open
Here come their happy end

But wait... there's a halter on his neck
Ghastly pale going down with the ropes
Averting human's fall is the hangman's dream

6. Glare

Radiant figure hanging above your heads
Deviant image, apotheosis of a man
Crawling affiliation
Praying dying fearful acclamation bound

Commemorate the omnipotence
And inappropriate delusion of grandeur
Embrace dejection of courage
Dismay, cast down your pride

Remember
You're the one, one of many
You're the one, one of many

"My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, they will follow me."

Remember
You're the one, the one of many

Can't you see the contrivance
The world of god, useful misguidance
Killing lying in the name of divine reason
You'll never see his face

And I give them the eternal life
And they will never perish
And no one will ever snatch them out of my hand

My father who has given them to me is grater than all
And no one is able to snatch them out of the father's hand

7. Notion

Once I stated going the path I chose
Nothing seemed real, and nothing seemed impossible
I gathered the tools they gave me
I summoned all grudge and hatred and grief
Going down, way down, to see:
The sorrows, the demons, deep regrets and sins

I felt this, I was the son of magic of power of will to create
So I built all the dukedoms black, thus spoke the nightspirit

This fire that burned in the heart
This freezing moon allegiance
Mother North I commenced
Crying wolves

Speak the gospel of disease

Against the sun, across the mirrors, throughout the space
I made it all clear and selfish statement
I am what I do, will you follow me?

Now you see this my reflection of yours
You're observing it defenceless
The adherence is far beyond intention

I didn't want you to compromise your will
I didn't let you in, that's not your promised land

And the vision and the might and your insight and the light
That shines through these stained glass windows in this cell
They will never be your guide, they're here for me to hide
From all I was too weak to fight elsewhere

I don't want to leave you with nothing
But I'm afraid I have to say:
It went too far to accept it
Get away from my fairy tale

Take your toys and move away
Gather your dreams, forget them all
Before you end up like me
You don't want to end up like me

8. Disgrace

Rising of a solemn ceremonial dawn
Fainting of a darkened yet resplendent sky

Gazing down at the shadows of those I left behind
Listening to the hollow overtaking stillness

So convinced of things to come on this day
I awaited the sunrise

I kissed all that I cared of
I paid off all I owed to anyone
I closed all doors carefully, closed the undone

I wanted to collect all these moments of joy
And I have them all stand all around me now

I'm ready, the time is ripe
The things undone no more standing in the way of my resolution
My final composure
I'm done trying to live

I walked up the road to that I planned to this tallest bridge across forever
You saw me passing by and never said a word
I climbed to the top and stood right on the edge
The sun was rising, the air was thin, and you could hear the water glides

The mind so clear for this everlasting moment of clarity
The feeling so pure and free of morals as I spread my arms wide
And then I felt this cold shivers creeping flesh

I turned around convulsively holding to the ground
So scared, so terrified, I didn't make a sound

And I stayed there kneeling down, despairing and facing the dirt
Calming down this trembling flesh and bones of this wretched self
I would never thought there could be anything more pathetic than this
Why can't we neither live nor die? Why are we so weak?...

Going back, my head's down
Uttermost disgrace, and a life to face
I'm sure you were there, why didn't you push me down?
Why didn't you push me down?

I have nothing to offer to anyone
But my own confusion, my will is done

9. Fading

Ascending through the tissues, fractures, raging cells
The inner force of life builds up the flesh and spreads
Pushing so hard, willing so strong
No matter what comes, regardless of all, what for?...

Descending through the weakening force, the downward walk
Shrinking egos, shredded mind, awareness of the grave
The ending is always the same
As simple as it sounds, as obvious as ever, it all just ends

All these things you want to believe, just a need to prove you belong
All you think you want to achieve, just a mind's trick to make you proceed

"I am not what happened to me, I am what I chose to become"
Oh you wish you could say that, oh you wish for so much

So concerned about things that come next
You forget this short moment you live in
You will never have anything else
Embrace the obvious before you've gone

"The reality is what it is, not what you want it to be"
Every life comes with a death sentence

Look around and lit things lie
Now you see what you've done to the world
And you see what the world has done to you

10. Scar

We never really had a chance to build this house
Even when we tried so hard, stone by stone, piece by piece
I've built it in my head, I think I started living there
While what we really had, was turning into dust

It was full of stairs and mirrors and reflections
Like a castle of wishes adorned with deception

"No one has ever came to my door, but I think I thought I saw you try"

"You must find this place in your heart for the one you love the most"
That is myself
"Why do you say that, you never went this road before"
You made me observe

It was full of stairs and mirrors and reflections
Like a castle of wishes adorned with deception

(Each word, each cut, open wound. I stitch them up, but my scars, will do a lifetime with me...)

I loathe the faith I had
I despise this hope forlorn
Through the ashes of intention
Life is a one man show

I came to the point where happiness is what is left of the willing
I throw a match behind my back
This bouse took years to built
And a moment to burn...